Be alert and if sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. - 1 Peter 5:8 -
Lately I’ve been having some struggle being back in the real world sober. Trying to learn how to be sober in my new walk of life. Interactions with others. After work hangout talks. Drinking. I have to keep telling myself it’s ok if I don’t fit in here. Stop trying to. They’re good people and don’t have your problems. Stay focused on your clean path and your faith will guide you to blessings.
All the thoughts in my head making me feel this way are thoughts not of mine but of evil trying to wreck me back to my old ways. Glad this verse came up in my readings this morning. Have a blessed day all
Alcohol day 1788
Binge eating 1
Intermittent Fasting 1
Cold plunge day 3
I’m not getting on too well with the binge eating at the moment but I’m determined to get on top and that why I’ve started the intermittent fasting because my weight is creeping up to the point that I’m not happy with it so I’m going to fast from 6.00 in the evening to 12.00 the next morning and see how that goes
Still really enjoying the cold plunge it’s really putting me in a good mood for the day and be more productive @Mno hope the Netherlands do well this evening
Hope everyone has good Saturday
Day 234. Thanks guys for the love and support, had a good time with addie rose. Autumn is at 4h camp and were getting ready to go pick her up. I just had a one on one with my mental health counselor on Wednesday and then my buddy called me in the middle of our session saying how he relapsed. He had 2 years and idk we were all worried about him bc we havnt heard from him in a couple days. He finally came back to where we live and idk i just noticed Thursday i was in a funk. I did work out yesterday the best i could but still i need to find a way to get me up and going in the morning so that i dont miss work. I dont want to be that guy who calls in i hate it but much love everyone
Checking in on 297 SAF and 283 no smokes. Just figured I’d pop in and say hey, been really busy in work and home, but everythings going pretty good. I’m still kinda trying to find an AA group in the new area but I’ll find somewhere I wanna be. Hope you all are good. I’ll catch up at some point
Checking in day 110. Have been doing these at the end of the day and have been selfishly going to bed later and later not allowing me time to read many posts. Morning me has been cursing my name.
Extremely windy today and I’m so so so sleepy all the time… Is it possible that’s because of the weather? I slept normal, I had coffee, I had mate. I just can’t find a spark, Im so… Just lazy, yuck.
I was in the supermarket early in the morning. First of all because I didnt want to go later with my kids and also so my husband could have big breakfast before work, he wanted sausage. And drama king all disappointed cause I bought wrong one. Like wtf dude, next time just tell me specifically which one you want. I dont read your mind.
Then my boys wanted me to make a cake for them. I didn’t really have the energy or appetite for it but I like do things together with them so okay. We made a simple cake. With blueberries. They were putting blueberries on the top, all happy etc. Cake came out good but guess what. Those little mofos don’t want to eat it. Why? Cause they don’t like blueberries! Suddenly all 3 of them don’t like blueberries, what a bullishit. They just don’t like the way it looks probably. Spoiled little brats.
I’m surrounded by ungrateful bastards.
I’m leaving. Im taking my cake and I’m leaving.
Just kidding. I don’t go anywhere, don’t have energy for that.
@Lefty624 fomo can be a bitch. We relate so much of our “fun” times with alcohol but in reality the aftermath was horrid and all the whole we were slowly poisoning ourselves. You can still do all that you did but do it sober and remember all of it…be alert and able to enjoy the following days as well. Hold onto these notions when your mind tries to trick you into missing alcohol or saying you should just have that one drink. @SoberWalker beautiful pics Claudia… Glad you enjoyed your vacation and are now home in your own space. Hopefully you can rest before getting right back into lifey routines. @acromouse happy birthday to your daughter @Lisa-B so grateful that yesterday turned out this way and you are no longer in that place. ODAAT! The memories of what once was allows us to play the tape forward which is a great deterant @mno so grateful it wasn’t a worse accident and more grateful that you no longer live in that active addiction. Never again. @binx woohoo 1 week is awesome work girl…keep it going strong @jbaldwin84 it’s hard trying to keep parts of our past life when we become sober cause some of those pieces just done fit. Don’t be afraid to find new pieces, people, activities that can further help you in your journey. You are doing great work. @Jasty2 great to see you popping in Joe. Coming up to 300 days af …look at you go. Hope you are finding time for yourself in your busy schedule.
