The first one is about how a personality has multiple personalities inside who have all a different eye to the world. Different habits, feelings and thoughts.
Itās about behaviour and how to bend it towards another direction. Maybe you know this kind of subject as āVoice dialogueā. Iām very curious about this book.
The second one is about perfectionism and the OCP methode. Iām a perfectionist and a strong critic for myself. I need compassion for myself. Hope to understand more where my behaviour comes from and how to become less hard for myself
Today? A walk in nature and chill the rest of the day.
Thank you all for writing here and sharing your thoughts. We are helping ourselves and others by doing so. Iām here for years, but still learning and growing and hope to do so the rest of my life.
When I was drinking I did not, I was just surviving
Working the day through untill I was allowed to drink.
No more.
1286 days no alcohol.
751 days no cocaine.
266 days no vape.
11 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterdayās numbersā¦
I felt depressed most of the day. Itās wild how much the weather can affect the way I feel.
I finally received my new bank card though, so I spent quite a chunk of time updating my payment info for everything, itās a relief to have that sorted.
I didnāt think I would be able to, but I managed to go for my lake walk, so thatās something too.
Last night was the final of my favourite TV show, I love it so much, the winner deserved it. Then the other show Iām watching was on catch-up by the time Iād finished watching the first one, both of these shows Iāve been able to watch without binge-eating, which is progress.
And what better way to start a Sunday morning than to catch-up here.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
Now thatās a cool number! Itās weird stopping to think about how far Iāve come in my recoveryā¦ Likeā¦ Iām not just sober, Iām long-termy sober.
OMG! Itās 6:30am and I havenāt slept yet What the hell is with this night?!
I got in bed around 1. My nose was a bit stuffy so I was breathing thru my mouth, which kept drying out and I had to keep sipping water. The temperature dropped significantly today and it was extra chilly in my room. Not something I normally complain about, but I was cold. The snow also made it extremely bright out and made my usual pitch black room look like the sun was about to rise. Then, I could hear our plow guy scraping the driveway outside my window. At 3:30am! Iāve never heard him in the middle of the night, let alone a Sunday at all. Now Iām feeling hungry and tried to ignore it but it just got worse. I havenāt gotten out of bed to eat something since I was drinking. I hoped it would make me sleepyā¦BUTā¦while I was eating my food, my cat puked the most puke Iāve ever seen a cat puke. I was legitimately concerned for a minute. Iāve never seen anything like it. Luckily it was on the kitchen floor and I was able to clean it immediately instead of waking up to it dried on He seems okay now. After that, wide awake again. I know I shouldnātāve broke out a screen but itās better than laying in bed tossing and turning.
Ahhh! Now I think the sun is actually starting to rise I am so glad I have no real responsibilities tomorrow. Idk if I should stay up and try to get a nap in later or lay down now, fingers crossed I fall asleep. Well, at least I wonāt have a hangover
Mediocre sleep, body battery never recharged well.
Seems every day I work out (3-4 days per week weight training) I get a poor rest.
I am watching what I eat, and getting 2+ hours exercise on those days. Not losing any weight at all and also poor rest (which agitates me, at least for a couple hours, lol)
I know, I know, itāll all work out. But 5 weeks in and focused in hard and nothing is working for me. Argh
Iām no good without sleep either. Itās about the only time Iāll ever act like a bitch
What time of day do you workout? I do first thing in the morning bc if I do it any time after dinner, Iām up and energized for at least 3-4 hours. Also, do you stretch after you train? I know many people rush thru it or skip it altogether but it really is important to avoid stiff muscles, which could make it harder to relax later on in the day. Sometimes I also do bedtime yoga to help destress.
But youāre right. Stay consistent with your schedule and it should definitely work its way out eventually
I am starting to come down emotionally and evening out to a normal emptional state. I feel slight anxiety and worry coming on as I experienced a few situations that I feel are triggers or worry me when I it comes to my addiction. It is definitely nothing I would reset over and I feel that I worry about certain situations too much. I just need to remain calm, keep my serenity and keep moving forward, one day at a time. Just for today.
Hey Nick, try HIIT rather than two hours, thatās quite a chunk to work out. Try yoga or even just lazy stretching in the sunniest spot you can find. They say that getting sun in your eyes without sunglasses on is important to sleep rhythm and mood. Try listening to some Huberman Lab, there are so many related topics. It will get there, your body might be hanging on to the past still till it beds in the new routine.
Hi, Iām super bad without sleep, like the worst version of myself imaginable. Like a cranky babyā¦
Get a hot water bottle?
Earplugs?
Drink a milky drink like Ovaltine that fills you up a little but stays within sleepy routine. Believe it or not, sometimes when Iām home alone for a long stretch and sleeping alone I take a flask of sleepy tea to top myself up as I snuggle in bed.
Hope it works out for you and you get some rest, it stinks to be tired.
I hope the bunkering down helped š©µ
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What the hell is with this night?!
He seems okay now. After that, wide awake again. I know I shouldnātāve broke out a screen but itās better than laying in bed tossing and turning.
I am so glad I have no real responsibilities tomorrow. Idk if I should stay up and try to get a nap in later or lay down now, fingers crossed I fall asleep. Well, at least I wonāt have a hangover 
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