Checking in Day 3 down and on day 4 here. Feeling good about being home. I have been feeling more up in mood recently. I need to prep for when that mood may come back down because I know it won’t be sustainable. I just have to conintue with today, one day at a time.
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Checking in day 48…
It’s cleaning day… so obviously I’m procrastinating on here until the coffee kicks in.
I hope everyone has a great sober day 
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Day 43 AF
Son was a bit under weather so he stayed home at his apartment and couldn’t make hockey. Saved me from being out till midnight but his team still won to finish off regular season. Now playoffs.
Wife and I watched Beekeeper and I stayed up till 9:30pm… late for me under those normal circumstances, lol.
Slept well, hitting gym this morning.
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Feeling so tired and had super vivid and awful dreams all early morning. My estranged mother was trying to keep hugging me as I was trying to get away. She was annoying me that she had three cars and two houses and all these things she kept showing me that were hers. It was so irritating and I was telling her she was greedy but she was just being passive and clingy towards me. This is more disconcerting than the truth which is that she would have gone bonkers and might have buried me under the patio in real life.
Strange and woke feeling really angry and violated and upset and frustrated. I hate these dreams as they are so intrusive and you can’t help the direction they go in. Maybe it’s being dragged up from speaking in my therapy assessment?
Bizarre, but between that and incredible period pains in going to bunker down for the day and hide. Didn’t make my 9.30 am swim, probably for the best 
Have a good weekend all.
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Checking in on day
283 no alcohol
214 no vapes or ciggs
84 no thc
I feel great about today
Im awake and ready for work
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Checking in day 47 AF 
For the first time in afew weeks i feel my energy levels are increasing slightly 
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Just checking in on day 220. 
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Day 155 af
ODAAT
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That place looks awesome! Definitely my type of day trip 
Glad you had a nice family day! I remember going to some place similar, but not nearly that large, as a child on a family vacation(in the US), but have no idea where it was. I’ll have to ask my parents. I need ideas that my growing daughter would enjoy.
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Checking in - day 28. Saturday morning, solo parenting all day today.
Went to a concert with buddies last night - stayed sober there, and declined the wine bar hangout afterward.
Tired AF today, as many of us on here are, and just trying to get through the day intact… but at least no shame or regrets 
Have a great weekend all
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@timetochange my goodness that sounds insanely rude of your guests. I am so grateful that they are leaving today. I do hope that you are able to find time to relax and unwind this weekend. Glad to see you stacking up the days!
@misokatsu that looks like a fun park for all ages. Thanks for the video link. Glad you were all able to go and have a good time.
@jules000 So grateful that you have a supportive friend that you could lean on. Glad that you did not give into those cravings. Another 24 hours love 
@lotusflower Way to go Des – check out your sober time! Do wish you strength to stay in the present and keep kicking ass. Sorry you have been sick – hope you are getting better now and are able to attend the convention 
@merryshoes love the 5’s and absolutely love that this is the new normal! Yeah sobriety 
@sabrina80 WOW girl that is a big step and definite growth – grateful that you were able to skip the back up medication ODAAT
@tragicfarinelli oof that sounds like the worst dream – I hate waking up already feeling so many negative emotions. I do hope that you are able to hunker down today and practice some self care. Hopefully get some positive energy back into yourself 
@Jimz WOW – that is a wonderful feeling (saying no to alcohol and feeling all that pride). For sure do a victory lap – this was huge!
Checking in on Saturday afternoon - love all you beautiful souls
Got a few more hours of sleep. Still not doing great but i am going to push to work on some self care today. Hoping to do a nice head oil massage, lymph massages and some nail care. Enjoying my coffee in the afternoon
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love 
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Day 238. Second check in… Thanks for people’s comments
Apartment cleaned thro… All good. I can’t agree to them staying in the future till the dogs calmer and they help us more. My dog is now relaxed and has stopped shaking
Relaxing watching TV.
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Don’t count the days.
Make the days count!
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Wow I hit 90 day milestone of not smoking weed which is wild to me coming from someone who smoked all day everyday for over a decade basically. I developed CHS (severely painful episode of abdominal pain and throwing up that put me in the hospital once before I knew what it was and almost again) but my biggest issue is alcohol. I am back to one week alcohol free today. 🩷
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WOW friend that is remarkable! way to go with your 90 days girl – keep that streak going strong
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Checking in on day 258 AF.
I didn’t feel great upon waking but I had a fair amount to do today that I just had to get on with. First was decorating the birthday cake which turned out really good. Then I went out to get refreshments for the girls.
Once I had everything ready for the party we had about an hour to spare and my daughter and I chatted. It was really nice. Once her friends all arrived we lit the candles on the cake and sang happy birthday. We had just enough time to eat the cake when it was time to head out for the cabaret cab ride. It was really amazing actually. A whole lot of fun involving costume changes and crazy props. It was really good fun, and not something I would have done if I were still drinking. My mood has lifted again and I feel a sense of achievement today.
I’ve just finished eating my pizza, and I’m listening to the funk and soul show on radio 6 and putting my feet up!
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
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Day 94. Hey sober fam, a nice Saturday afternoon. I went to bed around 4 in the morning and woke up around 8 and then just kinda chilled. Took a nap, and yeah now gonna head to Walmart for some stuff. Yesterday work was pretty good even with all the rooms, really tired when I’m done work which is good. I use to do this stuff before but it’s very intense here, lots of isolation rooms, med rooms, soiled utility rooms and then just patient rooms which are hard to clean. But I make the best of it and doing my best, a union rep came in and was telling us our new wages And I got confused so I asked a qs and accidentally said how much I’m making out loud well this one lady who has been there for 7 years looked at me as me and the guy were talking and I could tell she was visiblly upset, once we stop talking she looked at me with the most dirty look and said he’s making fucking more money than me and started throwing this fit. I hope I don’t get in trouble for it. I can tell this is definitely going to be a very clicky and hard place to work for. I like it, and the benefits are good but yes I can definitely tell it’s going to be hard. As any job can be, but regardless I have a job and there are way harder jobs out there. So yeah idk I feel bad bc honestly lately I’ve been waking up and getting to work and not really having time to read or go through the check in thread so I kinda just scroll through quick and post my check in. It’s very busy and when I get my breaks they go quick. Mentally I’m in a good place though. I’m very glad I got off the Wellbutrin and vyvance and all those other meds. This cymbalta really seems to be helping, I don’t really mind hanging by myself and Im still very pleasant when I am just by myself I’m not as depressed so I say it’s working pretty good. Idk much love everyone have a good day
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Checking in. I managed to keep up with my work schedule, but I still have a few busy days ahead. Apart from that I didn’t do anything in particular, just baked a bunch of crescents and played the piano a bit. I think I’m quite impatient about my progress in closing my past, and that constantly makes me feel being behind and failing at it. I’m in a place where nothing feels comfortable, looking back is past hope and I just don’t seem to find my place in the present. That discomfort makes me urge myself to want to move on as quickly as possible, even though I know it all takes time. Maybe I should be more compassionate with myself. On the other hand a part of me doesn’t want closure, so I’m not sure if wanting to be more permissive with myself isn’t just an excuse to get stuck in a situation where I can still have this fake feeling of comfort that bonds me to that former, non-existing life of mine. It’s hard to give up that fake comfort and trade it for work, loneliness and feeling homeless in my own life, while not being convinced that that would be only temporary. I know I just have to live through every day as it is, and this problem will probably solve itself by time, it’s just so odd and foreign right now and it’s hard not being able to do anything to fix it.
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Congrats Laura!!! Big things xo. Celebrate in life every chance you get 
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