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2 years 4 days
Just finished work and craving a coffee badly lol but no where to get one. Im just waiting for the bus to go home now. Maybe i can catch a coffee shop somewhere on route. Im still feeling pretty exhausted from doing that overnight shift. It usually takes about 3 days for me to feel somewhat “normal” again. We do have homecare tonight thankfully so that i can go to work tmrw. But then sunday night is my next overnight to do. Not much planned for tonight. Supper, self care, and spend time with the family. Thats about it. A quiet night. Hope everyone is having a great day!
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A day of self care seems in order. Take it easy and be good to yourself❤️
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Checking in day 47. Pretty uneventful day. I started to go for a walk and realized it was raining. Will try again tomorrow. Hello to all.
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Checking in for a second time today, because I needed someone to know I survived.
We tag teamed spring cleaning as a family, no big deal, blast some music, work together…
Until it came to my 16 year old son’s room… and I just have to say 
… never again 
… will I volunteer to help that kid clean his teenage boy room… Bc I can’t even speak… I should’ve worn a hazmat suit. He plays football, if you know you know…
(Maybe I’m being dramatic, maybe not lol I guess it depends on your level of clean. I’m a semi germaphobe)
Excuse me while I go shower 3 times in a row…
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I’m so grateful I forced myself to Walmart after work last night instead of waiting til today. Woke up to my car completely buried in snow! I didn’t even know it was going to snow that much (I never check the weather bc 9/10 times it’s wrong). I weirdly had the day off too so I didn’t leave the house at all! There’s not many hours to go around right now, but luckily I can still collect partial unemployment for the next couple weeks as long as I don’t make too much. Which I did last week but either way, I’m feeling financially secure again.
I had planned to hang with a friend tonight but she said she was bed ridden with back pain so I didn’t feel bad about not wanting to dig my car out. My work friends also wanted me to come out but I admitted my laziness and took a rain check (or should I say snow check 
). Overall, a super boring, unproductive day. I did spend a lot of time catching up here, so that was nice. Hoping to have tons of energy tomorrow for cleaning 
Hope you all have a good one!
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Day 496
What a day!
Woke up and had to do a ton of dishes my bonus kid left in the sink last night. She left early this morning to go on a weekend trip with friends.
A couple hours later she texts me saying she has lice 
So off I go to the store to spetan ungodly amount on lice treatments/room sprays
Laundry!!!
Tomorrow is my sister’s birthday and I won’t be able to see her because of this
I took the kids to target because my little one wanted to go, and got something for everyone but myself 
because I was honestly too overwhelmed…
They wanted fast food, so I stopped by 2 places to get them food.
Then decided I didn’t want any of that but I’d get something from a real place after I drop them off.
Went to the first place, and it took 40 minutes to get (cold, sitting around for a long time) appetizer and didn’t even get the coffee I ordered when I sat down, so I asked for the bill and left.
Went to a second place, and ordered only to have my food served to me raw
Neither place provided a discount for the mistakes (missing drink, cold app at the first place, raw food at the second) and I spent way too much on it because I didn’t have the energy to argue
Came home and then realized that my cycle is starting (sorry for TMI)
And now it’s after midnight. I’m home, but never got to eat and I’m not in the mood to anymore. 
Just one thing after the other.
Tomorrow is a new day. Hope it’s better!
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All of that and lice too! Yikes. Lots of work. Glad she let you know!
!Hope you’ll get some sleep. Sorry not getting to see your sister. 
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I’m so sorry Renee… sounds like a day from hell. I do hope that you are able to get some sleep soon and have a better day tomorrow.
I can’t even imagine having to deal with lice with a household full of kids. Hopefully noone else has it.
Sorry that you are having to cancel your plans with your sister. Much love to you dear friend 
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I commuted by bike to work for the first time in months yesterday. Did me good. Being physically tired as well as mentally made for a good night’s sleep I feel. Today it’s raining so it’s back to the 
. At work there’s some trouble, hard to handle difficult folks with lots of problems and very unhealthy ways to deal with life’s challenges.
Well, I work with addicts right. We’ll make do. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from my commute.
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Lice…ugh…I feel your pain. I remember the first time my daughter got it and everything had to go on hold to deal with it. Like we have time for that! What a nightmare. My head got itchy just knowing she had it (I treated but never found any on myself). There’s a lot of great information around to arm yourself with what to expect and prevention. I hope it resolves quickly for you and your family 
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78 days in the bank
Another day of driving. Home, then to pick up the kids and the dogs.
Tired but it was a good weekend
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@Mno The fresh air of a bike ride vs stuffiness of a train car. I can practically feel it. Hope you can ride soon again.
