Tell that voice it can FRO! Hang in there, sending strength 
And hugs 
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2064 days alcohol free. 70 days weed free. Almost tried a Heineken 0.0 on easter but decided against it. Got a redbull slushie instead before work. Not worth risking 5 years of sobriety to try some b.s. plus the redbull kept me going all night at work.
Got a new job at a hotel right behind my apartment. Im fitting right in and they work with my schedule 100%
Anxiety is better but by no way gone. Taking zoloft nightly and im finally adjusted to it. Also been taking vitamin d and e regularly. Just trying to take it odaat.
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Day 32
Much better day so far. So glad I rode it out. No one ever said they wish they had drank last night. So true! Going to read, write and soak in recovery today. And do some normal stuff. I would like to be just a normal sober person. The foundational stuff first. Takes a long time.
A sunny spring day is about to start. More coffee.
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My heart just started beating faster 
Tonight Iām going to dream of extensive biking hollidays
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Good morning! Day 190 af. We have severe weather today. In the moderate risk for damaging winds, tornadoes, and large hail. A tornado has been spotted about an hour away. So today I will keep the news on for warnings, and enjoy watching Netflix while I can.
Storms, esp severe cause anxiety in me. Glad my husband is home!
Hope everyone has a nice day!
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Iām glad that you have someone that makes you feel safe during the storm.
Iām the complete opposite,I love storms (except todayās snowstorm, I want spring) if I lived somewhere there was tornados I wouldāve been a storm chaser.
Stay safe and take care if yourself today.
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We have tornadoes here. Iām a weather enthusiast, and considered spotter trainingā¦.except for the fact that Iām also very cautious, and tend to run away from tornadoes instead of towards them. Not sure that would work out 
Every time the tornado siren goes off the hair on my arms stands up, I am short of breath and I will hide. Even the cat goes into the safe room without being told. Itās hilarious. @MrsOdh you would love the storm drama around here. 
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Thank you 
Struggling a bit today, feeling stressed out and irritable im not craving an actual drink but want the stress to stop and itās stress in my head. So going to go for a walk and try reset my day.
Get out the house for a bit and go to the wood shop to find out prices for wood. Need to build a catio thatās specifically fits my garden shape etcā¦ IL do that something positive and it gets me out in the fresh air for a bit.
Hope your doing okay 
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@acromouse and @Mno itās called āBuddy to Buddyā and they match me to a immigrant so I can help him ore her with feeling welcome in our country, learning our language a bit and doing some activaties together.
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Sounds like a good plan. I felt that too, yesterday. I didnāt want to drink, I just wanted the bad feelings to stop, Iām going to get more active today too. Good luck with your catio ! I got kitty a new scratch pad and sheās over the moon. I need to be so easily content. Working on it! Have a wonderful day, Twiz!
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Now I remember you mentioning it previously. Sounds exiting!
I used to be a refugee kid and the help we got from volunteers was so unbelievable! I will never forget their kindness and help.
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Checking in on day 12 I believe now. Urges are strong again. My brain tries to trick myself into slipping up and using again but not letting it get to me this timeā¦ So im sitting here awake at 4:30 in the morning trying to keep occupied doing other things. Work in about 8 hours too
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Stay strong friend! The voice of addiction is a very sneaky, cunning and persuasive one. Good job on spotting it in your mind. Whatever it might tell you: You donāt want it. Itās all lies. Remember this: It only tells lies!
Sending you strength and a mindset of tenacity 
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Day 88
Enjoy
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Creeping up on that 90 days friend, well done, proud of you! 
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Day 540
Getting ready to go to sleep at almost 9 am. I have had a really terrible sleep schedule this past week. Hopefully Iāll get 8 hours. Or something close to it ā¦
So for my trip, I have the rental booked and paid for, and an activity planned and paid for.
And a little over $1000 saved on top of that (so far) for other expenses. Gas /food
Just need to save another 3k in the next couple months.
Is sounds daunting. But thinking back to when I was in active addiction, I could easily spend $1500 a month getting high. Hopefully I can put all that saved money to use on this trip.
Of course, these days I am paying down credit cards (paid 6 completely off!) and spending more on food for the houseā¦ But Iām gonna try my best!
Hope yāall are doing ok today 
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Day #8 sober from daily cocaine abuse yessir!!! 
Feeling a bit sleepy today, couldnāt sleep that well last night but Iām doing good still 
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Today is day 50!!
My son is coming home for a visit to celebrate his 10th high school reunion. He did not like school much so I am proud that he is making an effort. He is in such a good place and I am really proud of him. I am super excited to spend some time with him.
Went to dinner last night and my husband had been overserved and fell out of his chair. I was mortified, disappointed etc. The manager wanted us to sign something saying he would not sue the restaurant. I totally understand where they were coming from. We left quickly and I had to leave most of my dinner. Another good motivator to not drink!!
A nice spring day here in the South. Have a great one everybody. 
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Seeing you here always makes my day Scorpn. Hope youāre getting a good rest. You need and deserve it. Huge hugs and much much love friend. 
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Checking in on day 265. Love and strength to all.
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