Thank you I deleted it as it was quite detailed post and I didnāt trigger warn or anything and I felt I had received nice support that it may be best to delete.
I am okay thank you for thinking of me.
Ahhh I have those days were I really want to do something and I beat myself up for not understanding why I couldnāt complete it.
I am slowly - a working progress - just noticing that if I wake up and Iām havenāt got a positive spring in my step to something I usually enjoy, then that day is not the day for me to do it. It is frustrating but itās also okay to just wait for that day when you are ready to go.
The more we pressure ourselves the worse we feel.
You will get there, just the fact that you have that as a plan when you feel up to it is a huge step forward
Day 151.
Pushing through the workday without caffeine, because my wife and I had a (baby-related) short sleep, and I need to throw everything I have at getting a decent sleep tonight.
Thank you to all of you posting solid updates on here. Iāve been smashing that like button a lot on my short break this aft. This place is a little bright spot in my day, and I hope it is for many of you too.
Much like Menno described, Iāve been also thinking a lot about putting more time, attention and intention to my life beyond online platforms. I have stepped down as a moderator in the effort to do just that. I love this community. You all, and past members, too, have made a huge impact on me. Thank you for being you. We are vulnerable and willing to open ourselves up here in ways that are really hard in real life interactions. But really important. Itās helped me in my relationships, especially with my husband and talking about my struggles. Iām grateful. Grateful to be here and grateful to you, my amix/friends. Conflicts happen, itās part of living in this world and we are all flawed humans, but Iāve learned a lot about how to respond to conflict rather than react impulsively to it. Always a work in progress! Thatās part of being human, too.
Iām grateful for my experience being a moderator and for all my past moderator fellows. Being on a team is hard work but well worth it! It is fulfilling to be able to give back to a forum that gave me so much. Thank you for the opportunity.
Thank you for this. I have to give myself tons of grace and thatās new. Still a struggle. This is a long road. Itās so worth it even if I have days where I can barely cope. Weāre always doing better than we think, ya know? I know these are still early days. Things will get much better soon.
Checking in. Iām feeling very negative. I think Iām just overwhelmed. I think in addition to ADHD I might on the autism spectrum. I tend to meltdown when over stimulated.
But I have vacation coming up, so thatās a positive. Visiting my mom, who conveniently lives near a beach.
Sending you loads of love my friend. I am so very sorry that you are feeling this un-safeness. Here for you love. I do hope that you are able to find security in your surroundings. Remember that you are not alone and you are amazing. Keep working your recovery @juli1 So sorry to hear that you are having such struggles my friend. I know that I went through much emotional ups and downs for the first few months of sobriety as my body was regulating to live without the alcohol. You may also want to check out your hormonal levels. I know that you are young but sometimes our bodies create spikes and dips that can really mess with our minds. Do make sure that they test these for you at multiple times in a month to see where you are in a months cycle ODAAT my friend ā 140 days and going strong @mindofsobermike Sorry Mike ā hope you are able to get on a good medication dosage. Weird palpitations are not natural ā should you get this looked into? @rosacando Grateful for all the love you have spread and the great advice. Thank you for your service and wishing you well on less online time. Do hope to still see you checking in and sharing your journey with us @karenkw sending hugs and love my friend. Sorry for the negative feeling. Wishing you some quiet downtime to unwind YEAH vacation time ā lovely when you have something fun to look forward to @SadMemeQueen Hope you are doing well Megan
my major issue was not having any luck with jobs and Igot a job!! I havenāt started yet but I filled out all the paperwork yesterday, and I start as soon as they get my fingerprint records back. the drive is about 20 minutes so Iām also going to start trying to learn to drive on the weekends. I canāt take being dependent on my family to go everywhere anymore. Iām working in a daycare and assistant teaching for preschool! Iām also taking college classes on top of it and while I think itās stressful, I think this will keep me busy and force me into a routine and force me to take better care of myself.
for my birthday, I decided to make it fun and I got tickets to an interactive art exhibit called meow wolf in Denver. and then after that Iām going to spend the night at my best friendās house who I havenāt seen in a year!
I really feel like this is where things start to look up. Im going to set a reminder to check in weekly so I donāt keep missing out on the community. thanks for checking on me @JazzyS
Iām grateful for living today, After 4 days holidays my office starts today. A wonderful hangover free day and i was attending AA meetings these holidays and my mental clarity is improving.
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I had a pretty productive day today. Hit the gym, made my 2nd free training appt with the personal trainer for next week, did a thorough vaccuming of the apartment, dusted, and did the dishes. Feeling pretty good about my recovery I did experience some strong anxiety surrounding food tho. Just with the fear of eating too much which could trigger a binge. I was able to eat supper by listening to my body and stopping when full. This is huge for me. I find eating slowly and mindfully helps alot. I havent binged in quite some time (I havent been keeping track) but im finding that, besides today, i rarely think about food. Its fuel for me now as opposed to it being a crutch. So i feel like im making progress in this area. Working out as been my new obsession also. Its been very therapeutic for me. Have a good night everyone!
I deleted it as it was quite detailed post and I didnāt trigger warn or anything and I felt I had received nice support that it may be best to delete.
I did experience some strong anxiety surrounding food tho. Just with the fear of eating too much which could trigger a binge. I was able to eat supper by listening to my body and stopping when full. This is huge for me. I find eating slowly and mindfully helps alot. I havent binged in quite some time (I havent been keeping track) but im finding that, besides today, i rarely think about food. Its fuel for me now as opposed to it being a crutch. So i feel like im making progress in this area. Working out as been my new obsession also. Its been very therapeutic for me. Have a good night everyone! 