Yeah, anxiety is no joke. When having good periods it so great, and then the shit hits you in the face again and thinking is this anxiety again or is this serious.
Do you still have or are you mostly all good?
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I have to manage it, which means yes, I do still have it and have to be prepared for when it rears its ugly head. I have methods I use, breathing exercises, visualizations, mantras etc. You are welcome to PM me if you want more info but really I just have to have my tools available to me to calm myself, to think rationally and concretely about what is happening, and get back to center.
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@CHASE.E.U sorry about your dream 
glad you reached out to someone 
congrats on double digits 
@Max199 welcome 
congrats on the beginning of your journey
@Juli1 congrats on all those huge milestones
1332 days no alcohol.
797 days no cocaine.
312 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
Spent the majority of the day catching up here.
Suffering the aftereffects of the bingeing but it will soon pass, so long as I donāt engage in the ED behaviours.
I have started a new book called Atomic Habits by James Clear. Iāve heard good things about it, and I certainly could do with some healthy habits. There are goals I have that are not currently being fulfilled, like getting back out for my walks, or going to the gym and swimming, showering more regularly, and keeping the flat clean. So Iām hoping this book will help give me a foundation to build on.
I am struggling to resist going to buy and eat crisps (chips), because I have 57 days of abstaining and my addict keeps saying that I may as well reset with all my other ED related counters. Iām trying not to listen to that voice. Even though the idea of them makes my mouth water.
I ran out of 
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86 days sober here. Struggling with finding a sponsor (had a bad experience with my first attempt). He was only looking for cheap labor for his business. Is it possible to get a sponsor online? Help. Please. Thank you!
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Thank you cam, always good to c you checking in! 
The years are approximately, I will have my birthday next week. 
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Big hugs 
Your 57 days is brilliant, you took a day off you canāt change that. But it doesnāt mean your failed.
Stay strong, when tomorrow comes and you got through another day you will feel some self accomplishment and that will help you get through another day.
Thatās the viscous cycle try hard cam not to fall back into it.
Food Is such a hard one!! I really feel for you. Because we all have to eat to Survive.
You know I think you are amazingly strong to self moderate how you have been. I could never self moderate drinking I admire you for being able to that everyday.
When I go on a night of emotional eating and I mean alot I noticed if I eat a bowl of porridge it gives me that full feeling. Not sure if itās the same kind of thing.
I just want you to know your stronger and doing so well more than you realise and I acknowledge your hard work.
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@Twizzlers I do hope you were able to get out in the garden today and get your measurements. Sometimes iāve had to take a break (even from things that bring me joy) till Iām ready to enjoy them without feeling triggered. Gardening is one for me too. My neighbors and I would start the day with drinks and go do our gardening and meet up for our breaks to continue with drinkingā¦ crazy ritual for sure. 15 days and going strong my friend. Do what feels good for you and hopefully you can make new associations with your gardening or find other ways to overcome your fears. OOH I love that you got out there today and it wasnāt as bad as you had anticipated. Looking forward to seeing your catio 
Sounds super interesting and Iām sure your cats are going to love it.
@acromouse oh Iām sorry to hear about your panic attack with your histamine reaction. I do hope that you do not have any more and are able to comfortably enjoy your trip.
@jennyh whoohoo double digits Jenny! I do know the feeling of being back with your parents and feeling like a teenager. I do hope that you are able to find some solitude and peace soon. 6 people in one house would be overwhelming.
@mira_d so sorry love ā sending healing energy to your little oneā¦ hope his fever breaks soon.
@catmancam sorry for the food relapse friend. I am glad you are back on track ā sorry that you went into a depression over it. You had some very impressive time and you should remember that you did get them and will get them there. I am happy that you are finally going to be seen by a dermatologist. 
@chase.e.u Yeah double digits! Keep up the amazing work
@max199 Welcome to the community Max. Smart on doing shopping with your sensory protections in place. I too find it overwhelming at the grocery store (especially with the florescent lights). Glad you made it through both trips.
@juli1 That is some impressive time there Jules! Way to stack on the days and gain control over your life. Upwards and onwards my friend 
@wakikki I am sorry for the ugly anxiety friend. I do hope you are able to find a way to breathe and find some peace
@mikea welcome to the community Mike. 86 days is impressive ā keep up the solid efforts. I am sorry to hear about your sponsor experience. I am not familiar with online sponsors but do hear others talking about getting in person sponsors through AA or other recovery group meetings. It is important to find someone you can feel a good connection with and who will be available for you.
@ jimz So sad to see members leave ā I do not know what lead to this and Iām not looking for an explanation as I know that some posts / threads can be a bit too much on here. You need to protect your sobriety and I get that. I just want you to know Jim if you are reading this by chance, that you are in our hearts and we wish you the best in your journey
Checking in on Hump Day
469 days free of Alcohol and weed
884 days free of cigarettes
Not much going on. Woke up feeling like shit and just been playing catch up with everything ever since. Going to try to get my month end and quarterly stuff finished tonight so that i will not have it on my head (luckily i donāt have much left).
Made a lovely alfredo sauce using cauliflower, almond milk and brewers yeast and it really did come out delicious. I had my doubts 
Got an appointment with my surgeon next week and hopefully will get some answers or some pain relief then. ODAAT
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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Checking in, day 20
Still in rehab, feeling disconnected and sad.
Will go to a drug and alcohol group session today, the speaker is amazing.
Thank you everyone for your support.
