Thank you! 
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As I look backā¦Iām just amazed, humbled and in awe. Itās truly by the grace, kindness, compassion and love of God for every moment of sobriety.
He gave me another chance and opportunity to serve Him as I was designed and meant to be. To Him be ALL the glory and Honor. My life is completely His 
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Checking in Day10. Thankful for another day sober. Today is a great day! Wifey is coming home this eveningāIām waiting on a big family supper tonight. Hahaha 
The night before last my best friend reached out to me. I mean my best best best friend. Since 1st or 2nd grade always been really close. After his grandmother and my granddad died, His grand dad and my grandmother got married when we were around 16 y/o. We havenāt talked in almost 6 years. All because when I was drinking and drugging I kicked out everyone and stayed isolated. I can admit I messed up our relationship. He sent me a message on snap chat (he didnāt have my number) saying āhe must close this chapter of his life and move on, no hard feelings and I love you brother. We havenāt talked in 6 years for whatever reason. Iāve been beating myself up wondering what did I do, why isnāt my best friend talking to me and avoiding me?ā I was so ashamed of what I had become. To make a long story short, I told him everything and how I didnāt know how to come to him about it, even after a year of not talking, i started getting in my own head and trying to think of how youād respond I just kept running from you. We agreed to try and work on friendship again, you know establish a good rapport.
This is the second person God has placed back in my life. First my brother that I hadnāt talked to in 4 years and then my very best friend. I know God is doing construction in my life. So so thankful!
#ODAAT 
I am grateful not only for my physical needs being met but also for the unseen ways You work in my life
Have a fantastic day everyone
Happy 24
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Second check in just to show you todayās Maying (Maja in Swedish) itās when you have Fika outside.
Almost every playground was filled with people so we ended up at a place in the forest called The Pine.
Itās the only forest area here with easy access if you have a problem to move around.
The āhouseā in the background is a bbq hut (GrillkĆ„ta in Swedish)
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Hey sweet friend,
thank you so much.
Itās difficult.
Itās not good without correction in longterm or while driving (or cinema, supermarket, screen work), but to me itās also not good to have correction 24.7. Thatās why I got a solution with daily lenses, regular glasses and sunglasses. Of course I have normal sunglasses too. Light is difficult. Sometimes light feels like noise to me. I am digging into a high sensuality overall these days.
The old vision values āāwere good. The first optician set the axis for the new values āāin one eye from 180 to 10!!! My axis is 180 and the curvature is 1.75. Diopters only 0.5 to 1.
The wrong axis on one eye causes the height of the floor to shift. Definitely with the glasses and I tested it again with the lenses. Itās only with these values!
They also didnāt adjust the glasses properly, I have a wide nose bridge, they were sitting much too high! 
I donāt know why she did that either. She was totally irritated that my brain didnāt accept the simple values āāfrom the computer measurement (so - welcome to my brain lol 
)
Then she got nervous and tried lots of things one after the other! In between, everything was double and crooked.
And I wasnāt able anymore to say if itās fine or not. Like I smelled over 5 parfums.
By the way, smells are also loud to me. Lol.
Think it will be solved Saturday at the next appointment. I did the trial with the lenses and the adjustion of the glasses didnāt help. All shit. Old is all fine. They need to make new glasses for the glasses. I have insurance. Welcome to Germany lol.
Thanks for asking cam 
I will report how itās goingā¦
92 days checking in
Body is asking for rest.
So I rest.
Donāt have cravings but am still aware that I need to go back to some recovery work.
Love you guys 
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2y2m18d
Good afternoon everyone! Today has been a much better day! Got my son on the bus to school, grabbed a coffee and breakfast while I was outside (I had been craving Tim Hortons for awhile) and then came home to sleep 4 hours. Got up not long ago and decided to do a little cleaning. Laundry, dishes, that sort of thing. Still dont feel fully rested tho. After tonights sleep, i should be feeling somewhat better. Hope u all are having a great day 
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Day 579
Hey yāall, how are you guys doing?
I had some not so nice days, I got the second cold in a row with sick leave from a coworker who comes to work sick and spreads it everywhere, so that many of us get sick.
Weāre not enough assistants in the office since one of us got her baby.
Sunday I messaged our team that Iāll stay at home until wednesday, so tomorrow is my first day again.
One of my collegues wrote a not very nice message, a very desperate one.
One of my flaws is that I think she meant me with that message. Iām always assuming people, who are angry, are angry at me. I donāt know the correct english term for that sorry 
I hope you know what I mean.
I try to tell myself that itās not okay to think like this. We have a workload we canāt handle with such a small team. Sheās desperate. She didnāt mean me with that. But if she meant me: it says more about her than id does about me.
Damn, it feels so different to write this words out here that in my journal. Journaling helps to get the thoughts out of my head but itās not the same as telling it here, to you.
I feel a bit better now, Iāll handle that tomorrow.
Iāve come so so far, I learned so many things in the last weeks and months. I grew so much.
But the way never is a straight line, it has ups and downs and curves, right?
