Hey Jazzy, thanks for the mention…yep! Very busy…I’m so exhausted, I have such a busy day ahead and it’s been a stressful week. I’ve got the weekend off so hopefully get some recovery time. This was meant to be the end of my two weeks off and I think I’ve worked everyday. I’m on the verge of saying ‘fuck this shit!’ Still sober though with no intentions of drinking.
I’m glad you’re getting all your med checks done. I hope that comes good for you and you enjoy a good day at pride🙏
Brilliant @Mno when things like that happen it makes you realise how important and influential your Job is. Well done friend.
Sorry to hear this Zoe, at least as you’re going through all this you have your 54 days… that’s huge! and it would be so much harder on day 0…I hope there’s a good day round the corner for you🙏
@JazzyS That makes sense about the birds bc I’ve seen a couple raccoons climbing to the top of those trees to get onto the roof (apparently they’re living in the chimney 
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@tailee17 I really feel for your situation 
I know that man very well and understand the feelings of anguish and despair he brings. It took me a very long time to escape mine, and even longer to recover mentally, but it did happen. One day you will be free 
(if that’s your end goal of course) Congrats on 100 days! Stay strong 
It’s easier to handle sober.
477
Today was amazing 
I slept great thru the stormy night and woke up renewed and refreshed. Work couldn’t’ve gone better. Perfectly timed tables so I never felt stressed. No boss til about an hour before I left. Got home psyched for Skateland!
Turns out very few people noticed the line on the flyer that said to dress up, so I really stuck out in my neon 80s gear that glowed under the black lights 
Idc! It was SO FUN! Not to mention a great workout. Figured I oughta get my money’s worth and skated til my legs were jello 
Caught up with an old coworker I hadn’t seen in forever. We’ve been thru much of the same bullshit in our lives. She has a daughter a year younger than mine who’s father is also in jail right now, for almost the exact same reason! Nice to have someone to talk to who really understands. We’re planning to get together soon.
We brought my daughter’s best friend along bc her mother is apparently agoraphobic. After, they asked to play at their house for a while, so I finally got to know her a little. She’s going thru her 2nd divorce from an abusive man. Her energy, or lack there of, felt like my own after my last relationship. Negative, bitter and very low. Moments like these I appreciate my past traumas. Bc of them, I can see under the surface of a woman most people might label as off-putting. I see that someone hurt her. She’s doing the best she can. She even has the exact same reason as me for not wanting to date again. I don’t trust my judgment and can’t handle falling for the wrong man again, although that’s slowly getting better for me. I hope we can become closer. I’d love to help bring her out of the darkness.
Which leads me to the final, and even more emotional, portion of my night. A visit from a mutual friend from that ex of mine. It went very late so this story will have to wait until tomorrow. Have a great 24 everyone
Day 154 AF
Just putting in time and distance. Working a lot.
Peace
188 days
Too sick for the gym this morning. Just took it easy today.
Going on another little road trip tomorrow, but will probably leave a bit later so the kids can get one more training in.
Just sat down to watch the Mandalorian. I started it when it first came out but never got through the first season. Starting again at the beginning
Checking in again because I’m tempted easier when I’m on my own… I intend to travel the next week or so on my own until I reach the coast. From there I’ll probably stay at some hostels for a lil break from the rooftop tent before continuing, and hopefully find some more travel buddies to share at least parts of the journey and costs with… The recent breakup with a fling I’d developed deeper feelings for has sent my emotions whirling, which seemed so stable and for granted before. I just need some time to reflect, process things and move on… I’ve grown in leaps and bounds since setting off on my little adventure nearly 82 days ago, so many experiences it’d be difficult to describe, but I’m grateful. And I think it’s only just begun 
I just need to stand by me. Be mindful. Avoid triggers. Think positive. Appreciate the moment… Before writing this an unexpected craving almost convinced me to drop it all and just relapse, but I’m feeling a bit more clear-headed and better again having written it all out. I know what I want in life. One of the big reasons for my setting off travelling… To find myself. Whatever that means 
, I can’t do it without sobriety.
I hope you have a wonderful &/or productive rest of your day or night whoever and wherever you are right now friend 
Is it Day 98 or 99? I think it’s 98. Got mixed up I know the triple digits are coming this weekend!
Good to be home after adventures. Travel has a way of blowing out the cobwebs with great force. The first two days I was dodging (and, not) severe weather in Texas and Oklahoma, none of which was forecast. It got quite scary at times, but I always found places to wait it out while the storms passed. No tornadoes! Glad for that 
Rest of the trip went very well. Did lots of wandering through the Ozarks. I didn’t consider a drink. How is that even possible? It sure is a relief getting this off my back. I want to keep it going.
