Day 565
Monday I can call the doctors office and request an appointment 
it’s been almost 8 months since I had insurance. Hopefully they can help me feel better.
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Checking in absolutely exhausted, but sober and happy. The drive home from the beach wasn’t too bad. Traffic was lighter than usual. Got everything unpacked and put away before going to bed. Got up early this morning and spent the day running our service organization’s game booth at a local festival. It rained a good part of the day and was so cold. There was still a decent crowd and we made some money. I left there and went to help out with the monthly fundraiser we do for a community member in need of financial help. Thankfully, a couple other members filled in and did the cooking, baking and prep work i usually do. I helped in the kitchen for a while, helped clean up, count money, etc. I just got home and I’m so tired, but also too wound up to sleep. I have one more day off before i have to go back to work. It’s supposed to get warmer here tomorrow, so im hoping to go for a motorcycle ride. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
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@lighter I’m sorry that the insomnia is causing so much havoc. It is hard to operate daily with lack of sleep and I do know how distressing it can get. Especially when the insomnia is so erratic. I do hope you are able to get a good nights sleep tonight and get into a good rhythm. Sending you loads of calming vibes Marie 
@PositiveThoughts see you are hours away from triple digits my friend. That is very impressive work 
Sending healing vibes – hope that the fever breaks soon. I know its hard to not get “me” or “down” time out of the house when you are working all week – hopefully you can find a good way to unwind at home and practice some self care as a reset for your body and mind 
It is easy to get complacent in our recovery when the days start to feel normal but we still have to keep our guards up as the sneaky devil tends to know just when to strike. Great job in staying on track
@tailee17 Hells Yeah!!! 2 months is fantastic work friend Lam Keep going strong my friend.
@seizetheday WOW that’s fantastic. Glad you were able to enjoy a sober holiday. One more milestone to add to your accomplishments
@john_connor1337 DO be gentle with yourself. It is good to have a routine and make sure you are busy so that you can’t focus on your DOC but also to not push yourself when your body needs rest as it is trying to detox and recover from all the damage done by the DOC. Do keep in touch here and with your meetings as support is key. Hold onto the shit feeling and remember it when your mind tries to say its ok to indulge. Sending love and strength Remember that if all you do in a day is stay sober then you have accomplished a LOT cause that in itself takes so much energy and effort.
@hillbillychris You do what feels right for you and your wife. I can’t even imagine the loss that you two have experienced but I can understand you not wanting to belabor the healing process by dragging it out. You need to work on healing and your own recovery. Sending you virtual hugs my friend. Hope you two are able to mend your broken hearts 
@twizzlers Yikes that is a hell of a day. Glad you were able to get it all sorted out and hopefully you are recovering from the side effects now. YEAH Girl – waking up to 40 days 
@mindofsobermike Lovely to see you checking in Mike. Glad you are spending some quality time with the girls 
I don’t know either if anyone wins in these fights but I do know that you wouldn’t be able to live with not having given it everything you got. I am so sorry that you are having to fight so hard in the first place. So sorry that they are making this such a ordeal and your nephew is hanging in the balance. I do hope that you are able to find a resolution to this soon. Sending you hugs and strength my friend.
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@butterflymoonwoman Oh man I’m so sorry to read this Dana. I do hope that hubby can give you a few hours of rest tonight as this is an insane task for anyone. The cycle is unsustainable. I am glad that you reached out to the company and I do hope that they take you seriously. Or hopefully you can report them or go above their heads or??? I don’t know but this is an inhumane way to treat a customer. Hopefully one of the nurses that they were training is up to par by now. Sending you massive virtual hugs my friend. I do hope you are able to get some rest tonight. Thinking of you
@scorpn Grateful that you are able to finally schedule an appointment Renee. Hoping that they are able to get you an appointment quickly. I do hope you are able to get treatment and start feeling better soon
Checking in late on a Saturday night
493 days free of alcohol and weed
908 days free of cigarettes
It was a good day overall. Did get some movement in which is always a plus and my symptoms / pain levels were all manageable. Spent today just working on me and trying PT type exercises myself as my appointment is not till end of June. I am not super tired so will maybe start a movie (that is a sure fire way to fall a sleep LOL).
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening – sending you all so much love
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Checking in sober on a Saturday night. 
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While the rest of the country was partying, I did a full commute on my bike yesterday. Funny how you forget how long it is, but already on the way back it felt a bit shorter. Not going to repeat today though, my legs do feel it a bit.
Working Sunday coming up. That’s fine. Pays extra. Do have some stuff to do outside of work too, but that will have to wait. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from my commute.