Have a beautiful sober days friends, stay strong 
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@charlie_c Way to go with your 52 days Charlie ā Some days are just blah ā they help make the better days that much better and more appreciated. We are here for you friend ā keep pushing forward
@twizzlers Great work Twizzlers ā I can relate to starting a project and the urgency I put on myself to get it done. The crazy pressures we put needlessly put on ourselves is insane and yeah they lead to negative coping mechanisms. Great job in seeing this and realizing its ok to take your time with the project ā its ok to take a break. Its all OK 
@laner Congrats on planning ahead for your trip and finding ways to protect your sobriety. Grateful that you will have WIFI and can still connect with us. Glad you are also able to take a friend with you. Hoping your sleep continues to improve and you donāt have any issues with the sleep walking
@catmancam Thanks friend ā I had made an appointment for tomorrow morning with my doctor as she wouldnāt refer me to an optometrist without seeing me herself but luckily my eye is starting to show signs of improvement so I cancelled the appointment. Your sessions sound taxing ā I do hope you are finding a way to do self care when you return home from them. Hopefully the CBT-E therapy will be scheduled soon now that you have your therapist advocating for you too 
Great work on getting rid of all the sugary stuff (no need to tempt yourself unnecessarily). Stay strong my friend
@danwood85 Oh good to hear ā glad you are finding support in the area. I do hope that you can find connections this way Mom and I had a wonderful morning today ā even got to do a light walk before it got too hot.
@chosen2001 So good to see you checking in Chris and WOOT WOOT ā 11 months is amazing work 
Keep it going strong
@sober_ken Double digits Kenny ā look at you go! OH WOW Kenny ā how beautiful to read this. Grateful that you are finding ways to mend old valuable relationships on your sobriety journey
@butterflymoonwoman SOOO Very happy to hear that you had a good day love. Glad you got some rest and do hope that you are able to get lots more tonight
@sabrina80 SO good to see you friend. Glad you are starting to feel better. I totally know what you mean and I tend to do that too but then have to tell my brain that its not healthy (like you said) to think this way. You know you give your very best at work (especially with the short staff situation) and it is very frustrating. This person could just be venting in general. I do hope that writing it out here with us helped you process it Amazing number friend 579 and going strong
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Checking in with 38 days.
Havenāt used this app for a long time since my relapse and hit a deep rock bottom.
I recently got out my second clinic and Iāve decided to live in a safehouse. This has been the best choice I could ever make. I now live with people that understand me and we attend AA, NA and CA meetings at least 5 days a week and I get alcohol and drug tested randomly every now and then by my personal coach. I love sober life. Iāve missed it so much but couldnāt quit on my own. Now I can appreciate the little things again! Iām so grateful I got this opportunity and so ready to grow as a person and finally achieve what I want to achieve.
It is great that I am now living in a home with other people that are fully focused on sobriety. Iām so grateful for them that they pull me with them to the meetings, my social anxiety always made me the weakest, now it is no longer an excuse. World here I come!
Happy 24 everyone 
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My wit is returning
My creativity is back.
My memory is recovering.
My motivation and energy is growing.
Day 45 is looking good.
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I am 4 months sober today Iām so proud and so grateful for this forum and everyoneās support
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Yes! Congratulations on ur 4 months ā
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So good to see you Leroy! Great work on your sobriety time 
Lovely to read your check in and see that you are doing so well and so greatly supported. Hope to see you around
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4 months and counting keep up with the amazing work 
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Thank you my friend!
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Frustrated and checking out on Day 117 AF
Our online health appointments with a doc usually works well cause you can forget about clinics or getting a family doctor. Been on wait list for 2.5 years since we moved here.
2 appt yesterday that stay open for 3 hours each waiting for a doc to pick up your file. After 3 hours they cancel the appt and you have to fill out the form again. Did twice yesterday, 6 hours in totalā¦ nothing.
Did again today, twice, just to have both cancelled after 3 hours eachā¦ Two days and 12 hours waiting for a doc to grab my lab results so we can discussā¦ nadda. Have to do all over again tomorrowā¦ argghhh
Well anyway enough about my problems, they are inconvenient but small in the overall scheme of things.
Gym is all set up, other than waiting on a couple large mirrors and some vinyl and framed artwork for walls. Bose wireless sound system is set up, fans, and it is looking large for next winterās hardcore workouts. Just maintenance for summer while working. Hopefully 3 x 45 min sessions per week.
Anyway here is the final pics minus artwork. Hope you enjoy @acromouse
Hope you all had a decent day at minimum, amazing or better at best 
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Congrats Marie!!! super proud of you!
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Legs 11 AF
Thanks everyone for your support.
I got the job on the spot, itās in an immigration/remand centre in Adelaide Australia and sounds so good, but they want to pay my $15/hour less than the award so I will need to negotiate that. Thatās a big rip off. But will
Get my foot in the door as a mental health care nurse.
Otherwise, still crazily tired, slept for 15 hours last night and woke up tired, feel like sleeping more. But itās a beautiful day here and really should get up and go for a walk and do some house work.
I donāt think itās normal to be so tired? I donāt know.
Anyway, have a great day team 
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I can understand your frustration. Iām not fond of are healthcare system in the states and have wasted so much time on the phone working out coverage for this or authorization for that and blah blah blah!!! Hope it all gets handled tomorrow. Shouldnāt have to be so difficult. Your gym is looking awesome man! 
If you get tired of the landscaping gig you can start selling gym memberships. If you were a bit closer Iād sign up.
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Haha, and have people sweat all over itā¦ no way!
Yeah the system isnāt always a cluster like this, it usually works ok, I guess till it doesnāt. Like I said small potatoes. Itās free so it is what it is.
I may let you use, but not the general publicā¦ theyāre tooā¦ publicyā¦ haha, jk
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