Day 13 
Have a nice weekend everyone 
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Checking in
2y 1m 3d
Been struggling with my anxiety at night. My mind just races and races when im trying to fall asleep. Sometimes it takes hours before i doze off. I take a prescribed medication for sleep but the directions say take .5-1 tablet a night. Well last night i was considering taking more than 1 tablet bcuz i really needed the rest. But i didnt. My body gets used to medications really quickly and so i dont feel like 1 tablet is cutting it anymore. I know its not a narcotic but i have this thing about following Dr orders since being in recovery 
So ill have to talk to my Dr in the future about raising the medication. I took my usual 1 tablet last night and did my best to sleep.
Got to work today and even though i dont feel like being here, Im glad I am. I have had a rough 2 weeks previously trying to make it to work and i was feeling like I wasnt being reliable. I called in way too often. So i want to prove that I am in fact a reliable employee.
The weather is soooo 
out! Its just beautiful and lifts my mood! Cant wait to enjoy it in a few hours. Im having a few thoughts of my DOC but nothing major. Nothing i cant handle. Hope everyone is doing well today! Have a great day/evening everyone!!
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Checking in day 75 AF 
Happy sober Saturday x
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Checking in. My second smoke-free day. Today was good, I worked a bit, went for a run, hung out with the kids and relaxed a bit. But I got so sleepy by the end of the day, that itās not even 8 pm. yet and Iām already in my pajamas and in bed. Iām going to try to read a book for a while, but wouldnāt be surprised if I fell asleep after a few pages.
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Congratulations 
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Day 78. Things are too much and I need to get a handle on this person, who is so different than me.
@JazzyS I am alive and things will not get better in a couple or few days. Regrettably, I have major issues that will take some time to get past, through, overā¦
Yesterday and today, I am feeling this true type of ācravingā that will just allow my random brain to shut down. I will not. I know that any kind of messing with my consciousness would be problematic.
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Today at work is very difficult
But its just another day
Im making it difficult in my head
Just another day
Thats all it is
Im trying hard to turn it around
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Double dipping. Again! 
Day 15 Iām enjoying a rainy, sober Saturday night. Feeling more peaceful than I have in a long time. Good feeling. Cooking an easy Chinese supper and watching one of my escape series.
How are my sober friends doing? Yāall good? 
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@just_laura So sorry Laura. Hope you and your daughter get to rest up and heal over the weekend. 
@goku2019 Oh man Iām sorry friend ā epididymal cysts can be painful. Sorry that you are having to reduce the coffee ā caffeine can be hard to process for this type of cyst. Iām sure you may already know but in case you havenāt tried ā the following can help reduce the pain. Wishing you some relief soon
(1) Applying a warm, moist cloth or a diluted apple cider vinegar solution to the cyst several times a day. (2) Eating foods that contain nutrients that help prevent or heal cysts, such as tomatoes, pumpkin seed and zinc-rich foods. (3) Taking over the counter medicines to reduce pain or swelling.
@james83 Day 2 is amazing friend ā great work on getting back on the sober track after your relapse. You have the tools and the means to attack sobriety and you have us and your in real life support to help you keep pushing forward. Sending you strength as you heal. 
@mira_d Lets go love ā you can send the cigarettes packing. Stay strong and reach out when the urges get strong.
@iamthechange Sorry for the family issues causing shit feelings. Any relationship has to be a two way street ā you are right ā it does have to matter to him too. Glad you found some relief in crying it out. Rant away love ā this is where you can come to let it out. 
Here to listen if you need a lending ear.
Awe so sweetā¦ what a lovely way to wake up. Whats going on friend - anything you want to talk about?
@lile01 WOOP WOOP indeed Indi ā way to go with 7 days! Love your attitude and all the work you are putting into your sobriety
@chevy55 How are you doing now Nick? Sorry for the shit day. Were you able to figure out the cause or reason? Sometimes they just happen and we donāt know why but the good thing is that they donāt last. Here if you need to chatā¦ do hope that you are able to get the day turned around quickly
@mischa84 sending your precious baby healing hugs and vibes ā hope he feels better soon
@earnit Iām sorry love ā I am sending you strength and love as you get through this time in your journey. Here to listen if you need to vent. Think you are doing a remarkable job with 78 days of sobriety and working on healing
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Day 266. Off to bed. No cravings today which is great.
Watched the taylor swift folklore thing on Disneyā¦ Which was really interesting
Also getting ready for stuff to arrive tomoro to sort out my work areaā¦
Also ordered one of those small Bluetooth projectors to see if I can watch a film on the wall in that room.
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Day 428.
Hey all, Iām here and sober and all that jazz.
