1 year 12 days . Way to go. You are an All Star!
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Thank-you for your words of encouragement, it really means so much. I am home alone dealing with my girl, hoping she can wait till my hubby gets home tomorrow night.
I am not drinking! Everyone’s wise words have sunk in and if course it won’t help my situation, just make it worse…
Love you guys!!! Again, thanks for caring.
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Checking day 297 AF
Feeling very restless today and unsettled. Overly tired and struggling with issues in my relationship. Feeling cut off from a life I was trying to build here in AZ. Dating someone out of state has been challenging. He comes out every weekend so it’s cut me off from the few friends I had. Though those friends are drinkers and that’s not a life i identify with anymore. Changes need to be made for sure.
Sleep well everyone.
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I did meditation last night. Couldn’t go back to sleep at 2am. I loved it. Super relaxed and I just love his voice. Thanks for sharing.
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 43
Missed the Romano (Gypsy) natonal day yesterday.
It’s usually a time for celebration, everything have been so focused on helping the surviving mother and child.
Facebook fundraising is still on full go. But with all the resources and help we’ve gathered without them, the family now has pretty much everything they need again.
Can’t help them to handle their loss of course, church is going to have a big part of that.
I keep out of church involvement as much as I can. Feel like I’ve done as much as I can for now.
It’s a vary tragic accident, and like always you wish you could’ve done more.
Trying to leave it a little bit for now. It’s difficult, I feel bad that I can just continue with my life, being happy for the sunshine, plan for my future, hug my kids. And basically everything I do in Everyday life.
When this mother and child have lost so much.
Not really sure how to handle that.
Wishing you all an amazing day.
Eid Mubarak to those who celebrate.
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I feel for you. So much. The loss of my dog was so hard, even though taking care of him while he was sick was a big reason why sobriety stuck for me at that time. I want to share this post I made in my personal thread and I hope you get something from it because I was where you are now, slightly different circumstances but I really thought I might drink then and I pulled through. Things have changed for me so much since then, I didn’t end up following the path I had in my mind then but I also explored everything available to me recovery-wise to work through this difficult time. Please do that for yourself, too. You are so worth it. Hugs.
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Thinking of you.
I’m so glad I see you checking in.
Big hugs my friend.
Big hugs.
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@MrsOdh These are difficult emotions you’re going through. I don’t have a good answer, but I think it is ok to feel grateful for what one has. Even if this is brought up by a tragedy. Sending you hugs
@DanaM56 Sending you patience with the changes you’re going through.
@Butterflymoonwoman You’re bringing something up, that has been on my mind the last few days. I can not control how others behave. That one is for sure. But I’m trying also to accept that I can not control the feelings that come up inside of me. It is out of my control of anger comes up, sadness, anxiety. None of it. But I can focus on how I react to these feelings. How to let them be, and let them go, and try to find peace in the not knowing how to control. And yeah, breathing helps 
@PositiveThoughts How wonderful a gift you’re making to your child, to grow up with a sober dad
@john_connor1337 I’m sorry you’re going through that kind of stress. I know from my own experience how difficult inheritances can be to deal with. Seen all kinds of families getting into feuds about it. Stay strong friend 
@Chuckie22 I’m so very sorry you have to go through all this pain 
. But I also applaud your resolve to honour your pet friend’s life by dealing with your loss sober. She deserves it.
@Bones_80 How’re you liking Final Fantasy Rebirth?
@JazzyS I Hope you had a nice walk and enjoyed the weather 
@Juli1 A very happy and sober birthday 
@CATMANCAM Good luck with the dentist appointment. I usually plan something nice afterwards for myself cause I really hate them.
140 sugar
4 UPF
11 gluten
3 dairy
11 overeating/binge
I slept really well tonight and am ready for the day. My first day with my daughter at home in the morning without my husband. He would usually take care of the morning routine. But she is a big girl and we both can step up.
