98 days without binge drinking, no alcohol whatsoever.
Last weekend I made some mistakes. I glorified drinking in my head. I fantasized about how good it would be to sink a few beers how much I would enjoy spending a few days drinking, visiting a few pubs, sitting down to a load of beers watching sports. I woke up Monday morning and I almost felt like I had a hangover! I’m not going to let that lie exist this weekend. If I give in or continue to allow the thoughts fester I’ll slip up.
I can clearly see now how it was simply the addiction trying to worm.its way back in the back door. Sneaky little one so it was.
This weekend I’m going to have my guard up, I’m watching out the corner of my eye and will catch it early if it shows it’s ugly face.
6 days AF/binge drinking-free, and my first time posting in the check-in thread . The sickness and anxiety have been wild - neither has subsided. Though I did have a wonderful acupuncture session on Wednesday that took most of the nervousness away and made me feel more resilient. Mentally, it still feels like I’m sitting at the edge of fear, waiting for bad things to happen; horrible truths to unfurl.
I definitely have no desire to drink at all. So there’s one good thing.
@Dustysprungfield Good job on recognising sneaky addiction lies. Every time this happens to me I’m astonished how long it takes me to recognise it as such. @SY1234 Welcome to the thread! I hope you get better soon @Steve92 I hope your anxiety subsides soon! Fingers crossed everything turns out well with the cat. @wahtisnormal Don’t give up! Is there Maybe one good thing in your life you can hold on? @Jules000 I’m sorry you are in pain. Sending you love and hugs
79 sugar
35 UPF
1 overeating/binge
Yesterday I diligently used my tool set - regular breaks to check in with myself, self care, physical and emotional hunger scale, mindful eating - and things went so much better
No overeating, a good night’s sleep, feeling so much better today.
Today is going to be errand day including a hair cut appointment.
I’ll be going clubbing this evening with friends and I’m very much looking forward to it
I can see daylight through my windows. A day of light, peace and freedom to you fine folks
Checking in again. Today was the first time i felt like drinking in a long time. . It was a pretty intense craving as i was walking through the store. Still 2011 days alcohol free. Stil weed free. Still gamble free. And hopefully rabies free sigh…
I think you do not want to give up, I think you do not want to feel this way and I understand that completely.
I’m sorry you feel in a funk.
Try to focus on yourself and put you in the centre. You and recovery and build from there.
Make your own room compfy, clean and a place to chill. Can you make a list of little steps towards the life you eventually want? With steps towards work, a house ore other temporary place to stay, money, network, etc?
About the weight…I didn’t loose one bit in the first year of my recovery, I think I even gained some. Quit drinking gave me a sweet tooth and it took a while to get a normal eating pattern again.
Glad you are here, venting can be such a relief!
I hope feel a bit better next time we speak
Weekend! Happy with that. The weather turned very wet again . Going to look into buying a smart bike home trainer today. I want to ride, even when it’s at home. Otherwise there’s enough stuff for me to do. Chores. See a movie. Visit my sis who has two kittens at home. Visit some more friends. Having a goodbye party for some colleagues tonight. And more. None of it will involve any drinking or drugging. No way. Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean. Love from my little square.
@Steve92 This from the CDC: “Of the 24 human rabies cases reported to CDC in the United States since 2000, none have been associated with exposure to a rabid cat. The last documented case of human rabies from exposure to a rabid cat was in 1975.” Hope that helps a little. @SY1234 Welcome the the check-in thread friend, and congrats on being sober for six full days! I’m glad you’re here. Better times are ahead just as long as you stay sober and start working on your recovery. Hugs. @wahtisnormal Soberwalker gave you a perfect response already Zoe. I just want to say you’re seen here, and we’re in this together. You’re not alone. Keep building your own life one day and one small step at a time. @JennyH I see you smiling at my post. Hi Jenny!!! So glad to see you lady.
