Had a few ropey days, not anything to do with alcohol or cravings at all, but just head stuff. Have been working thru that as much as possible. Had to have a specialist root canal yesterday just off Harley Street in London as an NHS referral. Daunting as my previous procedure was very painful on the same tooth. They were really good and redid the whole root canal and resealed it. No pain, lots of injections and high standards of working. The pain that I’ve had for almost a year is pretty much gone. They could only comment that the NHS dentist had left infection or bacteria in their procedure, plus he missed 2mm of the root. Oh to be able to afford private healthcare… It’s sensational.
Just managed a 6.5 Kms run/jog/walk in an hour, not bad. Been trying to keep active and stay focused on the things that help me and really are important to my wellbeing. I’m not up to my Tai chi and Pilates yet with my back, but I’m probably only two weeks off. I’ve been doing my rehabilitation exercises as well.
Also I’ve maintained a healthy diet and lots of water. On my 27th book of the year and also been planning the balcony. We need to cat proof it before summer, so we went and got some wood planks and netting today. The weather is pretty poop though so will hold off for the time being. The boy panther cats don’t even know it exists though so no rush. Bear has grown most of his adult teeth in now but Blue seems to be hanging on to his baby teeth for dear life…
Going to see my bestie and her two kids on Friday, but apart from that, I’m just thrashing it out, day by day.
I can’t believe that I’m saying this but okay, breath in breath out
I think I should stop drinking so many coffees…
Morning ones gonna stay, that’s for sure. But lately I have a feeling like every afternoon coffee is just leaving me with less and less energy and weird taste in my mouth. My plan is to go from about 5 to 2 coffees per day. Doable. Easy peasy (we will see tomorrow)
I have so little energy right now, I can barely keep my eyes open. I have to keep moving cause when I’m busy it’s alright. The moment I sit down - over, battery empty.
You would have enjoyed being here yesterday. Several tornadoes hit, no fatalities thank goodness! It would storm like crazy, then clear up the sun would come out for a bit, to energize the next round. There was like 4 of them. One at 1:10 hit here in my area, luckily it was out in the country. Another one blew up around 5:00 ish, that actually crossed and interstate causing damage in 2 states. Even blew semis on their sides. It was a long day of listening to the news, and warnings.
So today is day 191 af for me. Going to my home group. Have a great day everyone!
@Jdeanj welcome back belated congrats on your week+ @john_connor1337 belated congrats on your week+ and thanks for your vety relatable shares, a good reminder for me. @Noshame sorry for the loss of your colleague @Twizzlers thank you 🩵 congrats on 2 weeks I hope you were able to get your measurements taken without too much anxiety @Olivia congrats on 3.5 years @Cjp I hope the meeting helped 🩵 @Steve14 sorry for your loss @Seb congrats on 50 days and the good news @JazzyS thank you 🩵 @DanaM56 I hope your cat is okay
Ooof. Feeling it this morning. Day 7 of fever for my lottle man and im just tired. Money is tight and it certainly does not help.
Had another court day in fam court for my nephew and it feels like such a waste of our families time and energy, where we are not heard or considered. I am just feeling so tired today. Hubby is very stressed over work and money and that is hard. Anyway, some days are just like that. Happy to be sober. Had a little cry for my sister and nephew, grateful for that. Grateful for my beautiful chuldren, my loving husband and his efforts to communicate and watch out for me, grateful for our home. Xo.
@AyBee cool numbers @MrFantastik congrats on 4 months @Chosen2001 congrats on 10 months @Just_Laura I’m glad you had some good celebrations I’m also glad to learn that your family is sober, and about your heritage 🩵 @SoberWalker I hope the meeting went okay, congrats on trying another new project @acromouse congrats on your month of freedom from UPFs enjoy your vacation @Mno the little turtle/tortoise in your photo really made me smile I’ve never seen a wild one before 🩵 @Mischa84 I hope Sacha’s appointment went well 🩵 @Emerrick welcome to the forum congrats on the beginning of your journey @Steve92 congrats on 70 days weed free
@Doreen1@tifflynn07 I hope you both stayed safe and the storms have passed @Rookie congrats on 50 days sorry about your husband enjoy your Son’s visit @Rob11 congrats on 1200 days @zzz welcome back good to see you posting 🩵 @Merryshoes@Caspio congrats on 600 days @GOKU2019 congrats on 3 weeks no caffeine @JennyH congrats on double digits
1331 days no alcohol.
796 days no cocaine.
311 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterday’s numbers…
Eating “real” food with my family on Sunday evening lead to a relapse with my eating disorder on Monday, and again on Tuesday. So I’m back to my first day of no binge-eating. I’ve been in a blurry depression over it the last couple of days, so I’ve got way behind here. It’s time to snap out of that now though.
I’ll get back on track now. I haven’t missed feeling like this.
I spoke to a doctor this morning because I requested more cream for my back, and they decided I had to speak to a doctor about it. I’m glad of that now, because he wants to refer me to a dermatologist. I will be seeing him on Monday in-person, because he wants to take photos on my phone, that I will then send to their system, and then he’ll make the referral.
Planning to do a quick check-in with today’s numbers later on…
Day 10 had a using dream last night which messed my head up a bit. I reached out to a guy from na whos number i got off the phone list and we talked through it. Other than that feeling real good and grateful took the fiance to dinner last night on the harley that was a blast.
Ok
I went in the garden it was totally fine, a few hellos that I was anxious and wanted to avoid but realised it’s me with the introverted, anxiety and worried personality and I said hi and I measured all the measurements for the catio yayyyyy
I am making it off my bedroom window so it will be like my window is the cat flap, and then it opens up onto a nice big housing bit. I’m building it all myself.
Hoping by 3 weeks from today I’d have finished it. Just got to add up the amount of wood and safety mesh and the fittings and I’m looking forward to it actually!
Booked Polly’s grooming appointment for next week Friday.
Tidied around, hung the washing on the line ; in the garden hehe facing me fears.
Going to also get some bamboo out there for a little privacy but slowly does it. One thing at a time. The catio is most important as I want to enjoy summer whilst the cats can sit out there with me safely. Going to be like a huge lizard set up with branches and stuff for them to keep busy.
Since we moved out and came back from the building works, the wildlife seems to have multiplied and it’s beautiful and if I let them out with no catio … Well it will be like a scene out of David Attenborough! I’d rather not.
Anyway still need to have a shower, walk Polly pocket and then sort dinner
@JazzyS , @Mno, @CATMANCAM and others who are interested. The meeting went fine, I even saw 2 people I already know. Next friday they are going to set up the matches between the vollunteers and the newcomers. I’m going to hear from them soon if they have one for me. 16 of april there is a big meet up activaty in a fancy hotel here in our city. Hope I can join
I’m with you man. I hate loud environments, especially those with loads of hard surfaces which reflect the noise. I usually shop with a podcast on or music playing.
(we will see tomorrow)
Another one blew up around 5:00 ish, that actually crossed and interstate causing damage in 2 states. Even blew semis on their sides. It was a long day of listening to the news, and warnings.
belated congrats on your week+ 
🩵 congrats on 2 weeks 
it was totally fine, a few hellos that I was anxious and wanted to avoid but realised it’s me with the introverted, anxiety and worried personality and I said hi and I measured all the measurements for the catio yayyyyy 
and if I let them out with no catio … Well it will be like a scene out of David Attenborough! I’d rather not.
took me backwards then brought me back hehe