Congratulations on your great achievement. 4 months is a fantastic milestone!!
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@Bunto There was a point I reset every morning, saying āTodayās the last day!ā, only for that determination to fade a few hours later. I just checked my reset # (bc I was curious), and it says 135. In reality itās much higher bc there were times where weeks, even months, would go by where I didnāt even bother, bc what was the point? That whole time I held onto a glimmer of hope, believing I could quit again. Every day I was miserable from drinking, I thought about everything Iād learned in recovery. Hammering it into my brain. One day it just clicked. The want for sobriety became greater than the want for alcohol, and I was done.
Recovery is never a straight line. What matters is you never stop trying 
@Steve14 Iāve found this happens to me too on my days off. My job is physically demanding so I tell myself I should take it easy and do nothing when Iām off, but thatās actually exhausting. Iāve learned ways to deal with my anxiety since itās always been with me. Itās depression that scares me. I used to think Iād been depressed at times in the past, until I truly experienced it in my last couple years of drinking. Itās no joke. I think it helps to plan things to keep yourself busy on days off. After the weekend I had at work, the last thing I wanted to do today was anything! But I already made plans with someone last week and feel surprisingly good after doing them. Well done on sharing this about yourself 
Thatās not easy. Just know you arenāt alone 
@Lisa-B Wow 
Sounds like youāre doing alot of amazing work for your recovery! I know thereās many here whoāve suffered the āmilestone maladyā, which could be why those nasty thoughts pop up. Just ignore them and remember why youāre doing this. For a better life 
Thereās many more great changes to come if you just keep moving forward!
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I have a list of things to do and that has heightened my anxiety today. Iām in the auto repair business that I spend 75 hours a week at and usually try and stay away on Sundays. Now that spring is here it just adds more work at the house so was a bit overwhelmed looking around today and adding things to the list. The biggest problem is Iām at work too much and need to hire more help but thats a struggle in itself. I could go on and on with you but this is probably enough for now 
Hope you enjoy the rest of your evening.
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Checking out day 114 AF
Doesnāt matter how much working out Iāve done, weight I lost, health thatās improving, first day at customers cleaning gardens, trimming trees, clearing the lawns of debrisā¦ kicked my freaking arse.
Man I am sore and tired. But back at er tomorrow.
Gonna need to get those muscles back into it or itāll be a long summer.
Would a drink have helped feel better afterwards, not gonna lie, thought on it. Would it have helped later or tomorrow?? Nope! Played it ahead, showered, now watching my Canucks in bed waiting to soon fall asleep. 
Goodnight TS folks, be well, be sober!
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I had a similar thought earlier. Glad you thought it through! 
Thatās back breaking work for sure. You should sleep good and feel like a new man in the morning One with more aches and pains 
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Checkin in day 119 
I have had such a crazy past few weeks and havenāt checked in as much as I would have liked.
Soooooo tired today. Didnāt go to bed last night til after 1am and was up by about 6am with the dogs. Went straight to the gym, did laundry, put my sons new gamer chair together for him and now I am laying in bed at 630pm on a Sunday night trying so hard not to fall asleep before 8pm.
Back to the grind tomorrow. So Iām going to enjoy this glass of grapefruit sparkling water and wind down time and try to not to think of all my appointments tomorrow.
I miss talking to you all so I think my new goal for May is going to be trying to spend at least 30 minutes on here a day reading and interacting. Iāve been killing all my goals since January so this might be a good one for me to do to keep the balance of staying mentally well and sober.
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Checking in with 275 days without alcohol.
That marks 9 months sober today yeah
Wouldnāt have managed that without your support.
Thank you so much my TS friends.
Have a great start to the new week everyone.
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Another biggie!!
Way To Go Anne 
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As Iām glad you did Steve.
I know you know work, so not gonna whine. Just will take a couple weeks to get that specific muscle memory back.
I took back my largest client from last year that I dropped because I didnāt think Iād do the work for him that Iād be proud of, but he wants us pretty bad, so I agreed (against better judgment) , but itās great cash work so since I gotta pay off the new workout equipment and am thinking on a new truck, I talk myself into it.
Anyway you get some rest as well man, Iām almost ready to zonk out.
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Checking in for Day 31.
Last night I had a lot of cravings and thoughts about alcohol. My husband has been drinking again on the weekends so it makes it hard!
Hope everyone is doing well.
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Work is over and im finally home. Super proud of myself for going in this weekend and managaing everything at home.