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Day 5, missed yesterdayās check in. Was super emotional and had a lot of triggers, which I managed to journal about. But today was a true test and I aced it! My kids had a birthday party right next door to a TapHouse that I have gone to before. I was uncomfortable for a little bit because I felt excluded (didnāt know any other parents) but I ended up talking to this mom and found I didnāt even have any urge to go grab a beer to help my anxiety! Yay me
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So grateful to be sober today 
All in all we had a great week in the city. Great to see my mom, though difficult and always good to see and spend time with my nephew. We got to go to a hanger to see a big plane with my dad and the kids and they got to sit in the cockpit and push a couple of buttons. It looked like a version of Angelas Airplane Hubby and I are learning howbto divide and conquer a bit more, and we ended up having a really great talk about our future and goals on the drive home. The home exvhange worked out so well, and the famiky who stayed in our hone said they woukd love to come back over the summer which makes me so happy.
Doing my best with this damn smoking. Fuck its hard! Made it through the day, just had one this evening and goinf to keep tryinf until i get it. I know ive been talking about it forever and I just want to get it done. Xo. Going to go curl up in bed with another crime show and download the Allen Carr book!
Xo.
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It took me a long while to finally quit smoking (having covid helped a lot). Iāve never read Allen Carrās stop smoking book, but Iām assuming itās similar to his stop drinking book, which definitely changed my point of view towards alcohol in many ways. Itās all in how you think about it. I hope it helps you achieve your goals 
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@GOKU2019 I hope your ear feels better soon š©µ sorry about the stress
@james83 welcome back congrats on your honesty, especially with family 
@Lile01 congrats on your week
@Chevy55 I hope your day got better 
@Mischa84 I hope Tony feels better soon š©µ
1314 days no alcohol.
779 days no cocaine.
294 days no vape.
39 days no binge-eating.
Managed to get back to sleep from 6-7:30am.
Spent a lot of time reading today.
Did my morning routine.
I received a text this morning advising me that my chest x-ray came back normalā¦this doesnāt explain why I had fluid on my lungs just a few weeks ago, and it means that my symptoms are yet unexplained, unless itās all Asthma related, but regardless, itās good news hopefully! 
Played a PokƩmon event.
Went for a walk! Not my usual lake walk, but the equivalent time and distance, so I was pleased about that.
Caught up with some meditations.
Then I think I must have fallen asleep around 7:30pm and woke up at 11:30pm, Iām now wide awake so Iāve caught-up here.
Itās definitely getting warmer because I had my window open all night last night for the first time since I started closing it, so it will be a 24/7 thing probably until mid-Winter again now.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
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Checking in day 76 
Spent a lot of time outside today it was too nice not to!
Went for a couple mile walk, got a small workout in after.
Spent some time with my kiddos just talking and messing around and before I knew it the entire day was gone.
About to get in bed and read for a while and hopefully get an early sleep before having to wake up again at 6:30am and drive my kid to work. Cant wait for the day I get my weekend sleep ins back and he can drive himself. Only two more months and he will be fully licensed.
Much love yāall 
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Appreciate the check in. My wife said something in a way that just turned me off while sheās enjoying the sun of 3 weeks vacation and I gave up my vacation to watch dogs and house.
Just the way she said pissed me off and then I felt like I was missing an opt to slip into a whiskey coma to shake it away and feel like shit in morning.
Anyway she apologized and knew she shouldnāt have said it the way she did and I eventually left and hung out with a bud this afternoon and he came to sonās game tonight with me.
All was good.
And the second game of weekend tonight went to double Overtime and we ended up scoring 30 secs into that frame for the win, so took both games this weekend. Next weekend we travel down to them 3 hours away and have booked a chalet on the ocean as first game is Saturday night and if needed we play again Sunday afternoon as itās a best of 5 series (I thought it was 7) and currently we have a 2-0 lead heading into .
A friend who lost a son to addiction/overdose told me to stay in it, understand it then let it go. That seemed to work well.
Thanks again, off to sleep as itās 2 hours + past my bedtime. 
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Thank you Ami, it eventually got turned aroundā¦ perhaps some good hard hitting hockey was all I needed.
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Evening check in
2y 1m 3d
Today was a decent day overall! I cant get over how beautiful the weather is here. Going to cherish it all i can bcuz its back to snow as of mid next weekā¦ yuck!
Lately, ive been doing body scans and wowā¦ i hold SO much tension in my shoulder/trap/neck area. Its unreal! Will have to be more conscious of that and do my best to relax. I am really going to consider starting meditation again. I did it quite often in early recovery and always found it sooo benefical.
Work was okay today also but sooo boring. I cant complain tho. Its a good job and im grateful to be working.
Im also grateful to see people returning and so happy for those celebrating milestones. Its such a big deal!!! This disease is a tough one to beat, but its not impossible. We do recover! Have a great night everyone!
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Night time check in. Day 86 AF. The day started off slow and āblahā but I came out of it. & tonight was a shock.
Tonight, I was surprised by all of my family gathering to celebrate me being in recovery and my birthday. My wife and cousin did a great job putting it all together. My mom came in from San Antonio, one of my aunts came in from Jackson, MS, my aunts and uncles that live near by, my dad and step mom, all my brothers and sister near by, all showed up. Man it was a good night. Everyone constantly told me how proud they are of me and how much they support me. Although I was an asshole and isolated myself while in my addiction, my family never gave up on me and are still there for me.
#ODAAT
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