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Soccer squad? 
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Firstly, if I was really rich, I would definitely have a footie team: Ted Lasso style, and based in the Riviera.
Secondly, it’s football 
even the emoji proves that…
Don’t encourage Joe, @Lighter … He’s got a fair bit of confusion in his life 
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I’m going to stop doing that. Football is the game played by 2 sides of 11 girls or boys who play a round ball with their feet (unless you are the goalkeeper) or occasionally with their heads and try to put said ball in the opponents’ goal. It’s going to be 15 C today, my commute is 35 km, I’ll drink about a liter of coffee, and consume at least 100 grams of cheese, probably more. Have a great day all, all around the world 
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So that’s where the decent weather is then, the Netherlands… It’s rained non stop here for at least 24 hours. 
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Thank you Joe, that’s nice of you to say.
I will try to be here more, it’s important for my sober me too I guess 
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#Day 2048 
Enjoyed Kingsday yesterday. Visitit a small touristic village nearby where we discovered a big cruiseship filled with tourists from abroad enjoying “our” Kingsday. It was fun seeing them wandering around the little village seeing the village people having fun with the festivaties. A tourist said to me: “I love to see you are all so patriotic!!” It made me laugh out loud when she was gone (sorry) because we are not. But we Dutch people love to have a party and a day off
Maybe I smash some of you’re idea’s about Dutch people too 
When we walked by that cruise ship we saw the staff all dressed up in old traditional Dutch costumes
But the tourists had fun, that is what counts.It’s funny to see this at the other side. When I am on holiday abroad and I go see a flamingo show for instance, some Spanish girl thinks “those tourists do strange things”
Today? A walk somewhere and no plan’s made so far.
Have a good day all!!
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I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
60 days today you guys.
That’s all Folks.
Happy Sunday
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Congrats on your 60 days Sophia
Nite nite
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Still around to say:
Congratulations for the 2 months sober Olivia! 
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@PositiveThoughts That list idea is brilliant! I’m gonna try it 
It does feel great to cross everything off a list, but I feel bad when the list doesn’t get any smaller. I usually think to myself “At least you got the litter boxes cleaned 
” to make myself feel better(can’t skip that one). When it comes to getting things done, my approach could use a tune up.
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I am SO glad I don’t work til Wednesday! Tonight was a repeat of last night 
Yesterday there were 4 servers/2 bussers and we covered 85 people. That really shouldn’t be alot to handle. It was bc there was no organization on the floor by our manager and we were all dealing with tables being pissed off by how long the food was taking bc the kitchen is clueless without the chef.
Tonight there were 2 servers/2 bussers/1 trainee and 75 diners + a dozen togos. Training someone on the weekend is already difficult, let alone a short staffed, busy night. Our manager actually took over training and helped her take tables, letting us hold the rest of the fort down. This girl has never served before, and it was her second day, and she fucking crushed it! Glad we found somebody good It actually turned out to be a pretty successful night (by comparison). I walked out with 6x as much as last night 
I needed to go straight to Walmart before it closed. When I realized I was walking by the beer section I thought “Huh? 
Nothing about that appeals to me.” Crazy. By the time I was finally settled in, it was 1am! I’m beat 
Tomorrow my friend is borrowing her man’s truck so we can pick up some old, abandoned furniture in an apartment buildings basement. Another day of hard labor There’s a desk I want for my daughter’s room that she’s really excited about. Hopefully that will help motivate me to get things organized in order to put it in it’s place 
Now I need food before bed. Have a good night everyone
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Thank you, and Thank you for putting Tony the Tiger commercial jingle in my head for the rest of the day. Love it 
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Congrats Sophia
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Congrats @MrsOdh ! Soooo happy for you! Celebrate your achievement! It’s a big deal! Congrats! Here’s something to pin on your shirt/ jacket, carry in your pocket, or just cherish!
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Day 7…a week ago, I drank. I knew before I did that it was going to happen. It was my birthday and we were on holiday abroad. There are still some things that I associate too greatly with alcohol (esp. holidays). Now we are home, it feels easier to disassociate. There’s the lesson!
Work is hard this week. I gave my staff pay rises but they all seemed ungrateful about them. It is really playing on my mind, affecting my sleep, making me feel sad and angry. No one was promised anything, and (old person comment alert) there seems to be this real self-entitlement from the younger staff, that they expect promotions and pay rises everyday without putting the work in. It’s a new struggle for me to navigate. I’m letting if get to me badly.
Have a great Sunday.
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