I had a good weekend. Now I’m going to try and do both some fun and useful things this staycation week. Like work on my balcony and home a bit, write some, bike, socialize… That might be enough actually. It feels like spring. It’s a good feeling. Have as good a week as you can all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
@EarnIt Huge congrats on reaching triple digits Jené! @JennyH Glad to see you’re sober. Every craving you survive will make the next one just that little bit easier to get through. Hang in there
Yeah that’s one of the things that makes smoking and vaping so super addictive, from a behavioral viewpoint. Let alone the physical addictiveness of nicotine. Don’t try to substitute one addiction for another plz. It’s one of the big lessons we addicts (and modern western humans in general) have to learn, that not every moment must be filled with something. That nothingness and boredom are normal, and in fact essential, for living life. There’s a hole in everybody’s life and we must learn to be comfortable with that. I know it sounds vague but it’s true. Hugs.
Day 25… missed the gym this morning as I stayed up late (for me, almost midnight) playing computer games with some old school friends. We play once every couple of weeks and find it a good way to socialise without resorting to alcohol! We all live in different parts of London these days and have families, jobs which take us abroad, etc, so while we do meet in person once every few months we also connect doing this.
Will hit the gym at lunch (work from home today so will go early so that I can do a fasted workout then hit the weights room before it gets too crammed. I HATE waiting between stations as I like to push to failure).
@Mno hope you enjoy your staycation! I couldn’t agree more about the need to accept the void sometimes and not fill it with everything. Boredom is uncomfortable but necessary.
Day 2 today. Feeling really positive. Had a lay in but getting up now. Ripped my built in cupboards out over the weekend so going to break them up and get to the tip. Then going to do a bit of charity shop hunting and go to the supermarket to make a nice tea. Chicken and sweet potato fritters from a couple of instagram recipes I’ve been meaning to do. Have a good day everyone.
128 days
Chilled night at work last night after a hectic start to the shift.
Had the day with the wife today, walked the dogs and had a nice day
Back at work tonight and I’m in a low stress role this shift. Having said that now we’ll probably be busy:joy:
EDIT: within a minute of posting this we were out the door😂
Onto days off tomorrow. Looking foward to that.
Talked to the school nurse this morning, she’s going to push it forward and make sure the school do what they can to get that referral to the psychology unit. For our 14 y/o.
Had to pick up our 12 y/o after half the day because he was sick. So he’s at home now.
Haven’t slept much tonight, woke up at 02.00 and couldn’t sleep. Didn’t understand why until this morning.
We woke up the the news that it’s been a house fire in my home village.
My brother called early to tell me that the house belonged to our old neighbor. A girl from my old church.
The fire started around 02.00.
She lost her husband, one of her 10 y/o twin girls and her baby boy who was 6 years old in that fire.
The mother (The girl from my church) her oldest daughter who’s 20 years old. And one of the 10 y/o twins survived.
My brother things it’s strange, because this girl’s brother in law sells very advanced,very expensive fire alarms for a living. And one of his houses (They had two houses on their land,one with apartments and one where they lived themselves) burned down a few years ago. That time no one except their dog died,and they claimed the fire didn’t woke anyone up. And that there was a malfunction in the fire alarm.
I don’t know about that, it’s tragic anyway and I can’t stop thinking about those kids who’s now Missing their siblings and their father.
Can’t even imagine how hard that must be.
That’s terrible Sophie. My heartfelt condolences to the family and as well your community which has to be in such shock.
It brings sobriety into full check for me, we just never know what tomorrow will bring. We only have the here and now. Embrace that and be in the present for those around us.
Life is fleeting and precious. Appreciate it all while we can.
Had my best sleep score ever, 93%, best battery recharge 100%, never even came close to those numbers before.
My blood sugar was at the best morning testing this morning also.
After posting here and another note to my friend, phone went away. Freshly laundered sheets, showered, read a new book for 1:15mins, then lights out.
Woke up feeling simply physically amazing. Something to this sobriety and health thing it seems.
Today I revisit my new superset weight training to complete proper. Wife and I are then headed to trails for a bike ride, then home to set up for a time lapse of the eclipse which we are in a close zone to totality, not quite, but close. See if I’ve figured out how to set up my action cam to capture properly… time will tell.
Each day since this sobriety and health journey began has gotten me stronger and feeling better. I can only imagine where it could lead as I continue.
I’m having a block of dreadful sleep. I can’t even seem to fall asleep these last few days, but I’m not feeling all that tired either… So weird. Last night I put the bedroom lights out well before 10pm and then listened to TWO one hour sleep meditations and still didn’t sleep till about 1.30am.
Anyway. I’ve done a breathe work session today and that was incredible, feel a lot of emotional release and forgiveness flow thru me. Towards myself of course, I’m not spending much energy trying to forgive others at present! I deserve it.
Good morning from Texas! It’s the big day, and quite a few of the tourists have already left! Starts in 4 hours with totality in 5 for about 3.5 minutes. It is low overcast, poor viewing conditions. Thunderstorms during the eclipse I’m ok, I’m not crying. Feeling good. It’s still pretty exciting. It will get dark in the middle of the day and I get to experience darkness in a special way. Sober! (This would have been a nasty day drinking excuse)
Feeling better as sleep is working its magic. It’s like once you start sleeping, you start healing. Now the best part begins. I’m being a bit introspective because woo. Have yourself a great sober day
It’s so hard waking up and going to work, lately I don’t have any motivation for working. I really hope to find a reason soon (or at least believe I AM a enough reason to have a functional life.
I’m ok, I’m not crying. Feeling good. It’s still pretty exciting. It will get dark in the middle of the day and I get to experience darkness in a special way. Sober! (This would have been a nasty day drinking excuse)
