Thank you so much, @JazzyS 
Iāve read āwhatās YOUR Planā, itās a great inspiration.
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Day #19 sober from my DOC!!! 
Iām nearly 3 weeks sober from my demon!!! 
Also, Iāll be honest last night I went to a rave with some friends and then a bar. It was a really bad idea for the alcohol sobriety tbh. Iām not too concerned about my alcohol sobriety counter since I never crave alcohol, but yeah that happened 
The friends I was with kept doing blow in the bar washroom and whatnot. Surprisingly, I chose not to partake even though there was alcohol in my system, which is a good sign that the real me is finally regaining control over my brain.
Instead of wanting to do coke with them, I was honestly feeling kinda disgusted by them doing cocaine like that. It made me kinda feel like ādamn, so thatās what I looked like to normal people who donāt do cocaine when Iād go do blow in a washroom!ā Lol 
Also, yall how do I stop myself from choosing to go out and drink occasionally? I know itās not good for me, but sometimes I get such FOMO which makes me agree to plans anyway that I know are not good for me I need to be better than this! 
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This is a slippery slope. Even if alcohol isnāt your DOC, it still isnāt possible to control your behaviors while youāre drinking it no matter who you are. Especially going into a place where your DOC is, and will be used in front of youā¦I canāt foresee this ending well. You said it yourself
That sounds like you knew completely that you were taking a risk.
There was a point in my life where opiates became a much bigger problem than alcohol for me. As much as I desperately wanted to stop doing them, it was impossible while I was still drinking. The only reason I finally did was because the sources dried up.
To me, an addict is an addict is an addict. No matter your DOC. Your āvoiceā will find a way to get what it wants however it can. Donāt listen to it.
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I LOVE swedish pancakes! Literally my favorite. They kinda remind me of crepes. 
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Checking in on day 172.Hope everyone has a good weekend!!
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Day 310 gambling free.
Last Sunday, the day before my 10-month milestone, I had a huge impulse to gamble, it really didnāt think itās possible to have milder urges early in recovery and such a big one at that point (for me 10 months have been so far my longest sobriety period, the others lasted less than a month). I immediately called a friend and we met, because I was honestly losing it. I even started crying in the tube because I felt hopeless. The good thing is that Iāve managed to overpower this urge and itās 1:0 for me.
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Congratulations on ur upcoming 3 weeks free from ur DOC! And im very proud of u for not involving urself with others that were doing ur DOC. Thats not easy to do.
Alcohol was never an issue for me. Drugs (my most recent DOC was crack cocaine) have always been the issue. That being said, it wouldnt have surprised me if alcohol became a problem. I know that i have an obsession of the mind, meaning i am an addict thru and thru. Alcohol is a drug like any other and so in order for me to truly be clean from all mind altering substances, i need to be free from drugs AND alcohol. Its just too easy to switch addictions. I have that sort of personality. And thats why I avoid it too. Not worth the risk.
If you want to quit drinking too, just put the same effort that ur putting into quitting ur DOC, towards alcohol too. Its actually much easier to just be free from all substances, than to pick and choose. For myself, I know that as soon as i put ANY substance into my body, i release my addiction all over again, no matter to what substance.
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Alcohol was my doc and when I hurt my back I had a hard time getting off opiates luckily that didnāt last long because I did like the feeling more than alcohol. Never did any other drugs but Iām sure if I did I would be hooked fast. Addictive brain so nothing mind altering for me. Good luck to you and hoping you figure it out and not trade one addiction for another.
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Youāre either going to be dedicated enough to sobriety to not go or you wonāt. Iāll tell ya what will happen if you keep going. You will absolutely relapse.
You have to make the decision as to what is more important, your sobriety or the club. Choose wisely
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74 second checkin
Thank you so much @Alisa @Mno @JazzySā¦
I am better now. Forced my body to the limit with the moving work, yea it was hard but yea so it is not that bad isnāt it. Damn strong anyway.
These thoughts.
I am okay now. Relaxing, will have dinner soon.
Taking care of my bones and muscles lol.
Feeling better, am sober!
Just didnāt get the point todayā¦
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Thereās a saying. That if you keep hanging out in the barbershop, eventually youāre gonna walk out with a fuckin haircut. If you want sobriety, hang out with people who also want it. Itās pretty simple.
Sometimes it takes us a while to realize it, but the concept of sobriety isnāt rocket science. The hard part is doing what it takes to maintain it.
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If this helps any, try NOT SAYING non alcoholic drinks. Just say fruit drinks and juices.
Sober thinking is sober living
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Thanks yall for the responses Okay you guys are right, I need to seriously prioritize my sobriety, regardless of the FOMO I get. Iām going to really try to be better. I gotta admit this to my sponsor as well, which really sucks but I need to practice honesty.
Do you guys have any advice for fighting the FOMO? I feel like I need a different way to think about FOMO to successfully fight the feeling
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Youāre right youāre right, I gotta train my brain to prioritize sobriety, just like how it used to prioritize my DOC over everything. Itās tough, but Iāll learn this. Next time, Iāll post a thread asking yall if I should go out, which might be a healthy way to stop myself
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35 days smoke & alcohol free
All good 
today
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All I know is the only thing Iām missing out on with that group is regret! I had to change people places and things to get sober.
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What do u think ur missing out on? And is it really worth the risk to jeopardize ur sobriety?
If u want social interaction, maybe meeting up with some friends in a clean and sober setting is a good start. Or finding new hobbies to occupy ur time.
In all reality what ur missing out on is physical and emotional distress, financial debt, damage done to relationships etc etc. The list goes on n on. Its just not worth it 
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I understand the FOMO.
Itās the point of FOMO that you truly become in the danger zone. You are off to a great start when you chose not to miss out cause your not missing out on the dark fun.
Dark fun is when your mind shuts down and even bad things are funny.
Healing your body will come in time. You wonāt FOMO the bad stuff
And then when your healthy you will realize your FOMO will be about good stuff
There will be a time when you wonāt miss out on anything and your remember good stuff
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Sorry man, I think you think youāre smarter than those that came before you.
You show an arrogance to your success in sobriety.
I wish you all the best, and hope you are successful, but believe you just like playing with fire until you relapse.
Your either in to abstain and remove yourself from these scenarios or you arenāt. You arenāt going to long term succeed with the trajectory you keep putting yourself on.
Apologies everyone for the bluntness, Iām just calling it as I see it.
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Thanks homies, I really appreciate you guys for not abandoning me over my stupid mistakes, so many people in the past abandoned me due to my addiction 
And @Steve14 honestly youāre 100% right, nothing good came out of last night. I regret it fully. I wish I just stayed home and worked out and saw my sponsor and whatnot. Iāll keep this in mind for next time I get that FOMO.
Also, I need to be honest about something, I also bought some random dudeās sketchy ass ecstasy pill last night and took it that night during my drunkenness. It was pretty scary to be honest, I couldāve ended up dead. I really regret last night, NOTHING good came out of it
I PROMISE you guys Iām going to be better than this. Iāve proven to myself time and time again that nothing good comes out of partying
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