BUTā¦ i get home and my son is sick, yet AGAIN! This time its a runny nose and chest congestion. Ughā¦ i cant catch a break i tell u. Im actually getting angry at this point 
I was so mad that i started crying and blaming my HP for everything thats been happening lately (which isnt like me at all) and then of course felt bad for being mad at my HP, so apologized lol So here i am just going with the flow. They say acceptance is the key to ALL my problems today. I have been fighting things lately bcuz i want a sense of control but in all reality I have no control over whats happening. I have no control that we have no homecare. No control over the fact that my son is ill. But i have control over how I respond, which is what im going to focus on. Hope the night goes well even tho my boy is sick. Tmrw we will both take it easy
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Awe thats gotta be really hard being around ur husband drinking. I wouldnt be able to manage well if my husband was using around me. Take care of urself and do lots of self care. Ur doing amazing at 31 days 
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Wow! Yay!!! Congratulations on 9 months!!! Amazing work friend
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@deelzebub 329 days is amazing work friend. Can you upcoming year milestone have anything to do with the mood? Impressive work on pushing yourself to be productive ā I do hope it helped kick the depression to the curb. Big hugs
@k_s WOOT WOOT 1 week is wonderful Kenny ā keep working on your recovery and stacking up the days
@steve14 Hope you were able to turn your Sunday around friend. I totally get being overwhelmed with work at home when you are always at workā¦ I do hope you can find time to rest my friend and hopefully find some help at work.
@lisa-b Oh man Milestone Malady is so real and it sneaks up on you hard. Coming up on 4 months is amazing work. You are really working hard on rewiring your routines and working your recovery. That addict voice will creep in and try to distort you. Do not listen to it and be pleased that you are not adding literal poison into your body. I had and still have many angry and or sad days that just hit out of the blue. I do let myself sit with the feelings while also doing things that will help improve my mood like listening to a favorite song or doing an activity that I enjoy. Hope you were able to have a wonderful day ā looking forward to celebrating 4 months with you tomorrow 
@wahtisnormal oh man that does sound frustrating and I do hope that venting here helped. Also hope you were able to get out for that forest walk ā sounds absolutely delightful. Would you be able to purchase a mini fridge for your room? Not sure if that is an option where you are - It made my life easier when I moved in with my brother. You are doing great work Zoe ā very proud of how you are handling your surroundings and protecting your sobriety.
@abbynormal great work on day 4. Insomnia is a bitch and Iām sorry you are dealing with it ā it does get easier. A few things that have helped me are: a warm bath/shower before bed, a warm tea, lavender oil on pillow or in a diffuser, a full body mindful scan (where you start from your toes and scrunch them tight and then release slowlyā¦ go slowly up your body till you reach your eyes), a meditation (we have a meditation thread here to check out), deep breathingā¦. Hope you are able to get some good rest soon. Keep stacking up the days
@davina_davis WOOT WOOT spring is springing and you are rocking it friend ā 4 months is amazing work
@chevy55 oof that is a lot of hard work ā hope you are able to rest those muscles and not be in pain for tomorrow. Way to go on playing the tape forward ā no good comes from drinking. Have a nice cold seltzer water on hand to quench your thirst
@tifflynn07 So lovely to see you checking in friendā¦ you have been missed. Way to go on crushing your monthly goals. Hope you got a chance to rest and relax today ā happy Sunday!
@happyfeet WHOOHOO Anne ā 9 months is amazing work! So happy to see you popping in and happier to be sharing this milestone with you 
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Oh for fucks sake ā sorry I had to say it for you! Iām sorry love. Donāt blame you for getting frustrated and pissed. I am proud of how you have been and are handling all of this. You are so right- we canāt control anything except for how we deal with what is in front of us. I do hope that you are able to find some time to rest before your overnight tonight and sending loads of healing energy to your son ā praying he recovers from this overnight Sending you and yours loads of love and hugs. I do hope it starts getting easier for you soon my friend. 
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Haha u made me laugh with that 
Thats exactly what i was mumbling under my breath earlier. Mind u, i wanted to scream it instead. But yaā¦ i felt sooo angry at God (even tho i know this wasnt Gods doing) and then i began questioning what i was supposed to learn from all this? What is the lesson here? I cant catch a break lol once i get homecare tho it will very quickly return to normal. Just gotta push thru. Hugs to u Jasmine!
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i totally get this Dana and it is an understandable reaction. Do scream and shout ā He can take it. I know i get frustrated myself and scream to Him not at Him at times (sometimes at Him and apologize like you said 
)ā¦ I am sending you loads of love my friend and energy to push through. Appreciate the hugs back 
Do hope you get some good homecare soon and your son starts feeling better soon too
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I donāt reply often, and I appreciate people who take the time to reply to me but I try to read every post each day and give likes as often as I can. I get frustrated trying to reply to individuals and then having to scroll back up to find where I was. I suppose I want this to be an enjoyable thread to come on daily and not put pressure on myself to reply to people even though I think what theyāre saying is really interesting. Thank you everyone for posting on here daily, and those who reply to me.
Day 42. Glad thatās off my chest 
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Checking in sober tonight 
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Way to go with your 1+ month of sobriety friend. Grateful you were able to get past the cravings. Keep up the hard work on protecting your sobriety and stacking up the days
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