ODAAT
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A gentle reminder TS family that you are encouraged to reach out to the moderators with any concerns or troubles. We know there have been some recent challenges,
and we hope you feel empowered to check in with us when needed. Our common goal is for TS to be a safe space for sobriety support and community. And it takes all of us working together to make it so. Please never hesitate to contact us, someone is always available.
PM to @moderators
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Thereās so much love and respect in this post. I love it. Good on you, you have an amazing heart of gold
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That happened to me with coffee too. I could drink 3 cups and go take a nap. I tried other caffeinated beverages, but they all seemed to just make me sweaty and jittery in a non energetic way. Now I only need a cup in the morning, maybe 2, but usually half way thru the 2nd it starts tasting bad. I got back into green tea in the afternoon if I want a little clean energy. Never gives me a problem.
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Congrats on day 20! I canāt wait to see that number. Have a great session today.
Checking in day 17 today.
Ive booked in a doctorās appointment to get some tests done and chat about managing health moving forward. I also booked in for my psychology appointment to do an ADHD test.
Lately since stopping self medicating with alcohol ive found my brain at moments running 6 million miles a minute and my thoughts become literal gibberish I canāt understand what Iām even thinking
Iāll be really proud to tell the psychologist that Iām 3 weeks sober.
Have a great day everyone!
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Checking in with 14 days sober and 14 meetings. 
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Checking in with 36 days. I want to stay upbeat and positive. Donāt have urge to drink but life just isnāt going as I want it. It must be a sign to tell God I cannot handle my current crisis on my own and please step in and point me in the right direction. Please God take hold of my words and speak what I should be saying. At least give me the wisdom to say and do the right thing as you want it done.
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Thank you so much friend. You are very sweet to say so.
Great work on your 20 days! Sorry for the disconnected feeling - this alone can bring on the sadness. Here if you ever need. Sending you support
I do find this community to be super helpful when i am feeling down. Hoping your group sessions help out today.
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36 days is fantastic Lam. Wow - what a lovely interpretation. I do hope that you are able to find the guidance you seek. Know you are not alone my friendā¦ we got your back
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@MrsOdh keeping at it on day 36! You go, Sophia! 
hope the weather is nice for your husband and he makes it there and back safe! Be careful. What your 12 y/o did was really cute and thoughtful
@james83 day 20! keep on keepinā on! Hopefully your new car arrives soon.
@Timetochange keep on keepin on. 284 days of clean thinking. 
@Twizzlers congrats on day 15. You can do whatever you put your mind to, go out there and make the best of it. Hope you successfully reach your goal today.
@JennyH hey, Jenny! Double digits, glad youāre checking in on Day10! 
hope you feel better soon, and I hope you reach your goal of being in your own space in a month or so and I get itā my mother in law lived with us for about 6 months.
@IamThechange kickinā ass! 124 days!
@CleanHeart 38 days!! Congratsākeep on keepin on! Alone in hotels are major triggers for me too. You got this!
@Chevy55 keep on keepinā on. 3 months is big! And I see youāre hitting the gym pretty hard, alright muscle man 
@john_connor1337 congrats on 9 days, Iām glad you were able to be strong in that situation. Keep on keepinā on
@Pattycake congrats on 266 days! There is a lot of activity, so easy to fall behind, but I try to catch up. & thanks for your kind words for my baby boy, heās better, breathing treatments and cough syrup, and allergy medicine. & Iām Still mentally preparing myself for all the stuff my mothe in law has in strange
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@tifflynn07 keep on keepinā on, Tiffany! Hope youāre having an amazing day!
@Tragicfarinelli congrats on 97 days. Seems like youāre keeping busy. Busy is good.
@Mischa84 glad youāre here checking in on day 278. Keep on keepinā on! wish you the best with lowering your coffee consumption 
@Charlie_C Good work on Day 24! Wishing you the best on this sobriety journey!
@Mira_D glad youāre here checking in on Day 7. Hope things work out the way you would like. Iām glad youāre able to show gratitude, even when things may seem tiring, itās important. Congrats on day 7,
@CHASE.E.U congrats on day 10! Glad youāre feeling good and grateful. Good job on talking to someone after having that dream of using.
@EarnIt congrats on 96 days, JenƩ.
Keep on keepinā on.
@Thumper1213 congrats on 162 days!
@Wakikki thats impressive! Congrats
@Chuckie22 congrats on 186 days, Charlie.
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@Juli1 congrats on that impressive sobriety resume you have, Julia.
& thanks for sharing the phrase.
@residentevil congrats on 2 months and 27 days, Lizzie.
@Seizetheday 93 days AF, way to go, Hannah! glad youāre here checking in!
@CATMANCAM your resume is impressive!
@MikeA congrats on 86 days sober!
I wish I had more information about finding a sponsor online. I go to my local meetings and thatās where I found my sponsor. Wish you the best on finding on sponsor thatās for you and you connect with.
@JazzyS you also have an impressive resume. Youāre rocking it! . I hope you get some answers and pain relief.
@Mali congrats on day 20! Better days are ahead! You got this.
@Whereswaldo congrats on Day17 Mental and physical health is really important.
@beachmouse congrats on 14 days!
@tailee17 congrats on 36 days!
Checking in on day 105! All is well. Baby boy feeling better. Mother in law draining the living SHIT out of me and my wife! Iām ready for this shit to be over with. My sponsor told me look at it as service work, so thatās what Iāve been trying to do. Anyway, my son who has adhd has now been on his medicine for about 1 month now and we can see a difference in his performance and school work, heās bringing home some decent gradesā¦.better than before. We have deposits on 4 out of 7 of our weenie babies. I know Iām just rambling at this point. I hope everyone had a great day. Check in later tonight.
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