Checking in on day 586 alcohol free.
Wishing a happy and sober Friday to you all.
@mira_d oh wow love…I absolutely love this news and do hope it all pans out. Sounds like a great opportunity and I’m glad that your nephew will be receiving the care he needs and still be close with the family
@Jeanine so glad to hear that you went into the weekend prepared and ready. Even more excited that no one is drinking and so the temptations are not present. Hope you enjoy a lovely weekend with friends
@1in8billion thanks friend…so nice to have you back with us too:people_hugging: 82 days and counting 
glad you came here to write it out rather than give in to that craving. You are about to hit 3 months…keep this momentum going. I love that you are traveling and it sounds like a wonderful adventure…this will stay with you for your lifetime to enjoy it and know we are here to support you
@Sabrina80 lol…yeah sleep is so necessary and bad sleep is totally meh. I’m glad I went to bed at 10…was knocked out by 11… hope it keeps improving. Thanks love …hope your long day is manageable and you get a chance to enjoy Fri 
much love back to you
@tailee17 I’m sorry Lam. That is no way to be treated ever let alone when you are healing from a surgery. You should be caref for and tended to and if course sleep in the damn bed! This is frustrating to read and I can’t imagine how you must be feeling. I do think it’s funny that he had to clean it up …God works in mysterious ways. Sending you love and loads of healing
@Timetochange glad you didn’t act on those thoughts. Now that your year is coming closer those thoughts may increase… remember they are lies and even one is way too many …you have come this far… keep it going
@acromouse thanks friend…wow some impressive timers … congratulations on your double digits of no overeating. Enjoy your yoga
So beautiful Mno…love that you were able to see someone benefiting from your support and care.
@Danwood85 aah man you work too hard …I do hope you get the weekend to chill out and relax. I learned the hard way that we need time to decompress cause burn out mode sucks! It plays havoc on your mind and health. Thanks friend
… excited for tonight… feeling fairly good so I think I’ll be just fine 
@JennyH how are you doing? Been thinking about you lately and hope you are doing well
Happy Friday everyone
I’m glad to be up and feeling active. Heading out for my walk but wanted to check in first. Life these days gets so busy these days and I’m really enjoying being a part of it. Trying not to overdo it or backslide…this is the lesson I’m still trying to learn.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day… sending you all so much love
That’s so awesome!! Huge congrats on 4 months 
As for myself, I’m checking in on day 1454 and I hope everyone has a good one!
Debating wether to have a little BBQ in the garden - more just cooking dinner on it. Not a gathering.
I have anxious thoughts of being out here but I have been really tackling that by making myself be out here building the catio (finished now). And now today I get to relax out here.
.I’m thinking don’t go putting myself off of a nice day by cooking out here. Maybe I can do that tomorrow.
Maybe this evening I can just bring my dinner out and eat out here - start off easy.
I can’t be harmed being in my garden so facing these fears is feeling good.
All the pets are loving it so much too.
I am too. The sun’s out. Although only get sun for about 3 hours I’m grateful to get any in the garden.
I think if I prepare the meat with marinade, chop the vegetables and have it all ready to go on skewers for tomorrow then I can do that.
Today I think just enjoy the day.
It’s lovely, I’m glad I have finished the catio, and can start enjoying the nice days instead of having to build build build - it has been worth it.
Wow girl. You are crushing it.
. Need to start my meal prep for my friends’ visit tomorrow. Vegan and non vegan versions. I’m feeling good about my sobriety. I told my friends that I have soft and hot drinks but would not mind them bringing alcohol should they wish. They can take it all home afterwards, I’ve zero interest. I spent three days away with these girls at the seaside and I was successfully sober then and explained my life choice to them and how I felt towards sobriety, so I expect their support wholly. I have weightlifting and yoga class tonight and that’s all folks.Checking in at 81 days. Big day with the little man tomorrow, swimming lessons start back up then a birthday party in the afternoon. Very keen to spend time with him after such a busy week.
Have a great weekend everyone!
2y3m25d
I had such a rough sleep. Back pain, cramps, and anxiety over some news I recieved last night kept me up for quite awhile. Last night our full time nurse told us she was leaving and moving to another province. She is here with us until the end of June. I am devasated obviously. And also worried about who is going to take her place. I of course have already emailed the scheulder about this and found out shes away until monday. So i have to wait. I am praying hard for a positive resolution. I know my HP has my back so just have to go with the flow of things and do my best to advocate for my son if need be.
Anyway, today i am making my sons birthday cake. I already have it started. Hes not feeling well this morning so i kept him home. Hope hes feeling better for Sunday.
Thats about it for me. Have a great day everyone 
Day 48
Just checking in.
Always appreciate your support!!
