Great job on all ur timers!!
Saturday evening check inā¦ā¦
At a friendās house who is also sober but Iām surrounded by new people and my BF all of which are drinking. Typically being around people that drink is not an issue. However, today I feel energetically depleted. Iām separated myself from the rest of the group. Sitting outside away from the drinking and energy vampires. Curious that my BF has not come to check on me. Perhaps heās had too much to drink.
He made a stupid joke at dinner about an incident a couple of months ago where I nearly choked to death. It was frightening and scared me tremendously. I was sharing my experience with people at the gathering and he made an insensitive comment about how I tried to commit suicide. I found nothing about it funny because the experience was terrifying and seven years ago I was hospitalized for attempting suicide. While Iāve never shared the details with him about my suicide idealizations I have shared that I had a breakdown and was hospitalized.
I really have lost my tolerance for drunks and their comments. Iāve worked hard to rise above verbally assaulting people but as my therapist likes to say Iāve got a black belt in verbal jitsu.
Iām sorry if my post is a bit of a downer, but Iām struggling. Any efforts I make to save myself it feels like the addiction gags me then drags me back into hell. I feel tired, stressed, so anxious and really low and beaten. But I hope for better days ahead. I cautiously sayā¦
Checking in, day 1 is complete 
Have a great sober day friends 
Day 4
A long day at work. Checking in on fight night with my kids. Itās been a very tiring day but maintaining. Iām pretty moody but aware of it which is a win.
Enjoy the night everyone!
You got through day 1ā¦ Thatās a win! Keep the momentum. Your awareness is key and youāre showing your control over it. Enjoy the night!
Verbal jujitsuā¦ Thatās a gem!
Thank you everyone for the advice and replies Iāll have to set some boundaries
Iām checking in a little earlier than usual. 
The night was tough our son was up most of the night heās teething. I started the morning off right with two cups of coffee I found a show I havenāt seen in a while
And watched it for most of the morning, I donāt know if any of you have ever seen Green acres but itās worth a watch. We have our pool up so now weāre just waiting on water 
I think I figured out our plans for the Fourth of July so Iām pretty excited about that. So it was a pretty un event full day. But it ended with a pretty sun set
Have a happy Sunday morning everyone
Right? Iām not proud of my verbal assaults. They drain me energetically.
Being ānormalā would be boring anyways right? I guess thatās what makes us all unique
Checking in at the end of day 49. Not much going on. Just stayed home and did some much needed cleaning.
Have a good night all.
As someone thatās experienced that tooā¦ Itās draining for sure. Itās good you know your limits and hopefully in a position to protect yourself from it.
I think poop can teach us a lot about love, no? 
If weāre open to it? Er, heart open. Nose closed.
Day 723.
Good things going on. Some poopy ones too. At least Iām not making it all worse trying to dodge the poopy stuff of life via wine. Never worked.
Wishing you all a fine sober sleep or wake up, and plenty oā good smells your way. 
@DanaM56 Itās good to know your limit before they suck you dry (something I learned from my last relationship after I was empty 
) As hard as it is to listen to unwanted comments, remember that thereās something wrong in them causing them to say those things. Glad you found some peace by stepping away. Sometimes silence is the best answer 
@Binx Welcome back girl 
Good to see you again 
500
It was my daughterās best friendās birthday pool party this afternoon. The one rescheduled 2 weeks ago. That day was gorgeous. Today? Nonstop, pouring rain 
They ended up going to the movies and then back to their house for cake and presents. I opted out of the movie bc I didnāt want to sit in the dark for 2 hours, getting tired before my shift. I took myself out for sushi and then went window shopping near the theatre. Overall, a nice afternoon 
Work on the other hand is just getting to be so dysfunctional I can only laugh. So many newbies that werenāt trained long enough, just released on their own. Me, my bartender friend, and one other server were running circles around the 6 others who all seemed clueless. I want, and try to help as much as I can, but I canāt babysit everyone while taking care of my own tables. Theyāre being set up for failure and itāll land on one personās head in the end. All I can say is I had a fantastic night 
Work ended early. After, I heard from an old friend and we caught up a while. He was around at my worst. Heās seen things very few others have. We used to drink together(among other things), and weāre very much the same in that aspect. Heās still at it, but also very supportive of how far Iāve come. Heās been having numerous health problems and said heās had to cut down on drinking bc his body canāt handle it anymore. Heās thinking to quit soon. All I can do is tell my story. That the majority of those physical/mental symptoms, which I directly related to, will vanish 
How everything just keeps getting better and better then further away I get. I also explained withdrawals and how I didnāt expect mine to be as bad as they were as a warning. Heās a really good guy, and Iād love this for him. Maybe one day
Anyway. The usual Sunday lunch shift tomorrow. Gotta get myself to bed. Rememberā¦the worst sober day always beats the best day drinking. So I know youāll all have a good one
500! Huge congrats to you!
I was looking for a fun cake gif, but I guess no one turns 500 years old. 
Balloons to go with that sushiā¦ Onward, amazing Laura!
211 days
Got the kids all rugged up and got out early to the gym, had some good hard rounds.
After that we just hubg around for a bit before we went off to the kids swimming. The eldest was canceled due to a code brown in her pool earlier in the morning 
Home for a chilled afternoon of movies and gaming
Day 372. Walked down to the festival here yesterday. Full of people drinking. Not my scene. V anxious after about an hour. So came home and watched walk the line on Netflix. Or Disney? Canāt recallā¦
Blessed to be sober. So blessedā¦ Today having an easy day. Back to work tomoro but thafs ok. Good job etx
. Hope you have a great day folks
Last year I went the festival on my own. Drank way too much and then stopped. I just donāt want to go down the road of over drinking forever.
Thank you @Dazercat
This thread is getting far too busy for me, wich is great.
I just canāt keep up but of course Iām still checking in regularly. And still happy to be part of this community.
Have a wonderful sober Sunday Eric 
187 days
I had a lazy Sunday. But going out for pizza with friends to celebrate EOFY haha
A friend has had a bad 12 months, hence the celebration. After pizza weāre going home to smash a pinata and throw some notes about our shitty 12 months into the fire. Good sober time ahead!