Omg…I would blow a gasket. You are a super woman
More cake for you…let them suck air..
Checking in on Saturday morning
Had a super great walk and swim. Now have had my three pieces of fruit and alkaline water… ready for a workout and then we shall see where the day leads. My body is in a lot of pain but I’m not letting it stop me. Keeping an eye on the inflammation so that it stays under control
Have a wonderful addiction free day my lovely friends. Sending you all so much love
Day 14 - Feeling like some of the positive changes are compounding, definitely some moments of anxiety still, but working on recognizing that the negative thought is present, then moving past it.
I have a week of concerts ahead of me, but got through the first one last night with more than ease and had a great time.
Having a relaxed Saturday. Got a call to say my yoga was cancelled. Just as well, the wind and rain has been pretty constant for 24 hours now. My charity pickup was at 9am, 7 bags of clothing and shoes and 3 full boxes of nice books sorted for them as a donation. Felt nice and a good thing to participate in. Very easy too. Such things are so important.
About to watch the England match now, but I’ve been up cycling a (COVID purchase) desk with vinyl tiles… Very pleased with the result
Dear @Binx . Gyms are triggering for my addiction, I would copy your Idea to have a room in which exercise. I should walk more. And do more stretching. Congratulations in your days. So proud of you
So proud of you. Walking is a wonderful freeing activity. It really helps me when the urges hit or life gets too chaotic. Sorry you are dealing with mental pain. Sending you calmness and love my friend. ODAAT . 8 days and killing it
@acromouse
Thank you for the ideas to be honest (and stubborn) the thought of living with a stranger doesn’t sound any more relaxing to me. Plus I’d rather save up that money so I can just be on my own. But I will start to consider it, because you’re not wrong - it may be the best option right now, I just need to think about it. Thank you
@JazzyS
Thank you for listening. I do have a therapist I’m talking to at the moment which at least helps having someone to talk to about it. Unfortunately along with what I stated above, plus the general state of the economy in the United states right now, I feel like it’s too risky to throw money away on rent or even living with someone else because I feel like if I ever want to have my own place, I need to save that money rather than spend it. I feel like if I rent I will be stuck there, because if I buy my own place and tbings change, at least I can sell it and get some of the momey back. It’s definitely not the most ideal situation and i will admit part of it is just me being stubborn, but thats because I truly would not feel comfortable living with someone else at the moment unless it was my significant other, but he’s not around anymore and I dont have the mental capacity to want to be in another relationship right now. I’ll get a new place as soon as I can, just gotta spend some time saving up.
Should also add that one fmaily member that has been contributing to the stressful environment is planning on moving out soon so that will be one source of tension that won’t be there forever.
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I am completely and utterly exhausted. I’ve been getting an ok amount of sleep lately but it doesn’t matter how much sleep I get, I still feel exhausted. Probably from stress. I wish I could just take a week off to just sleep. Even on my days off I cant fully relax because of living situation and also just because of how much stuff needs to get done on a regular basis. There’s always something I’m putting off or forgetting.
Thankfully I’m working a chill shift today with a friend and we get to be outside for it, so that’s a nice change. I need to get ready now but I’m struggling to find motivation. Just have to push through it. Honestly all I’m looking forward to right now is coming back home and going to sleep.
do well this evening
hope everyone is having a good day and a good weekend
1 week is awesome work girl…keep it going strong 
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unless it was my significant other, but he’s not around anymore and I dont have the mental capacity to want to be in another relationship right now. I’ll get a new place as soon as I can, just gotta spend some time saving up.