2080 days, Steve, wowsa!
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Just checking in on day 280.
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Day 4
Slept like shit. Kept waking up. Was also awake from like 5-6am because my family was busy screaming at each other. Pisses me off how ignorant people can be when theyre not the ones that have to be up in an hour.
Pissed off and not feeling great. Have to work from 10am to midnight today between two different jobs. Hope someone takes my second shift but its doubtful. All i want to do is go back to sleep where i can be unconscious.
Yesterday went well.
Just want to get through today and go back to sleep.
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Checking in. Feeling kinda blah this morning. Itās raining again. At least we got a couple days of sunshine and itās a little warmer. Not much going on. Hope everyone has a great sober day.
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Day 154. Day off and its a beautiful day. 1 on 1 session with my counselor and then who knows probably a little bike ride or something. Much love everyone
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Yessss your doing it
Im so happy to see you post this
Amazing work and good job
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Day 20 and itās been a wild ride. My mother was sent home yesterday because the hospital was understaffed.
Now we donāt know when sheāll go back.
Otherwise Iām feeling tired and not very hungry.
Probably just have to adjust.
Made a list a while ago thatās been staring at me from my desk. Mostly just basic self care stuff.
Never followed through on it. Maybe I should do as the list says. Might lead to some improvements 
Anyways, I hope everybody else is doing ok.
Have a good day! 
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Girl I did the same today.
Healthy chocolate chip cookies for breakfast, a chocolate bar and sparking water for lunch, chocolate cereal as an afternoon snack.
Dinner will be spaghetti Bolognese.
Still within my calorie goal,bit some days just crave chocolate.
And actually chocolate in moderation is pretty healthy. So I donāt worry to much about that.
If you feel the need to message your psychologist I think you should do that. Better to do it one time extra than not at all if you feel bad.
Important reminder, no one is happy all day every day.
Hope you feel better soon.
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Sorry to hear about your mother.
If you donāt have the energy to do it all, you can pick one thing from the list and do.
You donāt have to do it all at once 
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Thereās no way in hell that snacks/chocolate could ever cause as much destruction as drinking/drugging, so donāt beat yourself up over it. Knowing your caloric intake is a great way to maintain (thatās how I do it), but when you go over, it isnāt the end of the world.
Meditation is hard work. I fall in and out (mostly out) of being able to sit still without my thoughts in a whirlwind. Sometimes just a few mindful deep breaths help bring me back to earth. And if all else failsā¦nap time 
If how youāre feeling is causing you more distress, maybe it is best to reach out for advice before things progress. From my POV, it seems youāre doing the right things. Be patient 
Life is fucking hard.
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Good thing is that you donāt have to sit still. Ground yourself is always a good skill to have,but you donāt have to be still to do that either.
You can walk, fidget with things, dance, boxing or basically whatever you need/want as long as youāre doing it with mindfulness. The point of meditation is to be aware of yourself and in a way sort your thoughts, and change focus from the outer world to the inner world but thereās many more ways than just one way to do that.
If youāve seen Disneyās Soul, thereās a hippie who spinās the sign, he is a great example in what I mean (If you havenāt you should definitely watch it, itās an awesome movie)
So do what works for you,no matter what Itāll be.
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Thank you and yes Iām gonna try.
At this point self neglegt is my new fashion statement.
Maybe itās time for a new look 
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Good to see you too! I still remember you checking in here each morning just as it was evening for me and time to go to bed. Thanks for your new service as mod. Well deserved!
And thanks @Mno and @Misokatsu ! Great to see yāall.
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Day 29 
Put the catio door together, painted it.
Put a few slats of wood on the roof.
Just the mesh to go and put the door on.
Polly has her groom tomorrow it was postponed due to stewy seeing the vet.
All good for today, got all the painting out the way so any more work can be done in the rain 
no excuses.
Going to cook dinner soon and walk Polly then pyjamas and movies in bed I think.
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That is a great movie I actually just watched it again a couple weeks ago!
I understand mindfulness in my day to day, itās just when Iāve been able to successfully complete ātraditionalā meditation, I feel a huge difference in all aspects of my life. Life is ever changing, and Iām just trying to focus on moving forward while learning new things about myself every day. A crazy journey weāre all on 
Grateful to always have support along the way 
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50 days sober. I am proud of me and tell myself keep going, you are doing great. 
āā Self talk is essential.
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I am so pleased wife and baby made your day, plus food always can brighten oneās day. Have a great sober day.
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I have done a TON of talking to myself today in an attempt to change my outlook on today and to challenge my thinking/acting.
This morning i woke up irritable AF. Honestlyā¦ nothing was going the way I wanted it to and i was fighting things every step of the way. I got my son on the bus and the first thing i did before anything else was pray. I needed to so badly. I had to stop trying to run the show this morning and have my HP guide me. It really helped and was just what i needed. I went out with my wagon and did a big grocery shop. Managed to do that with very little frustration. Will soon head to the gym and then do some cleaning. Ohā¦ and our stove broke last night (or maybe its just the fuse) and so my husband has to take a look at it later. If not then our landlord will be getting a call to see if he can do something about it. Thats frustratingā¦ God give me the serenity! Lol
Since being clean and sober, i have really begun to notice my thinking. Things that would have in the past, gone almost unnoticed. Now, I realize what im thinking and then correct it immediately. Im realizing the effect my thoughts have on me. They arent just thoughtsā¦ they effect how i feel and how i behave. If im thinking something judgemental (for example), it effects how i feel and therefore how i behave. So its a circle of events. If I however, stop my stinking thinking at the first sign of it, how i feel and behave improves and i have a better day overall!
Anyway, off to the gym now. Going to release some built up energy Have a great day everyone!
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Day #4 sober from everything
Day #23 sober from my DOC
Attended a meeting today with my sponsor which was good
I keep tripping out about my ex still ngl. I realize I miss the idea of him, but not necessarily himself. Trying to work through it and move on 
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Day 791. I am recovering from a three day road trip with my Mom. Traveling or spending significant time around her makes me mean. I can only hear about how hard it was to raise kids so many times before I snap. Then when you add in the the unspoken āwhy didnāt you have kidsā its mentally taxing. That woman does not see the paradox. One more day off to off gas all this stress before I head back to work.
My therapy will be gardening and cooking. Hang in there folks. Its not worth drinking over.
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