Checking in during the evening of
339 no alcohol
270 no vapes or ciggs
2 no form of marijuanna
Work is going good
Wife is happy
Baby is comfy
Nothing really else going on
Slept in a bit today right be4 work
It was good to get that extra rest
Id like to get up early to work out s little bit though
Good excuse to get up early. I either get up reslly early or really late. I like early because i have down time to wake up. Its just that getting out of bed is rough on me
Thanks. I did go to the beach and Iām so glad I did. Water was freezing but the cold water and hot sun shocked me out of the funk. Probably be back tonight but oh well.
Checking in day 213 SAF and 199 no smokes. So 7 months today no booze. Leaving work a little early tonight which is nice. We worked all day and got done earlier than expected, so I spent the last hour on here catching up, and on YouTube trying to to plan out digging a Koi pond out back. Going home taking a shower and settling the alarm for 4. Tomorrowās just another day. ODAAT.
Love yaās . 
Congrats on 7 months of doing the damn thing! Happy to be part of your journey from sg to here 
Thanx bro. Iām glad Iām on yours too. 
Congrats on 7 months. Good luck with the Koi pond. 
Alright yall, I admitted my mistakes to my CA sponsor. I realize I had too much ego and believed that I knew better than the veterans of being sober hereā¦ Thatās also why I didnāt bring up that I was going to a rave and bar yesterday, because I knew what the responses of people here would be, but they were right and I was wrong to be completely honest. My sponsor says Iām technically not even day #1 sober, since the drugs are still in my system from yesterday. Iām asking him when Iāll be considered day #1 sober. He told me we cannot meetup for sponsorship meetings until Iām 7 days sober. I accept that I dun fucked up pretty bad yesterday. So, for now Iām gonna assume Iām day -2 sober until he gets back to me telling me when Iām day 1 sober.
Mans will no longer go to bars/raves/clubs/parties. I know my words donāt mean much right now, being only -2 days sober, but only time will tell. I am determined to do whatever it takes to be truly sober; I realize I am indeed powerless over drugs and alcohol.
A part of me really wishes that the collective mind of Cocaine Anonymous was wrong, and that the brain of John Connor was right, but this is not the case. I was wrong, yup.
Edit: My sponsor got back to me. He says today is day #0 sober. So day #0 it is.
I didnāt know we could be in the negative days! 
In all seriousness yesterday is gone and all we have is today. I couldnāt tell you how many days I have sober unless I look at the calendar I start over when I wake up. So whether itās day -2 or day 600 maybe focus on making the day count instead of counting the dayās. If that makes sense.
Hi all,
Checking in after a busy day. Cooking and built a big fort for the kids this morning (āthe hotelā still stands in our back living room taking up most of the room 
then off to a birthday party with the kids and hubby was able to get some work done. Visit from the in-laws, then hubby was off on a delivery and to spend the night at our friends in the city.
Im not sure how to write this and also do not want to say too much as it is not my story, but my husband was contacted by our good friends ex-partner (they share a child who is best friends with our daughter), that our good friend has been using hard drugs for years. I cannot say we didnt suspect something was going on, but we havent seen that much of eachother since we left the city almost 3 years ago. My husband has a very close circle of friends we have known since highschool. I affectionately call them my rough boys, and I have always been so grateful how I love and get along with every single one of them. Our house has always been the hang out spot (though that slowed at times and went in waves with kids, the pandemic and lofe), but its coming around again because all our friends are moving out by usā¦its really amazing, something we joked about and wanted but didnt thinj it would actually happen. Im not sure where Im going with this but to say that each of these men my husband grew up with are so important to us. Our friend who is struggling hides, and has a tendency to lie especially when cornered. I have sat with him regarding issues several years ago when his son was born, though this is different now still. Im not sure how else to describe what we are thinking and feeling, or planning to try to be thereā¦but it is hard. Growing up, getting to know yourself and taking care of others (meaning our children and those we have responsibilities to is hard). I am a stonecold feminist, though this doesnt exclude me from feeling ever so deeply for the challenges that men face in dealing with what is infront of them and within them. Its come to my husband and I asking ourselves, if this was us if we were the mum would we not keep our child from him for safety? Im just at a loss here, so rambling. But wanted to put it out someway, as I dont want to speak to anyone else but my husband about what our friend is going through. Im not sure hes ready to be honest, and no you do not have tell everyone everything or crack open everything at onceā¦i think the first step is just being honest about how much help one needsā¦thats enough for now.
Off to bed. So grateful to be sober today, and hoping our friend reaches his own point. I am proud of my husband for being the friend to reach out and call him out. We had spoken about him doing this before the phone call feom the ex, and my position stands: if you love someone, if you are a true friend and have someones back you will have tjose tough talks. You will go there. Thats true friendship, thats love. All else for me, falls away. Xo and stay safe everyone.
Checking in Day 176
Itās been a really good week for my recovery this week - Iāve spent a lot of energy working on it. 5 meetings (which is usual), Iāve bought another big book and Iām making a few more amends in the coming weeks. I just wish I could sleep properly at the moment. Iām not getting much sleep at all really. Iāve had some very painful conversations as well which my little heart had to get out in order to move on but thatās the bitch ent it? Good news, you get your feelings back - Bad news, you get your feelings back.
