Checking in day 72
I have a very slow day at work as far as appointments so I am using this time to catch up on paperwork, filing and allllll the other things to get organized.
It’s beautiful already outside, started off chilly this morning.
I hope everyone has the best day 
Not sure… It’s probably a combination of things. I’m ok most of the time tho. 
Checking in on day 245. Gonna officially say I’m 8 months sober. Keep hitting those milestones, everyone. So grateful for everyone in the community!!
23 days sober
23 days of meetings
Day 2 (Technically day 3 actually, whoops!) - Oooh, what a rager of a day!!
Had an assessment today with the medical team who confirmed that, if they take over, my support worker will leave.
I didn’t want her to go and it felt like she was going to pass me off. It always happens, so it evoked my childhood rage and upset and I verbally lashed out. I was so upset I just walked out and said I’d do this by myself. Without my support worker.
Dick move on my part, but I’m so used to people leaving, and find it so agonising, that pushing them away first protects myself.
She’s told me that I’m not alone and to sleep on it, but I know she’s going to go.
I told them all in the meeting that I’ve cut all my cards off and I. AM. DONE. with alcohol, but none of them believed me. I completely understand why, after how many relapses I’ve had, but it hurt.
So, where are we going from here? In terms of support, idk, but I’m currently rage-sipping on OJ and lemonade and listening to heavy metal, lol.
No urge to drink as I want to prove them all wrong, and I damn well will. I bet they think I’ve probably hit the bottle over this - absolutely not!!!
Sometimes we’ve got to get through the day out of spite, and today is one of those days for me, lol.
Hope you’re all well and safe x
Checking in this afternoon on day…
307 no alcohol
238 no vapes or ciggs
109 no thc
Ive been on a healthy diat and feel great
Vitamins
Lots of orange juice
And healthy hardy food like potato salad
Family is doing great
We are handling things beautifly
Have a peaceful day everyone
Back to work for me
I made it back from the grocery store safely! I decided, since I was afraid of the store and all its booziness, that I would spend extra time getting ready for the store: good jeans, flatironed hair, lipstick- get ready to take on aisles 3-5! But it was fine- it was like it was not even there. I was distracted by the lady handing out snacks, too. Plus the store was crowded so it was kinda like you would be run over if you didn’t keep moving. Perfect. I bought myself chocolate too to celebrate
First test was a lot of fun. I remember sober me and it’s good to be back. Looking forward to taking trips and all that but this is a start. Miss being out and about with no hangovers involved. 
Day 3. Feeling okay and getting back to myself. Means i need to keep vigilant and not slip up when feeling good. Its my Friday then 2 days off work
Checking in
2 years 29 days
Feeling much better today mentally. Im still a little bit in my head and anxiety is higher than usual but i turned that energy into positive energy for the gym. I had a wicked workout this morning. My son seems to be feeling a bit better so he went to school. After my workout i grabbed a smoothie and came home to tidy up. I feel strong and i feel so grateful for God. Im also beyond grateful for my recovery. I may have urges to use still but if ive learned anything at all, its to not react to those thoughts right away. Just because i have thoughts, doesnt mean that I have to act on them. I acknowledge the feeling/thought, i do what I have to do to take care of it, and then i go about my day. And im always, ALWAYS grateful that i never used. Love to u all TS fam! Have a fabulous day!
Checking in day #100
It was good day and enjoyed the milestone
Have a great evening/ day 
Checking in day 71 AF
Congratulations on your hundred ODAATs Zse
Glad you’re here 
Congratulations to Zse!
Thanks a lot
Thank you 
Hey all! Today was an ok day. Not exactly sure why just ok. Did make it to a meeting. Guess it’s to be expected to have these kind of days occasionally. Been praying a lot. Have been reading a lot on here, which is a good thing.
Have a good evening everyone!
41 days today !!!
Checking in. Today was easier than yesterday, but I know that the hardest part is still ahead of me. Trying to prepare for that. I have a bunch of work, so I think there won’t be problem with finding distraction, the question is, if I’ll be able to choose wisely. I don’t fully trust myself, as in my head addiction is still something that can beat me down, something that is stronger than me. I think I use this thought to keep myself away from alcohol, but focusing on that backfires now when I’m facing giving up smoking.
I like how the discipline of journaling helps me out in other ways. Have a good night 
Day 9. Everything is hard right now. Keeping on. My health is bad after nearly 2 years of daily drinking. When does the tummy stuff stop? Feels like never. I feel like a bloated beached whale. 
Missing my kids and grands. One day at a time.