@AbbyNormal way to go with your efforts towards a sober life. Keeping busy was key for me to keep the urge is away but sleep was also huge. Remember to be gentle with yourself and allow rest when your body needs it…a lot of healing and repairing is done while we sleep. Great to have you with us fighting for another day @Whereswaldo 40 days is wonderful work … keep stacking up the days @SoberWalker always great to see you Claudia. Wow…how cool that you clicked with your match. This will be wonderful for the both of you. Farsi is a beautiful language IMO (have fun leaning). @james83 wow that’s cool that your wife is working alongside you on sobriety…it is crazy to see the gold alcohol can have. I myself was a daily drinker but have seen it as a problem for the weekly or even bi- weekly drinkers. It’s best to be poison free … You both are doing great @acromouse thanks Aga…had a great sleep (was knocked out). Glad you didn’t let that voice get to you. You do belong here and we are grateful to have you in this journey of self betterment with us 1 week dairy free is awesome work friend @danwood85 happy Saturday friend… lovely to start off with a tea in the garden. 6 days is impressive work…keep working it…the mood will get better as the cravings subside and that fog lifts. @Chevy55 wow…you really are piling it in. Wishing you luck brother. Hope you don’t burn out with an overload. @Jasty2 lol…no McDonald’s for me…just the bathroom. Funny thing that I lived in that house for almost 20 years and this was the first time going to the McDonald’s. Grateful we did pack loads of coffee, water and fruit. Glad you ended Friday in a chillaxed note. Its great that you have a Saturday off and can relax… lovely start to your day! @laner great that you are working on space for yourself. It is hard to get past the mindset of feeling guilty for not working and just resting but remember you deserve a balanced life. No guilt or shame in living for yourself.
Checking in Saturday morning…got some sleep…that laundry will finally get folded after coffee of course …gonna have some time with Mom and take it relatively easy today
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day… sending you all so much love
I’m going to try to slow down over the summer and not feel guilty about it. I think I’m just going to do my translation project, farm work and step back from my other jobs over the summer. Give myself more space to focus on myself. It’s not easy for me to do but I’m gonna try it.
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Morning TS! Just thought id check in before i begin work. Had to do another overnight last night and it was a bit rough. My son needed more care than usual. Just wasnt settled. I tried to take it easy but then before u know it, 6am came around and i had to begin getting ready for work. So now im on my way to work. Will push thru today and then thankfully we have a nurse coming in tonight (last one for who knows how long - I havent received the May schedule yet).
Other than all this, im doing not too, too bad. A bit concerned over my weight and eating habits lately but thats nothing new. Just gotta keep working on that. No urges to use, so thats good! Hope everyone enjoys their saturday! Sending
Bad day so far. Not sleeping is wrecking me. It is so discouraging to make a lot of progress and just get tossed back into hell. I need to stop thinking as everything seems pointless at the moment. Need to distract somehow.
Missed checking in last night but the number is still the same until 7pm. At work, our GM is on vacation and our head chef’s grandmother just passed away. We were left to face the busiest night of the year so far being led by our young manager and 3 rookies behind the kitchen line. I offered up advice throughout the night but as usual I was ignored bc she wanted to try it her way. Ended up being the shitshow I expected, and us running around like headless chickens. I’ve gotten used to nights like this. Glad to get it over with.
After work I ended up going to my bartender friends house. Last time I was there was in February, helping her sand walls for painting. Glad I finally got to see the finished result. It was so nice to catch up and have some crazy deep conversations. The four of us are all in recovery, each with a different DOC. Cocaine, heroin, meth, and me. They all agreed they got the most out of AA meetings as opposed to NA. Whatever works is all that matters. I personally believe anyone can benefit by practicing the principles of AA, alcoholic/addict or not. It changed my way of thinking so much that I can’t even imagine navigating life without it. Our conversations went deep into the night and I ended up staying over bc I didn’t feel like driving home so late. Not the best sleep, but compared to waking up with a hangover, this is cake. I’m going to lay down for a bit before work. Hoping it won’t be a repeat of last night
I had and still am working on this. It’s hard for me to sit and do nothing.
I think for me, because I was a “functioning alcoholic ” (and I laugh because that was no way to function.) it was shame. I wanted to drink more than anything. My life revolved around my next drink. Hiding the fact I was drinking too much. But if I kept busy. Kept working. Cleaning something. Just basically always getting things done. Working harder than everyone. Then I hid the shame of always drinking or being a drunk. It was so exhausting. I was always doing 3 or 4 things at a time. I don’t have to do that anymore. I don’t have to be perfect to hide the fact that I’m always drinking. Basically I’m just a human being and I don’t have to be perfect by always doing something. I’m still working on this. It’s hard.
I find guided meditations help a lot. It took me a long time to be able to sit with a guided meditation and get use to not doing anything. I do them all the time now. Lots of people on here use the Insight Timer App.
Keep up the good work.
And enjoy a lazy day. Being sober is hard. Relax. You earned it.
I’ve been like this since I was a kid. Always had to do and do. I think in a way the drinking in the evening was my way to ‘relax’ and get out of work mode. I’ll look into this app you mentioned. Thanks for sharing. It helps me to hear I’m not alone in these things.
Yeah my schedule bas been a little crazy lately my sdcond job made me increaae my availability but so far ive been doing good. I appreciate your input, definitely focusing on self care when I’m not at work