Checking in on day 65 
Spring has arrived and the warmth and sunshine does wonders for the spirit. I have been busy reading, walking, listening and writing. My cravings are strongest in the early evening. I have come up with some other options and it helps. Now, just need the sugar cravings to subside. Have a great evening friends. 
Hey all. Wanted to check in now bc Im sure sleep is upon me once I get these munchkins to bed! Im a bit sick, but was so happy to be at work today 
And just saw that Im at 9 months.
If you new, if you struggling just know it IS possible. And its a beautiful thing. Feeling so proud of this aspect of my life and just want to keep going and working on everything. Sending everyone love today xo.
@CATMANCAM & @JazzyS thank you for your kind words.
I am really fricken proud of 31 days but i feel focusing on sobriety is more important than ever right now.
I read someoneās post on here saying they feel like they are getting a bit impatient with their sober time, and that itās a sign to go back to recovery methods and chill. I like that, I find myself wanting to have more days under my belt, as if the longer I go the safer I am from alcohol.
I watched a show called Loudermilk, amazing show. So bloody good. Awfully crude and sometimes vile humour but that suits me just fine.
The main protagonist summed it up well when he said that every day that you are sober, your addiction is in the background, doing weights, bench presses and preparing for the moment we let our guard down.
I loved another post on here I saw recently that was, you always have another relapse in you, but you might not always have another stint of sobriety left in you . That hit super hard.
Have a great day everyone.
Iām almost finished with Loudermilk. I canāt believe I ignored it on Netflix for so long! Itās so good, and accurate.
The amount of days you have doesnāt make things any safer. I learned that at a meeting once where a guy had relapsed after 27 years. The only thing that matters is today, not the number.
Agreed. I started feeling like that today, like I wanted many more days. I wanted the brain fog to disappear, I wanted the fatigue gone.
I had over 6 years and relapsed, so this post is a good reminder, thanks!
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Day actually turned out pretty good. I got everything done that i wanted to get done. My husband was able to fix the stove so we were able to eat a stove cooked meal tonight. Im grateful 
Now just putting my son to bed and then im going to do a little self care. Enjoy ur day/evening everyone! Much love 
@lotusflower sorry I missed this earlier ā great work on your triple digits Des ā keep going strong
@catmancam Thanks friend - oh Iām sure today was heavy and hard. Grateful you had your brother by your side Cam. Hoping your meeting tomorrow goes well as well and you are able to be less anxious about it 
@Mira_d Yes!!! 9 months is amazing work Mira. Hope you get better soon. A beautiful achievement and much to be proud of
@whereswaldo Loved Loudermilk too ā totally crude and so real. I have been holding onto that one line too knowing that my addictive mind is working itās muscles just waiting for me to question my new lifestyle ā not going to let it. I know that even when I have a small inkling of a thought I immediately log on here and after just a few minutes of reading I can see why my sober life is the only life I want. Love that you are gaining expressions (tools) to help you keep forging forward
Congrats on your 107 days! Thatās fantastic.
Iām sorry youāre in pain. I get it - i have psoriatic arthritis. Dealing with chronic pain can wear you down and make you desperate for relief, but drinking isnāt the answer. It will only be worse tomorrow with shame, guilt and anxiety on top of the pain.
Stay strong. I hope you are feeling better soon.
Hello checking in on a Wednesday night. Why am I so tiredā¦
I am unaware of this milestone malady?
@icebear Iām tired today too 
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I really didnāt do anything at all today. It was raining all day, got sunny for about an hour around 7:30pm, and now itās thunderstorming. I like it, but very blah. Iām glad my daughter had a friend over for a while or I would feel worse for being so boring. Whenever I think a lazy day sounds nice, the pain and stiff body at night reminds me that itās not. In the words of Denise Austin, the original workout video queen, āYou rest, you rust.ā I used to live by that. Gotta bring it back. Well, I was gonna say that Iām gonna wind down for bed, but Iāve been wound down all day. Have a good night everyone
Day 914 AF
Wud up, gang.
Nothing new over here. Staying busy with work and the fam.
Hit 2.5 yrs sober yesterday. Times flyin. Kinda scary. I donāt wanna get older 
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Anyway, gonna stretch and then crash out. Have a goodnight, yāall.
ODAAT. Love ya 
Day 5. Checking in. Still very tired. I have to go to work even though I am ill.
@Joyce19 Youāve got to go to work with shingles!? Thatās cruel. I hope you can get back to rest soon.
