Evening all, checking in on day 1051. Seems to be getting a little harder day by day to even get myself out of bed. Used to take such pride in my work especially and now I just feel lethargic constantly. Been seeing my regular counselor and a grief counselor, back on anti-depressants which I’m not against but wasn’t planning on that. I know I can’t be this negative like this and I try but the anger just takes over everything. As soon as that happens nothing good or logical comes out of it and then I feel horrible after. Hoping everyone is having a good weekend, spending mine at work with my pups. Take care everyone.
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@Mno Dang! I’ve had my fair share of waking up looking like that too and not knowing why. Fortunately, I learned early on that bicycles were out of the question when I drank! I couldn’t even make it 3 feet without falling over 
Best thing I read today Super ungrateful. That cake looks bomb!
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I went to bed late, but woke up with loads of energy. Got out of the house early and ran a few errands. Went back to the boutique to claim my free necklace. Not a great selection(too much gold 
) but I found one I liked. With more time, and the shop to ourselves, we found a couple more clothing items. I rarely buy myself clothes anymore bc I already have so much(I used to have a problem), but they are very inexpensive for great quality, and they’re cute 
Gotta treat yourself sometimes.
Not much else to report. Have a great day 
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Checking in. Almost done with day 1. Im so upset at myself for slipping. I read something that really stuck out to me today. It said recovery is an action. And that i cant think my way out of addiction. It really stuck out to me so ive been working on a real plan. I really cant take the after drinking depression. I know tomorrow will be a better day. I appreciate everyone who posts. It kept me out of my head today reading everyone’s posts.
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Day 827
Doing okay, been kind of struggling to remain disciplined with all my stuff going on. I have to maintain, but I’m so tired. I just want to stay in bed all day and I know that’s cause for concern. I need to make sure not to binge watch YouTube videos or eat away my thoughts and feelings.
These are the big bipolar hours when I have to be extra aware, and push back on the walls of solid depression that keep trying to fuck my mind up.
I would be lying if I said I felt energized and ready for the week ahead. Just need to push myself to do better and remember I’ll feel okay later if I do the things now. Sometimes later feels like a minute, sometimes a year. Gonna take time to either play piano or play stardew valley tonight, I haven’t decided which yet.
Have a good Saturday night all.
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Trying to wake up as I have a train to catch and a work day to do. I’m OK. I’m sober and clean. Thank god the game didn’t go to overtime and penalty kicks like England’s did and I was in bed before midnight. Where will we meet to watch the game together Wednesday @Tragicfarinelli? Looking forward to that
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Otherwise not that much to say except to wish you all as good a day as you can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from my hood.
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Thank you so much 
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Hey I wish we could watch the game together, that would be nice! 
I look forward to it @Mno 
I was particularly impressed by our boys pennos! 
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Day 379. Family event yesterday (wife’s family) went well. Alot of them drank. I didn’t. All good. I think there were 10 all together at one point. Four are coming back today for breakfast… And probably lunch. After that I am washing the car… Yep. Got a new jet washer and I cannot wait to clean the car…
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Day 146
Sunday arvo check in.
All quiet here, gym session this morning and just preparing lamb roast for dinner. Go for a 5km walk after tea before an early evening with a book or some Netflix.
Hope everyone is going well.
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Congratulations @Vanessa8 with such an important milestone 
For me it was a hurdle to reach, but when I did sober life became a bit easier. 3 months in your pocket it is! 
@Butterflymoonwoman that is what I call taking care of yourself Dana. You recognize the warnings and took action. That’s recovery in it’s full
You are careful with yourself @Lighter and with your sobriaty. That’s so wise! Babysteps are steps forward too! I read somewhere to make a idealistic plan for yourself for where you wanna be in let’s say a year and make little realistic steps towards them. You are doing just that!
Look at you @Scorpn ! Day 635! Still nailing it buddy! 
Welcome back @john_connor1337 
@MontanaLady77 a solid plan is an great idea Tamara. I made one too in the beginning of my recovery and it was and is very helpfull. It gave my recovery hands and feets so to speak. If you need help with it I can share you some threads about it?
*Day 2118 
Today I would have been going to a museum with a friend but she cancelled. Not a big deal but as always with this friend I didn’t hear anything about her untill I asked how late we would meet. I apped yesterday evening.
She was sick she said.
Normally I would leave it this way but this time not. I expressed my feelings about her not letting me know and this happen’t not for the first time.
I got a bunch of excusses and hearts and stuff.
Not that that was the reason for I was doing so.
For me it was good to set my bounderies. Because I’m not very good in doing that. Expressing my emotions is not a talent of me as well.
I’m a people pleaser and I’m happy to notice I become better in pleasing myself too 
I matter too
Picture of 2 young Storks I saw yesterday in a field. Well plenty of extra time to do another walk today
Have a good day ore night all
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I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 130
Pretty much the same as yesterday, but my mood is better. Never underestimate what a cup of hot chocolate can do for you. 
Drinking tea, watching the storm.
Hopefully it’s the wind of change that blows today, so things finally will start going my way for a while. That would’ve been nice 
I like storms anyway, so I’m definitely going out for a walk today. It doesn’t seem to rain as much as yesterday.
We’ve found a few new Western movies to watch, until we can go back to the Cowboy/old western theme park again.
Yesterday we watched a movie called “Supposed your local sheriff” I wanted to watch John Wayne’s Hondo, but I gave up when every streaming service I already pay for wanted to pay me to buy or rent it.
How is that? You need to pay per month for the service, and yet pay for almost every movie you want to watch?
It’s stupid for real in my opinion.
