Yeah, you know? There were so many negative traits brought out by my drinking that have since disappeared, but now itās like Iām seeing all the negative traits that were there originally, but covered up by drinking. Itās definetly not a straight road when youāre getting to know yourself for the first time.
Checking in day 60! I almost forgot to check in as itās been a busy day. I wish you all a healthy sober weekend!
380
Itās either too many workers scheduled with not enough to do, or not enough workers doing it all. Tonight was the second one. Idk if my boss will ever get this shit right. It got really stressful for about 45 minutes at one point, but once it was all over, it was worth it. I was starving afterwards so I bought a tv dinner so I didnāt have to cook(i never do that). Buffalo mac n cheese. Super disappointing. All I have to say is that if youāre not from Buffalo, you shouldnāt make Buffalo flavored things, bc you donāt know what youāre doing. I donāt make the rules. Now Iām just trying to wind down bc Iām still wide awake and itās almost 2! At least I can sleep in, if my body lets me. Keep on keeping on folks 
91 days
Woke up feeling great. Went and got tattooed, went to the beach with the kids later on, now theyāre just chilling, watching a movie with their cousins.
Had a brief thought after the tattoo that itād be a good time to have a beer. Just a habit, get tattooed, drink some beers after. Not anymore.
Good to have another chance to break old habits.
Thanks for the well wishes @Mno @JazzyS @Jimz @CATMANCAM @Cjp
my brother wasnāt trying to get me to drink, just being a host. Gained some good learning from it.
101 sugar
57 UPF
1 overeating/binge
The first day after overeating is mostly easy for me cause I still donāt feel well. The longer it gets the easier it is to forget how it does not help at all and how shitty I feel afterwards, and then the sneaky voice comes in. Today I wonāt try to solve anything with food. Today I will not listen to the sneaky voices.
Interesting thought popped up recently. The more I feel like Iām connecting here, the more I feel a need to hide, cause people whom I like might think of me as a looser and a failure and not so great. Gives me a lot to think about.
Today I want to clean up my work place, take care of all IT-systems, enjoy the weather and meet with friends in the evening. Our daughter has still a cold and is running around with a red nose and a sore throat. Nonetheless Iām really looking forward to spring showing up on every corner.
Keep at it everyone. One day at a time. Taking life as it comes. Wishing you peace, kindness and freedom today 
Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 3.
This seems harder everytime I try.
To not drink last night wasnāt as easy as I thought. But I did it. And Iām going to do it again today.
Itās cloudy and rainy outside so today Iām planning to make some order upstairs.
We relocated the boys to downstairs like a month ago when our bedroom renovation finally got finished. Our 14 y/o has serious sleeping problems that comes with his autism, and he feel much safer sharing a bedroom with his brother and sleeping in the room right next to ours.
His brother didnāt mind, so we relocated them.
The plan was to have their bedroom downstairs, a huge play/hobbies room upstairs combined with a guestroom in the spare room.
But for now, the upstairs is just a huge mess with stuff I donāt have a clue where to put.
Weāre also renovating the upstairs bathroom at the same time, so itās an even bigger mess.
I havenāt had the time or the energy to even go up there and fix it. But today is the day.
Wishing yāall a great weekend 
Day 252. Still shaking off a bug but slept well last night again
Weather is rubbish here but I donāt mind, nice to have a lazy day.
On call for workā¦but thatās the nature of the beast I guess.
I did it 
day #90
So happy that ive reached 90 days. I canāt believe how fast the time past and Iām so happy that Iāve decided to stopped drinking and to live the better life. Of course it wasnāt easy during the period but Iāve never give up and the plan is to continue to fight with this illness and to be proud and happy and to enjoy the sober life for long long period of time
my next goal- 4 months 
Congrats miss Mischa! On both counts 
Your posts always make me happy & give me a chuckle with your sense of humour. I am cominf up on 40 soon as well, and same for me this one is a big number. 20 meh, 30 was fine but 40.
Somethinf about 40 for me is i feel the closer i get here the less i seem to care what ppl think of me or have tome for any shit or feeling self conscious. May this be a gift of 40 for you too my friend
Day 826
Iām here, for now, not that it matters. Iām thinking of leaving the community, maybe temporarily, maybe permanently who knows.
The lack of response to communication to friends I have made through here speaks more than any words ever could. They obviously have things going on that make me an unnecessary distraction they donāt need or a person they no longer want in their journey and I donāt intend for my feelings to turn toxic.
Thank you everyone I have met who has helped me along the way to where I am today. For now I will wish you all a happy, healthy and strong future.
Checking in on day 65 with insomnia. Lucky itās Friday night (Saturday morning) and I can read a little and write a little, then sleep in when I get back to sleep. Itās almost 3 am here and the wind is howling ferociously. Tomorrow there will be a lot of downed trees and fences in the area. Nice to not feel too lonely because of Ćæou all. Have a great day all!! ODAAT 
Of course it matters, i hope you stay.
39 days weed free 2033 days alcohol free.
90 days is amazing!!
Hi Richard,
Huge congratulations on your 826 days! This is such a huge inspiration to all, especially those who are in the early stages of their recovery. You matter and are important to this community! If the community has been a positive tool in helping you reach the level you are at now use that as a reminder. I canāt speak to your feelings directly with the lack of communication you feel from those you have tried to connect with, but remember all feelings pass. Do whatās best for you and your recovery. I do hope to see you around soon. You are an inspiration. Blessings to you my friend.
Day 54AF
Day 172 Drug free
Day 1 ciggarettes
Happy Saturday all! Hope everyone has a wonderful addiction free day! I have plans of taking the kids out for lunch a a bit of shopping at the mall.
Six months until I am legally able to drive again. Thankful to be halfway there. Will start looking for a used car in July. Never again.will I go back to the drugs and drinking, by the grace of God ODAAT.
Strong and Serene 24 all 
Congratulations on 90 days! Amazing. Keep at it! Proud of you and your determination!
It does matter. Please stay here and stay connected. 
Sending love and a hug to you, you matter.