@GOKU2019 Getting older just means youāre stacking up those days of being alive. Itās a counter. Can you see it?
@Mira_D Congrats on 
months 
@CATMANCAM Nice to read you had a gentle calm day of remembrance.
@JazzyS After youāve been mentioning it several times I had to look up what a tens machine is. Interesting 
@DresdenLaPage Ah yes. We want it our way and we want it now. I think everybody wants it that way. Our brains are strange like that. Sending us all patience.
@suechu I think youāre doing great with exposing yourself to something that is making you feel good afterwards but feels boring in the moment. Boredom is difficult, especially for us addicts.
148 sugar
12 UPF
19 gluten
0 overeating/binge
I slept well, some weird dreams. My mood on waking up is often rotten but I know it will change through the day. Nonetheless I suspect the change in the dosage of my meds has a part in it. Iāll try readjusting it. It usually takes about three days to show an effect.
Today Iām going to meet a good friend for coffee in the morning. Iām very much looking forward to this. Need to pick up a prescription later. Definitely yoga in the afternoon.
My husband will visit today sometime later. I hope I can stay away from too much drama.
Whatever the day may bring, however it may unfold I donāt need to deal with anything by using food or eating to make it go away. Iām not going. It wonāt help. It wonāt make anything better.
Have a day of peace, kindness and freedom friends 
Thanks for sharing
Really hit it on the button
Thank you 
it did get more manageable, and I made it through the day. 
so glad to finally be home and able to relax for a little bit and get ready for bed. I always appreciate your responses
Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 51
Nothing to report today really.
Sun is shining at the moment, but there have been plenty of warnings about another snow weather.
Going to bake some healthy banana cake today, currently Iāve snowed in on Healthy low sugar cakes and cookies that you can have for breakfast or Fika without feeling bad. Kids loves it, and they get plenty of fiber and protein and other stuff without realizing.
Did have Pizza twice this week, but I recently learned that our thin crust pizza have just as much calories as most peoples breakfast or supper sandwich, but more nutritions. If you donāt choose a Kebab Pizza with French fries of course. 
Going to cook for real today,pasta Bolognese. Have found Garofaloās glutenfree corn brown rice and quinoa pasta in different shapes. Before we only had it for lasagna. Doesnāt care to much about the nutrition there, but Iām so tired of glutenfree pasta that turns into mush. This one hopefully wonāt do that.
Happy Thursday everyone.
Day 4 part 2
Survived the day thankfully i only work one shift tomorrow so i cant complain lol.
Hoping to get to sleep soon so i cam catch up on sleep
Hope everyone has a lovely day/night
Thank you.
Well the mentality of this village is mainly āIf you want something, you have to create itā we have plenty of people who runs their own business. Our cinema,all of our sports clubs (Thereās canoe club, soccer, different horse sports, some martial arts,dancing, aerobics,tennis and much more) was started by people who wanted it for our community.
We used to have steam boat club that was running a steam boat along the river. Our neighbor whoās been a skipper around the world drove it. Unfortunately all of them are too old now, and you need a special exam to drive it. I know some people are trying to get it going again, but Iām not sure it will.
I wanted a Truck or Treat, Halloween isnāt really a thing here, and kids donāt trick or treat even if they want to. So I started and organized one. Trunk or treat was the easiest way. We located it right in the middle of the village,for easy access. And thatās what weāre looking for to do again.
Most of the politicians here have own kids that loved it and want it back, so I donāt think the meeting will be a problem.
Talked to one of the grocery store owners yesterday as well. He came out when we were doing some grocery shopping. The other grocery store has been sold, since the previous owner (who wasnāt from here) had a small scandal because he divorced his wife, flirted with all the staff and customers and eventually got together with the manager lady.
The new owner whoās taking over in May, seems a little more stabile according to the other store owner.
Both of the was interested in getting involved, now when the City Hall is.
Now I just need to convince them to build a curb all the way to my house too. (We have to drive our kids every day, because the road just outside our house is dangerous to walk on)
Day 299. Working all day but then off till Tuesday? I may cancel my leave on the Monday. It was more in case the weather was good.
Iāve arranged (for The end of June) to take the day off for when I have been sober for a year and take my wife to lunch to thank her for her support.
I know that is still 66 days away but itās an expression to her that I am thankful and to me I am sticking with this.
There are alcohol free drinks. There are lots of substitutes. Itās not even about social pressures on me to drink as I hardly see anyone. Itās me, down to me to keep focusing on my sobriety and not be a kn@b