Congratulations sweet Rosa!
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Congratulations 
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Iām feeling a little bit better this morning. Still taking it easy. One day at a time. Will try to write a bit today. Physical exercise will have to wait. Patience grasshopper. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from the paddling pool in the park.
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149 days AF
Checking in
Wah I got such a braindust and sadness, feeling stucked. Hammering thoughts about my living situation here in our house with mum.
Realy not used to having someone around all the time. She is taking things easy and I can do what I want, but I just CANāT! Used to live alone for 21 years. And what about relationships? Damn. What about that?!
Need to vent. Thanks for listening.
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Iām a bit late but still want to say Congratulations on that wonderful milestone @RosaCanDo Those numbers look amazing. Canāt wait to get there myself. You are a huge inspiration to me and many others Rosa. Keep on keeping on sweet lady 
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@Juli1 Vent away friend! Having someone around all the time would drive me nuts. I am very happy about every hour I have my flat for myself. Better times will come though. Never forget that. Have a good one at the pool 
@Mno Glad to hear you are feeling a slight bit better 
Patience is a hard one. I hope you are better at it than me 
@RosaCanDo Wow!!! 
What an achievement. The kind of inspiration we all need. Congrats 
@SoberWalker Have fun dying at crossfit in this heat. This should take your mind off of your shitty mood 
@Mischa84 Forgot to say: The Mike Tyson thing really is wonderful. Kids are just hilarious, and tiresome
@Just_Laura Just so you know: What you do at your job on a daily basis sounds super-human to me. I would so die in the first 10minutes 
on one of your āeasyā days. But the way your GM does not do their job 
Maybe you should apply for it.
@Lefty624 Congrats on your week Well done 
Glad to hear you have a supportive environment at home.
@Kareness Put that kid to work 
Fingers crossed things at the ranch turn out well 
@Mira_D Sending you strength for the transition period with your nephew, strength and care
@Butterflymoonwoman Your life does sound like a lot is going on there. So I am going to send you strength and few moments of relaxation here and there your way 
218 sugar
82 UPF
89 gluten
68 dairy
/ overeating
I already did a my first ārunā out of my ārun your butt offā programm - 1min jogging, 4min walking for 25min - so I am very proud of myself.
My eating situation is difficult right now due to the hormonal changes I am going through. A lot of my bodily and mental signals are not very reliable these days and this includes everything around eating - like satiety, hunger, digestive discomfort, etc. So I need a new way to deal with āovereatingā and the amount of food I eat. Iāll find a way. Iām out of bingeing and cravings for trigger foods. Thatās all that counts for the most part.
Today is supposed to be a very hot day - at least for our climate zone. Next week there will be rain and cooler weather again.
Iāll be working on digital prototypes, have an appointment to get my hair cut, will do some errands afterwards. Relaxing yoga after two challenging days. I might go to the pool later. Iām not much of a pool person - unlike @Juli1 the water dweller 
- but it is always cooler there. Recovery Dharma in the evening and thatās it for today.
Stay in peace, kindness and freedom friends 
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Day 369. Nice day yesterday, went down to the beach. Going to do some jobs today as the weather isnāt so good. Then relax
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@acromouse
thank you so much, i truly appreciate it 
one day at a time is all we can do
@JazzyS
Even thinking about how to answer that question is overwhelming if Iām gonna be honest. Iāve just been dissociating a lot and isolating because I just need peace and silence but I saw my therapist today and I scheduled another appointment to see her tomorrow even though Iām not entirely sure what to talk about the whole time but I could still use that space to just process shit. Iām glad Iāve had the last few days off to give myself space too.
Day 74
Saw my therapist and went to the forest preserve for a bit after because I didnāt want to go home. My mom has a new delusion now thatās incredibly disturbing and honestly depressing and I have to live with that now. She thinks one of our family members living with us isnāt her relative, and that theyāre someone else whoās stolen their identity. Super fun stuff because once she gets ideas like this, they donāt go away so this will likely be a thing now for the rest of her life that we will all have to continue to hear about. 