@Scorpn Strength and patience after such a day 
@Just_Laura Sounds like the universe wanted you to stay put and have a really boring day 
@tifflynn07 I feel you! When my brother in law was a teenager and played ice hockey his parents moved him to the cellar because nobody was able to tolerate the smell.
@Tomek I get the impatience with discomfort. I’m in a similar place feelings wise and I really do not want to have to go through it all. I want a fast forward button 
@Deelzebub Sounds like a really great party you had there!
@Lainenicole96 Congrats on 90 days off weed AND one week AF 
Great work!
@PositiveThoughts ”No shame and no regrets.” I like that. A good motto!
@Jimz Victory indeed 
88 sugar
44 UPF
6 overeating/binge
Pretty numbers 
Today it’s time for my weekly review.
We’re also going to eat out in celebration of my mother’s birthday. Another social situation to navigate. It’s difficult to stay mindful around food and eating when in a social setting. All the interactions make it hard for me to hear my satiety cues. I can only try to listen as good as I can and keep practicing. Wish me luck.
A long walk after that would be nice. I also need to take care of the house plants today.
This week has been emotionally exhausting. I’m still hurt and confused. My marriage is in upheaval. I want things to go back to where they were, which obviously is not possible and not healthy. But I’d like to have peace again. This is going to take a long time and right now I just do not want to go through all that emotional turmoil. I feel angry, hurt and resentful. I’m not sure how to deal with all that except by one day at a time. It would be the perfect opportunity to act out, and I’m afraid of that. I’m afraid of thinking “fuck it” and doing something stupid in order to numb the pain.
I know acting out will not help. I know it will make things only worse. I’m going to concentrate on ODAAT. And if this is too much, on one breath at a time. I can’t avoid the pain. It had to go it’s way.
Whatever the day may bring you, I wish you wonderful people peace, kindness and freedom today 
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- Day 1979
My one day weekend has started
Had a busy week with work and social stuff, but it was a good week. Ordered 2 books a wanna read.
The first one is about how a personality has multiple personalities inside who have all a different eye to the world. Different habits, feelings and thoughts.
It’s about behaviour and how to bend it towards another direction. Maybe you know this kind of subject as “Voice dialogue”. I’m very curious about this book.
The second one is about perfectionism and the OCP methode. I’m a perfectionist and a strong critic for myself. I need compassion for myself. Hope to understand more where my behaviour comes from and how to become less hard for myself
Today? A walk in nature and chill the rest of the day.
Thank you all for writing here and sharing your thoughts. We are helping ourselves and others by doing so. I’m here for years, but still learning and growing and hope to do so the rest of my life.
When I was drinking I did not, I was just surviving
Working the day through untill I was allowed to drink.
No more.
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Day 19 - AF
Woke up feeling healing body and mind.
Got lost in a nonsense WhatsApp chat during the morning, now feeling a bit empty.
Happy to drive to my parents house and hangout with mum. Maybe my brother and niece will come around too.
Have a good Sunday!
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Hey all, checking in on day 1344. I hope everybody has a good one!
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@Lisa-B congrats on 50 days
@JazzyS thank you 🩵 I’m gonna try to get an appointment on Monday 
@Lotusflower congrats on 40 days feel better soon 🩵 enjoy the convention
@Merryshoes congrats on all the 5s
@Tragicfarinelli sorrry for such awful dreams I hope the bunkering down helped 🩵
@Lainenicole96 congrats on 90 days no weed and your AF week
@Scorpn what a day indeed! I hope today is better 🩵
1286 days no alcohol.
751 days no cocaine.
266 days no vape.
11 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterday’s numbers…
I felt depressed most of the day. It’s wild how much the weather can affect the way I feel.
I finally received my new bank card though, so I spent quite a chunk of time updating my payment info for everything, it’s a relief to have that sorted.
I didn’t think I would be able to, but I managed to go for my lake walk, so that’s something too.
Last night was the final of my favourite TV show, I love it so much, the winner deserved it. Then the other show I’m watching was on catch-up by the time I’d finished watching the first one, both of these shows I’ve been able to watch without binge-eating, which is progress.
And what better way to start a Sunday morning than to catch-up here.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
🩵
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Day 1286
Really irritable today. I could type out all the little situations, but very small from a third party perspective, yet rage-inducing for me today. 
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Day 239.
Still recovering from visitors. So frustrated. Anyways off out for a Sunday roast soon. Then back to watch a romantic comedy or the marvels on Disney
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Day 400.
Now that’s a cool number! It’s weird stopping to think about how far I’ve come in my recovery… Like… I’m not just sober, I’m long-termy sober.
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