@Noshame congratulations welcome to the world baby Archer 🩵 @KrissyMae congrats on double digits @Forgive_Yourself oh my goodness thank you, and thank you also for the bonus photo @JennyH welcome back congrats on 2 days @residentevil congrats on your month+ @Jules000 sorry about your friend and that it has been triggering @wahtisnormal welcome back sorry your living environment is so stressful, sending strength and hope 🩵 @SY1234 welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on 6 days
1277 days no alcohol.
742 days no cocaine.
257 days no vape.
2 days no binge-eating.
I did online courses Wedsnesday and yesterday. Wednesday’s was okay, yesterday’s not very good at all, it made me quite angry to be honest.
Feeling a lot of sadness and guilt around the passing of one of my cats back in Jan 2018, a few photos have been coming up on my memories recently so that’s what has triggered it, and the only way I know how to cope is to binge-eat, because I can’t cry.
Yesterday was also the anniversary of the passing of my cousin’s little girl, so I was having sad feelings about that too.
I had a hair cut yesterday, I’ve finally found a barber I actually like, and I’ve lived here for almost 2 years and didnt even know it was there, only a 5min walk away. So that’s something positive.
Cheking in. Today, just now, I felt a urge to drink, I miss the early afternon wine. I saw a snap that triggered it. Im not going to drink. Going to suffer myself trough work from 14.00-22.00.
Checking in Day 0 again. What was going on in my mind as I relapsed last night and this morning. Honestly, I am not sure. I just wanted to use porn and masturbation for soothing I guess. Life feels like it never just stops for a breather and maybe that is what I am reaching for. But it is time to get back up again.
I am so afraid to call my sponsor because I have been relapsing left and right. I know he won’t scold me but I am starting to give into that narrative again of feeling like a failure.
Day 87. Good morning sober fam, doing a quick check in at work. Having a good day, and being trained on the sterile unit. It’s pretty fun. Saw yesterday that a couple of the guys I use to go through for drugs got arrested so that kinda put a smile on my face and hope they get better. Somebody posted a video of two people nodding out in the middle of the road in my home town as well, picking on them and posting it all over the Internet, I know one of the guys, I grew up with him and it was sad to see. Idk who I’m more sorry for the guys nodding out or the guy who recorded it. Idk I know they were silly for being like that, but I don’t believe in knocking others while there down. Me myself might of went up asked if they needed water and maybe try to get them to a safer place. Idk but I don’t think I would of picked on them. Idk much love everyone
Checking in, feeling a slight bit brighter but that might be Fridayitus, it’s real.
Have my assessment next week for talking therapy to commence so I’m hoping it’s positive and that I can make some good strides into my mental health as it’s been very poor lately. My blood work and health assessment is back to check if I can take on HRT for the hormonal stuff going on with me. Will follow up on that next week also as I just know my anti depressants are not scratching the surface right now there’s no point taking them.
Good news:
My cholesterol fell a tiny bit more!
My liver enzymes are now perfect and in range, from being almost three times over the limit during addiction.
I’ve lost 14kgs since I started at the lipid clinic.
. The sickness and anxiety have been wild - neither has subsided. Though I did have a wonderful acupuncture session on Wednesday that took most of the nervousness away and made me feel more resilient. Mentally, it still feels like I’m sitting at the edge of fear, waiting for bad things to happen; horrible truths to unfurl.
- regular breaks to check in with myself, self care, physical and emotional hunger scale, mindful eating - and things went so much better 
sigh…
. Going to look into buying a smart bike home trainer today. I want to ride, even when it’s at home. Otherwise there’s enough stuff for me to do. Chores. See a movie. Visit my sis who has two kittens at home. Visit some more friends. Having a goodbye party for some colleagues tonight. And more. None of it will involve any drinking or drugging. No way. Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean. Love from my little square.
welcome to the world baby Archer 
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thank you, and thank you also for the bonus photo 
congrats on 2 days 
Have no Doubt!