Still feel traumatized and also past trauma has come up at the same time. Had a dream last night that my fiance who passed away was still alive, but he was seeing other people and no longer wanted to be with me. Those dreams are always fun because not only do I wake up feeling heartbreak, but then also grief remembering that heās actually dead. So on top of everything else Iām trying to process the past few days, grief has come up as well.
Just trying to have as much silence and peace in my days as I can as an effort to heal.
Did get a good amount of stuff done today that I wanted to so Iām happy about that too.
Have to be up early but thankfully Iāll have plenty of time to take a nap before work. As annoying as work is, Iām hoping it will help in a way, having a sense of normalcy and something to take my mind off things. Thankfully itās a short shift.
Hope everyone is doing well.
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208 days
Just a quick check in
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Ha ha, it sure did! There isnāt an airco, only a big ventilator and 2 open garage doors
My co worker called in while I was training to tell she has Covid. And so I have to work the rest of the day and tomorrow. But my mood is better 
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2288ā¦Babysitting day. I already have the sound track to frozen going through my head.
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Day 31 
Have a great day everyone 
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Day 136
Just checking in Thursday night before bed. Hope everyone is doing well 
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Iām here Iām alive Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 120.
My daughter was here with her new boyfriend yesterday. For a bbq.
He arrived drunk, keep up the drinking. Spilled in every room we have.
Dropped the plate with food on the floor.
Flip the table over because he could barley stand.
Peed at our swing, threw up in the backyard.
Told me to shut up multiple times, and eventually tripped on our hedge right out in the street.
Tried to put him to bed, he flat out refused.
We tried to follow him back to our daughters place. It took nearly 1,5 hours, and on the way he tripped into multiple gardens, hedges, in to a trailer and eventually in to some garbage cans.
Spoke to him today and he doesnāt remember any of it.
Invited them again tonight for a non alcoholic bbq. Met them in the village just to discover that theyāve been to the liquor store again.
We agreed to drive him back home if he arrives drunk again.
And weāve implied a new rule. Thereāll be no more drinking in our house or in our yard. Not from us and not from guests.
I didnāt feel the urge to drink at all. Of something this got the opposite effect. I feel like I never want to touch alcohol again,ever.
Itās scary how it turns people to non functional Jell-O Balls with no self control.
The pictures is from the night walk when we tried to get this guy home.
First one is from 01.00 when the sun is going ādownā the other one is on our way back 02.30 where you can see the sun going back up again.
Thatās all Folks wishing yāall a wonderful day 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1474. I hope everybody has a good one 
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So crazy how our minds work, and make us forget these ādetailsā of our drinking past. Thanks for the reminder. Sorry thatās your daughterās BF.
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Hopefully she eventually sees what I see. Or he decides to change his life.
Otherwise I will encourage her to leave him. Sounds rough, but living like that is worse.
I hope everything is good with you.
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Iām very sleep-deprived today. But sober. Will drink a lot of water today. Brutally hot weather requires a lot more water. Think itās contributing to a lack of sleep. Air temps over 100f plus high humidity. Mercy. 
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I really like that 
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@acromouse @Twizzlers thank you for helping to reaffirm what my tattoo means 
@JazzyS thank you 
I do struggle to see my own progress through the haze of depression. Yay for no line! My veins like to play hide and seek too 
Iām hoping they behave on Saturday 
@SKhan sorry for the circumstances but welcome back congrats on day 1
@Conor80 sorry for your loss 
but welcome back and congrats on your continued sobriety
@RosaCanDo congrats on quadruple digits 
@SoonerSober1984 welcome congrats on 3 days
@Zse good to read from you sorry youāre feeling so nervous, and for the pressure from the CEO, not cool! I really hope you take some time for yourself asap
@Lainenicole96 sending strength š©µ congrats on double digits
@Lisa-B congrats on double digits for no binge-eating
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