*Wouldnāt show what itās for but itās for weed. Bc I am not exaggerating when I say I used to be high all day except when sleeping. Every form of the substance, even when I had important meetings and despite having 2 lovely kids. My bipolar 1 was constantly incited, and I was making everyoneās life hell.
I donāt miss that and 2 years and a LOT of therapy, meds, meditation, journaling, and one dietician later, Iām making my life mine.
I know Iāve been sparse around here but I do appreciate this place and all the ways itās helped me get to where I need to be, thanks always. You guys are solid
Thanks much! Iām always trying to remember not to get too comfortable with the numbers! There are always still those moments where I just have to think about how much I donāt want to have to explain to anyone that I had to restart lol.
Itās weird bc it doesnāt feel like 2 years honestly
Great to see you Marianna. Huge congrats on two years freedom from weed, huge congrats on claiming your life for yourself. And big thanks for sharing your success with us all. Yay you!
Just updating my check-in, I talked to my CA sponsor and he said because I drank a couple drinks with some food while I was out with my friends for a concert a couple nights ago, Iām actually only 2 days sober in CAās eyes, which I understand. Iām not planning to drink again anyway even though I donāt get addicted to alcohol. It causes too many cravings for my DOC anyway.
So basically, Iām really:
14 days sober from my DOC
2 days sober from alcohol
Checking in headed to my brother and sis-in-lawās house in Paducah, Kentucky where we are about to watch the eclipse smack dab in the zone of totality. We watched the one in 2017 together also and itās a lovely experience to have together. Iāve had a great visit with them, my 4.5 year old niece and my parents, albeit short. My parents live a short 45 min drive away so itās always convenient to see everyone. I am grateful for them in my life. We head back home tomorrow and back to routine. Iām grateful sobriety and recovery make these visits not only possible but beautiful.
Day 3. Just trying to survive type vibes. I have a lot of chores to do but Iām giving myself grace to do them when Iām able to throughout the day. Thank God I have this week off from school. Experiencing all the food cravings that come in early sobriety lol which Iām not even mad at, I still feel wayyy less bloated and puffy from all the alcohol. Got an awesome workout thing called a row n ride that I recommend for at home because you can put it in front of your tv and it targets a lot of body parts and itās compact you can fold it to put away. You just sit put your foot on the petals and hands on the bars in front of you and stand pulling the handles towards you and squat with weighted cords on the back to give resistance. I also got it in pink and white so itās also cute the brand is Sunny if you are interested. I know thereās another brand called merach I believe but they didnāt have the color I wanted lol. Iām not a fan of dating apps but I also met someone on there who has similar values and is completely sober which is super rare, he lives a few hours away but is willing to come see me, not sure itāll go anywhere but it was nice to be reminded sober people are out there.
2y1m26d
Hi friends, how are u all doing? Just checking in on this absolutely beautiful day! So thankful for the weather as it really lifts my spirits. My son is back to school and so this mama was finally able to get back to the gym today. I had SUCH an incredible workout! Did back and 50 min of cardio. Made a healthy lunch to fuel the body, showered, and now to do some tidying up in the apartment. I also made sure to pray first thing for guidance throughout my day. Im really trying to get back to the swing of things and already i feel like a new person. I have crazy energy from my workout and i feel so determined to get to where i want to be health wise. Wish i could maintain that sense of focus for the days when im not so motivated. I have a ton of catching up to do on this thread so will do that shortly. Hope everyone is enjoying their addiction free day!
@john_connor1337 congratulations on ur 2 weeks from ur DOC! Youve made great progress there! @JonasE congratulations on entering the double digits! @sober26 welcome to the forum! Congratulations on ur 2 weeks! @mamador Wow Marianna!! Im so happy to see this Huge congratulations friend. @Nordique Always love to see ur checkins and ur time increase! Hope u have a great day too @Max199 congratulations on 1 week!!
Girlll I am so relieved to have my son back in school after his spring break and get work outs in again too! I love the energy I get in sobriety. One thing I ālovedā to do drunk was do my make up and say Iād make myself look/feel good and never actually would. Today I actually got ready and feel great and look much better without all the bloat plus my skin is just going to look better and better under my make up
Had to eat first, that was more important than making a screenshot 
the brand is Sunny if you are interested. I know thereās another brand called merach I believe but they didnāt have the color I wanted lol. Iām not a fan of dating apps but I also met someone on there who has similar values and is completely sober which is super rare, he lives a few hours away but is willing to come see me, not sure itāll go anywhere but it was nice to be reminded sober people are out there.
and look much better without all the bloat 
plus my skin is just going to look better and better under my make up 