Iām really keeping two things my sponsor said to me in mind. The first is āif you donāt need to go there, donāt go thereā and the second is āDo the steps to get better, donāt get better to do the stepsā. I need to call him tomorrow actually.
Sobriety in the early days is real fucking hard. Iām looking back on the last six months and the hard work is allowing me to apply boundaries, reconstruct my morals, recognise my weaknesses (despite not being great yet) and also to understand that I am not in control and when I do try to run the show, things go to shit. Letting go of things is not natural for me, be it a woman, a resentment or a desire to drink. Iām still practicing step 3 daily and itās coming a lot more easily than it did in previous months.
Job interview Monday. Gotta go meet my new niece and nephew in the next couple weeks aswell before they suddenly start school like all the others did.
Oh andā¦ another thing to remember to practice ārestraint of tongue and penā ā¦ Although now days, it should be āRestraint of tongue and keyboard.ā Itās surprising just how peaceful life can be when you stfu for a sec and just enjoy the moment.
Day 85. Had a perfect solo parenting day. Lots of playground time, walking, and toys with my daughter, and a friendās kidās birthday party. I made a nice Matsaman Green curry for dinner during her afternoon nap after the chicken marinated all day.
Just putting my little girl to bed now.
Going to tidy the kitchen, and enjoy some reading on the couch before bed. Sober weekends are the best.
Have a great rest of your night.
Youre time and effort towards ur recovery is really inspring to me. Youve really done alot of hard work and its paying off! Ive seen the change Im proud of u
When u write about ur experiences with AA and having a sponsor etc, it really makes me miss my old home group and sponsor back in my home province. I went to meetings for 10 years and everything I learned at those 12 step mtgs changed my thinking, behaving, and my life overall. I do miss it very much. I do attend online mtgs occasionally but dont have a sponsor (since I moved) and havent worked the steps in about a decade, if not longer. Ur post is inspiring me to maybe take another look at them or at the very least get back to some of the basics of the 12 steps.
@chevy55 thank you Nick for you sweet words. Appreciate you support also. Very grateful to have found this community and all of you wonderful souls.
@wahtisnormal YEAH day 4 ā you should most def be proud of your accomplishment. Are you able to reach out to your brother and tell him about your sobriety and your fears? Maybe ask him to help you stay accountable (maybe not drink in front of you). I am so sorry for the onset of grief you are experiencing. I canāt imagine how hard it is to be reminded of the sadness and loss. Big hugs to you Zoe. Sending you loads of love!
@jasty2 WOW 7 months AF! That is fantastic Joe ā Should be super proud of yourself. Great work 
Ooh ā exciting that you may have a Koi pond in your new homeā¦ will look for the pictures when the time comes 
Checking in Saturday evening
Did get a few 10 min walks in today which felt nice but now working on my body swelling. This cycle is driving me insane. Grateful that i got a new 9V battery for my TENS machine (it was in bad shape last night) - will at least have some back relief here shortly. I am feeling very tired today too so hopefully it will be an early night. Finished the 1st season of Will Trent and debating on starting the 2nd season now or wait till its complete.
N-E Ways ā have a wonderful addiction free day / evening my sober peeps. Sending you all so much love 
Ahhh we love watching Will Trent. We are binge watching that show and Blacklist (netflix). Im glad u were able to manage a bit of exercise today. Walking is so therapeutic. Hope u get some rest and have a great night my dear friend
Checking in on day 1037
Thanx Jasmine, I am and Iām super proud of all yous too.
12 days sober today. Iām an alcoholic and Iām emotionally a mess. But Iām ready to work on myself. Iām ready to face myself instead of escaping.
Day 4 part 2
Home from work and im just feeling depressed, and the grief is still sitting with me more than Iād like. Urge to drink is present. Also kind of bored which is always a fun feeling to pair with depression 
listened to some This Naked Mind podcasts on the way home which was nice. Will continue to listen to them. At the moment, not sure how tonight is going to go. I kinda feel defeated. Like no matter what decision i make, im not going to be happy. If i dont drink, im going to be uncomfortable from that, and if i do drink, im going to feel guilty. One of the podcasts talked about how its worth increasing our knowledge on alcohol so that we dont want it, and that way there wont be a feeling of missing out. I plan on educating myself more so i can hopefully get to that point. But its definitely going to take time. I do appreciate the change in perspective, it always helps having different ways to look at things.
Day 103
Took me 2 years of trying to get here, after decades of heavy drinking, but thatās okay!
Been a decent day, went to Home Depot to pick up a couple plant pots, because Iām buying too many plants! And I found some pots, and 2 plants ended up in my shopping cart and came home with me, wth!
Buddy is doing great 
and Iām still working on Alexās biting 
. Iām almost positive he was abused.
Other than that, typical Saturday, except I no longer think about drinking 24/7. It is Awesome! 
Enjoy your day/evening! 
Listen to āthis naked mindā youāll realise there is no reason for FOMO at all.