@Bunto welcome back congrats on 1 day I dream a lot too, it’s like being in movies all night, mostly nightmares unfortunately. @Lighter feel better soon 🩵 @Noshame congrats on 400+ days AF and 40+ days no nic keep fighting for your sobriety from marijuana sending strength 🩵
1403 days no alcohol.
868 days no cocaine.
383 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
When I binged 2 days ago, it was whilst I was bingeing BGT. When I binged crisps last night, it was whilst I was bingeing the episodes I’d missed of another show. So I think I need to limit watching TV shows to just 1 episode at a time. Because I can barely recall going to the shop, but before I knew it the whole binge was over. I’m just glad I didn’t buy anything sugary this time. I did have huge sugar cravings afterwards though, but thankfully the shops were closed. I could have ordered online but that thought didn’t even cross my mind.
Yesterday I attended the ‘changing words into actions’ course. I wish I hadn’t. I didn’t learn anything. The person who sat next to me was coughing and sniffing constantly, I wish I’d have kept my mask on when I got out of the taxi, but I didn’t feel like I could put it on as soon as she came in. I just really hope I haven’t caught anything. She also did not stop eating all day, constantly rustling in her bags and with wrappers etc, and eating with her mouth open, this is really hard for me with misophonia. I was just sitting their almost exploding with rage!
I still need to speak to the doctor I saw about my night-time coughing, because it seems to only get worse, and it’s happening more and more during the daytime too. I don’t feel ill, it’s more annoying than anything, and Prince gets startled and runs away every time I cough, so that upsets me as he’s my soul cat. I tried to make an appointment this morning but they were fully booked by the time I got through, so I’ll try again on Monday.
Today I was planning to walk to the gym to view this additional changing room, and potentially re-join. I’m not sure if it’s gonna happen though. Anxiety as usual.
Checking in at the start of my workday.
I’m drained from a long, busy week. I didn’t get enough housework or parenting support from my wife so far this week, so I’m glad the weekend is upcoming so we can have better teamwork.
I promise I will not have a drink after work, and I hope the same for you all.
You say this after every relapse. But then you don’t seem to change anything so of course nothing changes. This has been your pattern for literally years on this forum.
If I’ve asked you this once I’ve probably asked it 1,000 times:
What are you going to differently so that you stop relapsing?
Feeling better but still going through processing selling my car. We had a small economic advantage with a second car and I gave that away. We also the convenience of having abilility to haul stuff, and I was hoping to give it to my son who just turned 16. I was more attached to that car than I realized so I’ve been grieving the loss of it. All to have my insurance go up and not down. I’ve let go of that part at least. Coming here helps, and going to AA yesterday, and talking to my sponsor. Work has been hard this week. Have a good sober day friends, and know that I appreciate you.
Welp day 212. So yesterday, i got the txt that sarah wanted to stop talking. Idk man, the slighest inperfection in someone these days and people will run rather than try and work through it. It is what it is, like i said i was grateful for the experience, but at this point im definitely done. Obviously something in me is definitely not right or something bc it happens with just about every girl. Im not beating myself up, im not gonna drink. Im definitely reflecting and trying to see what i do that is so wrong, idk maybe to clingy feeling or txt to much, ask to many questions. Idk probably all of the above. But its w.e seriously, up and onward and definitely done with that scene. It would be absolutely awesome to have someone in my life. But im just not trying anymore. Much love everyone, wish you all a wonderful day. Tomorrow will be 7 months, so grateful for that.
I dont know sir
All i know isnirs either 100% on or 100% off
If i ever smoke weed responsibly, itll ligit take soooooooo much theropy for me to learn when too much is too much
All i can do i feel like is turn the switch off and when it flips on, wow i just cant get enough and it would have to be my way or nothing but when that switch is on its all go
When i smoke weed it never lasts. I always turn off quick but seriously theres always trouble looming when i do it
congrats on 1 day 
I dream a lot too, it’s like being in movies all night, mostly nightmares unfortunately.
sending strength 🩵
I tried to make an appointment this morning but they were fully booked by the time I got through, so I’ll try again on Monday.