Not that it wasn’t other movies available, but the scene where John throws the kid in the water seems to be a viral phenomenon nowadays, so I wanted to show the boys where it’s originally from.
I know myself, so I’m most likely going to pay to buy the movie anyway. But I still think that it’s stupid to make people pay double.
That’s all Folks
Wishing y’all a wonderful day 
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Hey, morning all…
I don’t really know what to write these days. I’ve hit a major slump and I’m struggling to get out of it. I was so tempted to drink yesterday but didn’t. I’m glad I didn’t. I woke up this morning and I’m now sitting in the sofa watching TV waiting for everyone to get up. Ive had a lot of negative thoughts going through my head. A million things to do but can’t do one.
Thanks @acromouse I do have friends and family I could talk to to. Everyone has their own shit going on though and I feel like a burden. I’ll look in to the online meetings.
I’m going to get outside today as much as possible.
Sorry for the negative post. Hope you’re all well 
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@MrsOdh Yay to better moods! Have a good one today. Enjoy your walk and the storm (I love storms myself )
@GOKU2019 Ouch on the sun burn. Hope the pain passes soon 
@SoberWalker Yay to boundries! 
And thanks for the storks. The birds of my childhood 
@Seb How do you make your lamb rost? I love lamb 
@Timetochange Good to hear you did not care for drinking. Have fun with your new jet washer 
@zzz A week is a good time friend 
@Mno That mural is great! Thanks! 
@mamador Thanks for reminding me that my own funk will pass, that I will feel better later, if I invest in life now
@MontanaLady77 Thanks for reminding me that actions matter. That we can’t think your way out of difficulties in life Sending you strength for this difficult time in your life. And really good job on working on a plan
@Danwood85 I’m very happy to hear you did not pick up a drink yesterday. I totally get you on not wanting to burden others with your problems. A lot of people in addcition feel like that. That’s why I like meetings. I get a fixed time where I can let go a bit of my stuff and we all are there with the purpose to share our suffering and difficulties. In a meeting I feel like everyone who participates gives their consent to listening to other people’s problems. It is a place and time for sharing our burdens. And please do keep sharing here. That’s what this place is for. Do not apollogise for your moods. Everything you share here will help someone in need to read exactly this at some time.
228 sugar
92 UPF
99 gluten
74 dairy
2 overeating
Already did my morning run. Always makes me feel good.
Today it’s time for my weekly review, I’m going to try cooking millet in my rice cooker, thinking about going to the pool in the afternoon, or maybe just some bike cruising. Hopefully I can motivate myself to do some yoga. I get these really difficult hormone crashes in the late afternoon, my brain goes into fog mode and I just want to curl up on the sofa or do something else hibernation related. Maybe I’ll move my yoga time to another time of the day. Recovery Dharma for the evening. That’s it. Nothing exciting, nothing stupid.
Let’s go for peace, kindness and freedom today friends 
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218 days
Quick check in on a rainy uneventful Sunday.
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I buy a boneless leg of lamb usually just over 1kg. Poke about 5 slits and put in some garlic. Put olive oil all over and cover usually with Moroccan spice and heaps of crushed dry rosemary to creat a beautiful crust. Cook on 180° fan forced for 30 minutes per 500 grams and Bob’s your Uncle 
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Checking in with 5 months sober!! Mum had a bottle of wine open last night in the fridge. I know i shouldn’t have but I opened it and had a smell and realised that I don’t miss it at all.
I don’t miss the taste, i don’t miss the hangover in the morning, i don’t miss the feeling like shit after a couple glasses when the giddy feeling of being drunk wears off.
I’m proud of myself
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We’re all happy you didn’t Daniel! I might have said it before but it doesn’t matter what you post, just as long as you do. Anything that helps with staying sober. Never apologize for perceived negative posting please. You survived a major craving with your soberiety intact. That’s super positive! Only thing I can say is please post while you crave. It helps. Glad you’re here friend. We’re in this together.
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@MontanaLady77 great work on day 1. That slip up happened but it doesn’t have to define your recovery. Love the thought that recovery is an action. So true. We have to have a solid plan and good support as we can’t do it alone. Keep working it …it does get easier
@mamador hope you are able to find the strength to do what you want …be gentle with yourself. I know I have days / weeks where the smallest thing feels like a mountain and that’s a sign my mental health needs some love and attention.
Omg!! Yes I love this Claudia. Good for you on speaking up and setting your boundaries. You do matter!!
@Danwood85 never apologize…we all have those negative moments/ days…this is a safe space to let it out and process. I am sorry that you are going through this. Grateful you didn’t drink yesterday…no good would come from it…it is a dark hole that would suck you in. I immerse myself in comedy so make myself laugh when I’m feeling low. I find that it releases something and I start to feel better afterwards. Hope you are able to find the thing that can get you out of this slump…
Remember we are here for you if you need to talk it out. This will pass… just hang in there my friend
@Ofmiceandroach yes!!! Way to go friend… 5 months and kicking ass 
. Keep up the great work
Sunday morning check in
I’m excited as today I’m heading to Lake Huron to do some open water kayaking. It’s a 3 hr drive each way so will be a long tiring day…super excited for it. Hope my body handles it well.
Have a few hours to kill so I’m off for my morning walk and hopefully a quick swim.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day… sending you all so much love
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Day 2298. Garden rehab day (first of many). It will be a long journey to get it back. Amazing what a year of neglect will do. I intend to put some before and after pictures on the gardening thread. My hop is to get a 1/3 of it cleaned up today.
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Early morning check in on day 361. 
days left in my countdown.
@JazzyS , have a great time kayaking on Lake Huron! I have many good childhood memories on that lake.
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