That’s some good stuff right there. Thanks for sharing and the reminder.
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Sending hugs- you’re doing well! Trauma is a huge issue with me and many of us here. I’m just starting to address it. It will take a while and I will feel terrible at times. But I’m determined to heal that. I think you are doing so well! Distraction is helping me with the endless thinking and reliving things 
. I think once some time passes in sobriety my nervous system will calm more, and I can make quicker progress.
Well done, you’re on the right path to healing
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I have used all my likes but wanted to say thank you for your support and hugs to you 
And your doing so well with your sobriety, I’m a bit slow this week but I have noticed 
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I think I want tacos now. 
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Thank you Twizzlers! I used to max out my likes too, till they gave me more. 
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Fell asleep last night before I could check in 
So very tored and needed it! Son was up twice in night, his turn now high fever and generally look worse for wear. Having company when your kiddo is sick is a bit stressful bit im gpinf to try and roll with it.
Happy Easter everyone! May it be sober Grateful for that today very much
Xo.
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Checking in, day #4 sober from an intense addiction to cocaine yessir 
I’m noticing that I’m pretty irritable and moody during the coke withdrawal. Really small things that happen seem to bother me and make me wanna relapse, but I’ve been successfully resisting it by practicing mindfulness, meditation, distraction, reaching out to my support people, and remembering that “I cannot control what happens in a day, only my reaction to it!” It’s been helping a lot. Looking forward to feeling good again, one day at a time… I believe that if I can get past these initial few weeks, I’ll feel better than any cocaine high could ever give me
Also, just wanted to share this: these two songs are what triggered the emotions about my coke use 4 days ago that got me to start really getting sober 
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@maxwell you’re not alone, the only reason I’ve been writing about my cleaning in my check-ins recently is because it’s such a big deal, because I only am able to do it when I am up against a tenancy inspection (every 3 months). I can never make myself do stuff and I feel like I have no energy all the time either, that’s why I have hired a professional to help me declutter. I can’t even make myself go out for any walks either at the minute. I do have depression and take a lot of medications, but I also have Fibromyalgia, part of which is chronic fatigue. If you feel like it’s more than the depression, it might be worth speaking to your GP 🩵
@Just_Laura I’m sorry your neck is still bothering you hoping it feels better soon 🩵 and I’m proud of you for tackling a job you’ve been putting off 
well done 
@J_Lo_Ste sorry you’re in such pain I hope the rest helped even just a little 🩵
@acromouse congrats on double digits for no PFs 
and no overeating/binge
@JennyH welcome back congrats on 4 days meditation works really well for me 🩵
@DresdenLaPage belated happy birthday 
@beachmouse belated congrats on your week+
@Ofmiceandroach good luck with your application 
@Tragicfarinelli belated congrats on 90 days
@NewBeginning1 belated congrats on your week+
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@Davina_Davis belated congrats on 90 days
@tailee17 belated congrats on your month @Doreen1 belated congrats on 6 months
@MrsOdh belated congrats on your month
@james83 belated congrats on 2 weeks
@Whereswaldo congrats on double digits
@Lile01 I hope you managed to get the emergency contraception
@Charlie_C enjoy your vacation 
@TMAC I’m sorry about your back issues, very relateable, it definitely comes with mental as well as physical pain sending strength 🩵
@BJonns welcome back
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@Ashley_luvz_starz congrats on your year 
@s_unrelax congrats on double digits
@Amy30 congrats on taking a step towards your goal excited for you 
@Twizzlers congrats on double digits
@happyfeet congrats on 8 months
@Lisa-B congrats on 3 months and for getting back behind the wheel
1327 days no alcohol.
792 days no cocaine.
307 days no vape.
52 days no binge-eating.
Wednesday: Woke up early. Read one chapter. Meditated.
I was waiting in for the cat food delivery, for some reason it was sent via Royal Mail, and yet again, they delivered to a completely different address. I walked up the street to where they usually deliver my parcels, but the door was different to the photo they emailed me as “proof of delivery”, on my way up there I saw the regular post person, who knows I always seem to have this recurring issue with parcel deliveries. I asked her if she recognised anything about the doorway in the photo, she did, so she gave me directions and I walked there. The parcel had been taken in but nobody answered when I rang the doorbell. I came home. Shortly afterwards, the regular post person rang my bell, she asked if I found my parcel, so I explained, she suggested that I tried again later because ‘they are usually home’, she also said she would raise a complaint because it happens so often. A little while later, another post person rang my bell, this time it was the man who delivered to the other address, he apologised and said he’d tried to get it but they weren’t there, he said he would put a note through their door saying I’d try again at 6pm. At 5pm my buzzer rang, this time it was the resident from said house, with my parcel. The end.
I didn’t get anything done except my usual routine things. I felt restless, which is usual for me when I have had a few days of doing stuff, but I just couldn’t make myself do anything else.
Also, a different parcel came and I opened it and it was 4 easter eggs, but they were for the tenant that lived here before me, who moved out 21 months ago! So that isn’t great because I am having to resist eating them all, but if I did that then I’d have to reset all my eating disorder related counters, so I’m being tested. I’m hoping she’ll come by to pick them up, but I don’t have her number to let her know they are here.
Thursday: I drove to my hometown to collect my meds and get my Testosterone shot. Then had a haircut in the afternoon so I feel a bit better about myself.
Today: I woke up early, spent a few hours feeling incredibly anxious about the professional declutterer coming back today, I was wishing she wasn’t coming, but she did, and we went through all the kitchen cupboards and drawers and decluttered and reorganised everything. It felt really good.
Since she left at 1pm, I have been catching up here and now I feel good about that too.
I don’t know if I’ll be seeing my family over the Easter weekend but I bought my eldest niece an easter egg for whenever I do see them. We did gather last year so maybe we will again.
Wishing you all wonderful sober weekends
🩵
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Thank you!! I hope you get to spend some time with your fam this weekend. I’ll be hanging with my hard drinking family, but I have my NA drinks lined up and a meeting planned. Happy Easter!!!
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I’m in
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Checking in on day 9. 
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Oh dear how annoying your post is like that!
Where I live there are 2 doors with flat A and same door number and I’m one of them. Luckily we just pass on to eachother but it is so frustrating. I’m glad you did get your delivery in the end!
Thank you for all your support all the time I’m going a bit slow mentally at the moment but wanted just say thank you 
I have been keeping up with your posts and it must feel so nice now the decluttering is done.
Your doing so well , honestly really you are in all areas and I just want to say I’m proud of you
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Checking in day 88 AF
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Good afternoon friends! Hope everyone is doing well today! Just finished doing some running around to get a few Easter gifts for my son. Since he cant eat anything by mouth (and Easter is all about the chocolate) we get him little gifts instead. Finished the dishes and now doing up some laundry. Its been a decent day. Cant complain really. Im sleeping a bit better and feeling more rested upon waking up. I havent really come back to my daily routine yet tho, but next Monday I’ll start that up again. I miss exercise. Its very therapeutic for me. I havent been connecting spiritually that much either. So thats another thing I want to get back to. All n all Im doing okay recovery wise. Some small urges to use. But noyhing major. Have a great Friday everyone!
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Sending you hugs friend I remember too when I got diagnosed and everything just started making sense. It truly is a weird feeling, i hear u on that. Hope ur day improves and that u get some relief from ur struggles
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Hoping your son begins to feel better and that u get some time for self care also
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Thank you so much I really appreciate that
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