Today cleaning after yesterday’s move needs finishing. I hope I’ll have plenty of time for game design studies. I’m working on story arcs.
I’m not sure about a walk. It sure would be nice to get and move outside, on the other hand I really don’t want my allergies to get worse.
I want to prepare for the festival I’m planning to attend in a month, and some Yin yoga in the afternoon.
Whatever the day will bring, I’ll enjoy my food and will not deal with stuff through compulsive eating.
Have a day of peace, kindness and freedom friends 
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Day 291. Woke up at 6.35am
I think it’s a 7-5 working day… Which is OK. I think i pace work better these days, no heroics.
It is still cold. Better weather is around the corner but it’s been a crap few months weather wise. Which I find is a pain when I’m working from home and then don’t get out much. Today tho is a sober day. Focused and keen to shed say 7lbs in the next month or so. Should be straight forward.
Time for a coffee and knock the heating on for a mo.
I think I am waking up early as I’m convinced it’s spring but the weather says otherwise. It’s also really nice to wake up without that sh@ty fuzzy head feeling
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I guess it is, maybe I just need a new way to look at it. And as you said be grateful (I always is) for what I actually got and put my energy there enjoying every minute.
I’m sure you and your daughter find your own way of doing things eventually, both of you just need to give it some time.
Allergies is horrible, personally I do whatever I want anyway. As long as it won’t kill me or put me in deep pain. I love being outdoors,and I refuse to let my allergies stop me.
I just pack extra tissues and takes the full recommended dose of Allergy meds. I do have an inhalator too but I don’t really like it, it makes me dizzy. It’s also said that local honey can eze the symptoms. You’re supposed to eat a teaspoon everyday.
Hope it gets easier for you.
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Day 27. At the gym this morning before today kicks off.
3oC on my cycle here which is December weather… not mid April!
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Checking in on day 3.
Just a short one as I’m sill in hospital and still having memory issues, which is quite scary. Oher than that, I’m doing okay.
Hope everyone is well.
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71 days AF
Good morning sober gang…
Love from a new coffee mug,
designed by Frida Kahlo 
Thanks for all your sweet congratulations yesterday 
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Slept long enough, but I don’t feel particularly rested this morning. Well, it’s my holidays. I can basically do what I want today. No pressure. Weather looks nice. That might call for some outside activities. I’m going to have another coffee and see what I come up with.
Whatever I’ll do it will be sober and clean. Just for today. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love.
@Juli1 Cheers and belated happy birthday my friend!
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Those are hard emotions. You’re mourning the absolute awful tragedy and you’ve helped a tremendous amount.
It’s okay to not let it take you down and to do your own normal life and the things that make you and your family happy.
That’s not disrespect of what’s going on … that hurt is with you.
And loving and wanting to be with your own family is normal for so many reasons.
You’re not deserting the cause just doing your own thing which is fine, great and good. Big hugs. @MrsOdh
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Happy Birthday a day late @Juli1 …
Happy days the whole year through!!
Glad I saw this, I’m doing poor job keeping up w the threads rn. Wishing you a fantastic year!
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Thank you,I needed that today.
Not sure it feels disrespectful it’s more like it feels unfair.
I still have everything and everyone I love, and they lost it all in a heartbeat.
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Day 40
Happiest of birthdays to Juli!
I’m up a few hours too early. I’d rather be up than fight with insomnia. And then, I think of bright European birds singing…they’re there singing right now -it’s daytime there. 
Yes, I’ll go log onto TS instead of turning over one more time in frustration. There was a continuous thunderstorm that was illuminating my bedroom all night as well, so fro, insomnia, I’m getting coffee!. 
I think the lack of sleep is worth it. I have had no hangovers and far fewer bad decisions have been made. I’m hopeful and I couldn’t feel that 6 weeks ago.
More later 
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Like it so far lots of side stuff to only on chapter 4 atm taking my time lol 
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Good to see you back on the thread Indi. Get better. ODAAT.
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