What a week. Mood is stabilised again (thanks body, for the good episode). It’s interesting how I started thinking something bad about my glory temple that makes living possible, again. But it was not such a long period as it used to be the last months or even while active drinking.
I passed an online interview (third round) today with success. The whole interview was held in english. Oups. I wasn’t prepared for a whole interview but it went very well! Somehow we had a real good flow together. It’s a company with a very impressive culture, supporting people in developing their talents. And after the third interview with 3 different persons, I truly believe! Now I got one task to do, it is to prepare a short presentation about a special topic. But he already said, we don’t need another interview! The decision will be made by end of the month.
Having more things going on with further applications, but I would realy like to joyn this company I think.
My bike had a short inspection, I got my new (updated, updated) glasses (not the sunglasses yet lol) and tomorrow my ear plugs for swimming will be delivered. Looking forward to a swim tomorrow after pausing cause of the pain.
Body made the fight
Sometimes live is cloudy
Sometimes live is throwing rainbows
At the end it’s better sober with each of it
So this is all you can do? There’s absolutely nothing else? Just hoping you can turn off the switch. If it were that easy you would have done it by now. No one here has any advice to give you that hasn’t already been given to you 100x over. At some point you’ll get sick of relapsing and put in the work. Hope you get to that point before the consequences come.
I am sorry for you if that bummed you out. I am in no position to express a wise course of action to feel better but I hope you find comfort somehow. My relationship of 9 years I have my husband text me that at least 2 or 3 times a week. Find peace my friend. Congrats on 212 days…
Thank you, it definitely means alot. Im not necessarily bummed bc honestly im kinda used it lol. Im learning what i can from it and moving forward. I am proud of myself for not thinking or trying to have a sexual tension with her so thats a little progress. I see some areas where i definitely need to grow, if im being honest idk if i will ever get over some of my insecurties when it comes to trying to date. It may just be in my best interest to stay single, for the rest of my life. Obviously sober too lol
I’m so happy to have a place to go when the day never really started. Had a terrible night of anxiety and cold sweats. Really caught me off guard- I was doing so much better. I’m still recovering from alcoholism, stupid lingering post-viral stuff and PTSD. 3.5 months sober and doing well. Yesterday it all came back which is a bit horrifying. Not linear.
I know there are many like me, and getting better has setbacks no matter what you do. It feels like you are back at the beginning. It’s a relapse trigger if you forget it won’t last. Just feels that way.
I’ve got therapy tomorrow and will just do easy things today. Not what I had planned but when I get hit hard it’s debilitating. Trying to breathe through it, and distract. I need a cop show, always settles me. Getting my heart rate up for a bit is hard but will settle me down also. 5 minutes . I’ll start there. I’m going to try to make goal in tiny increments today. Sleep will feel great when it comes back
105 days. Thank you, thank you . All will be well.
Hey all,
Checking in Man been one of those days, and yesterday evening too just feeling like crap. Irritable and tired and feeling slightly yuck. Hubby is going to take kids to the park for a bit to give me a break. We had some friends over, but the kids needed their mama and I ended up passing out with my daughter which rarely happens but I was just so ready for bed! Probably that time of month is approaching, as the week before my mood can sometimes dip for no other apparent reason. And you know, i feel its good to share even when you feel crap because we all have these days and weeks. Sometimes shes just like this, and you have to just roll with it. Im trying LOL. Hopefully can have a restful evening, and try to just keep my patience. I am hungry so going to start there! Xo everyone and remember. Crap days can just happen… reminding myself of that as we speak xoxox.
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I got some really good news today. News that i wasnt sure Id be getting. Management chatted about our nursing situation and they agreed to let one of our good floater nurses take over the full time position!!! Im sooo happy, soooo relieved. She is a good nurse and is great with my son. Shes reliable and stays awake at night. I couldnt be happier for this outcome. She will begin July 1st full time.
Today I also finished my spongebob cupcake toppers and also recieved my supplement package that I have been waiting for. I ordered 2 diff protein powders and a pre-workout which I have been looking forward to getting for the past 4 days. Glad it arrived. Not much else to report today. Just wanted to share some good news with u all!
@Nordique Yay friend!!! Congratulations on ur 4 year milestone!!! @Kareness great job Karen on 7.5 years! Thats an incredible amount of time. One day I hope to be where you are! @Amy30 I am sooo proud of you Amy!! Congratulations on 18 months of freedom! Youve definitly come such a long way @kaitlynnrager congratulations on 5 years free of self harm
Thanks Twiz . Yes, I’m trying not to think, so, puzzle and cop show. Hard to focus. Just anything at all helps. Coming here helps me get out of my head too. Will ride this out sober with my friends here. Will not pick up today
Thanks. Not sure how it went. Two interviews on line. One as a group and one with a tutor but in the background I had work messaging me about something urgent
Hey all, it feels like everyone in Scotland is in the pub tonight but me:joy: Drowning their sorrows as we were beaten by Germany in the Euros. There was an atmosphere here and lots of build up. I was asked to go out with a couple of friends but declined and watched it in the house. Feeling a bit isolated again like I did a couple of weeks ago. It’s always when there’s a drinking event on I get these feelings of missing out, but happy to be hangover free in the morning and I’m sure in time these feelings will pass. I’m looking forward to a little adventure with the we man and Bonnie tomorrow… Hope you’re all having a good morning/afternoon/evening Day 44
Hey Mike. I see you trying and I’m sorry it didn’t work out with her. Maybe treat looking for a partner like sobriety, just stay sober today and just stay single today. Don’t think about forever just keep getting better day by day and you will find your tribe. Breakups stink. I hope you treat yourself to a cream horn or two. Sending hugs man.
Not missing out at all. You’ll be fully present for your family tomorrow, rested and ready to roll. Wait, you will be missing a hangover!
Great work talking through it with us. I like talking to myself on here because someone always joins in and is supportive and positive! Sleep well and enjoy your day with family
Getting my heart rate up for a bit is hard but will settle me down also. 5 minutes . I’ll start there. I’m going to try to make goal in tiny increments today. Sleep will feel great when it comes back
. All will be well.
Man been one of those days, and yesterday evening too just feeling like crap. Irritable and tired and feeling slightly yuck. Hubby is going to take kids to the park for a bit to give me a break. We had some friends over, but the kids needed their mama and I ended up passing out with my daughter which rarely happens but I was just so ready for bed! Probably that time of month is approaching, as the week before my mood can sometimes dip for no other apparent reason. And you know, i feel its good to share even when you feel crap because we all have these days and weeks. Sometimes shes just like this, and you have to just roll with it. Im trying LOL. Hopefully can have a restful evening, and try to just keep my patience. I am hungry so going to start there! Xo everyone and remember. Crap days can just happen… reminding myself of that as we speak xoxox.
Sending you hugs. So true what you have highlighted here that if you forget it doesn’t last 
I find a good program or film can help if I’m able to focus on it long enough 
Hard to focus. Just anything at all helps. Coming here helps me get out of my head too. Will ride this out sober with my friends here. Will not pick up today 
Day 44