Day 2126
It was a good party yesterday @jazzy, @Butterflymoonwoman and @acromouse
But it was a lot of work, because I cooked all from cratch beforehand too. But it tasted good and my exploded kitchen looks more normal again And most important: everybody had a good time, including myself.
Picture from some flowers I saw during a walk a few days ago. One of them is Camomile, the flower of balance. I can use some balance
Today? Work.
Weekend was short, too short. Just one day and that was the party. But tomorrow I can rest a bit.
Have a good day ore night all
I feel like I missed so much not reading yesterday
I hope everyone had an amazing weekend, it was pretty uneventful here just super hot and muggy. I did go swimming tho our pool finally reached 80 degrees! The worst part of the weekend is their talking storms here tonight with golf ball sized hail sooo it should be interesting
I hope everyone has a great Monday morning and a safe commute to work see ya in the pm
Day #225
Another hot day here. More than +35 C will be the whole week
Feeling good. Plans for Monday - to bake something delicious
Have a great and sober week. You can do it
@Dan.h84 Congrats on double digits! Great work @Lefty624 Nice to hear your pool is finally up for the summer @SoberWalker I’m curious, so if you have the energy left to answer: What did you cook for your guests? @Mno A walk is a good choice too. Nice to live in walkable cities Hope your mood settles soon. @DanaM56 How many days do you have left for the move? @Butterflymoonwoman I do sometimes smell stuff that reminds me of something, even if I can not see it anywhere around me. I don’t know if this is just my mind, or maybe something similar and my mind puts it together like that? But smells are somehow wired strongly with memories and emotions. @KarenKW Good to see you sharing with us. Sending you a few rays of sunshine @Refreshedperspective Wishing you luck on finding a work plan that will work for you and your current needs @Vanessa8 Nice to hear you had a sober weekend with a nice sober person around you
236 sugar
100 UPF
107 gluten
6 dairy
2 overeating
Did my morning run already. @MrMoustache It’s called Run Your Butt Off. There is a link in the article with the whole 12-week trainig plan.
This week my daughter is staying at her dad’s. This means I am having my flat, my time and my life exclusively to myself. Doesn’t happen too often. I am going to enjoy this.
Today back to prototyping, I’m still not finished with movement. I am having some kind of headache and my brain feels a bit like cotton. We’ll see how much thinking will be possible with that head.
I want to prepare for my upcoming vacation in Utrecht in the afternoon, some yoga. In the evening I want to join a gaming group. I don’t know anyone there besides one friend. But I want to meet new people. So I’ll give it a try.
However we might wake up, let’s go for peace, kindness and freedom today, so that we may go to sleep sober
I’m here, I’m alive I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 138.
Heavy rain again, that kind of rain where you can’t even step outside without getting soaked, again.
Me and my husbands wedding anniversary today. We’ve decided to try and celebrate tomorrow instead, because we need to go to Gothenburg for my husbands X-ray tomorrow anyway.
Decided to take back my application for the kids short time home. I’ve found myself wishing that I would get accepted back to my old job as a Cleaning lady instead. And the thought of even being at risk of working year around including holidays, Weekends days and nights stresses me out way to much. And I realized that I want a Monday to Friday 8-16 and just go back home calling it a weekend,no holidays was the reason I started to look from other jobs than being a personal assistant from the start.
So I’ll stick with that. No I’m just hoping that I’ll get the cleaning lady job after summer.
226 days
Quiet day with the kids. Week 2 of school holidays. Was pretty rainy and stormy today.
Played some mario kart then headed to the gym in the afternoon.
We received a text from the hospital giving us the date for when my wife will be induced into labour. Sunday 4th of August! Super keen to meet my daughter even if all of us are pretty anxious about it.
I’ve got 3 big weeks of work prior to her arrival so for me it’s head down ass up pretty much every day from now.
Considering almost all your relapses started this way I am in shock that you continue to think this is a good idea. I cannot imagine your sponsor thinks this is smart?
(This may be triggering to some as it’s quite a graphic description of withdrawal, so please skip ahead if needed. Mods, I understand if you need to delete or move to a new thread if needed, I just needed to get my feelings out and wasn’t sure of the appropriate thread. Thank you!).
I’m ashamed to admit this, but I made it to day 85, felt great, was discharged from the drugs and alcohol service (I really shouldn’t have, and didn’t want to be) then my friend died horrifically in an accident. He was only 20, and I’d known him for 13 of those years. So, I hit the bottle. Hard.
I was told by the out of hours GP to call 999 as I had vomited about 4 litres of fluid and was in the worst withdrawal of my life. I just kept sobbing down the phone how much of a failure and a burden I am, and how I didn’t want to live anymore, and had a seizure and collapsed whilst on the phone to the responders.
Apparently they had blue-lighted there and on the way to hospital, and that I’m lucky to be alive. Lots of diazepam, fluids and anti-sickness later and here I am to tell the tale.
On a very odd note, although I have a high platelet count, my liver still functions perfectly and there are no signs of damage at all. Time to not take that for granted.
2 days in hospital later and 3 days sober, and the alcohol team admitted they made a mistake in discharging me so I’ll be seeing them tomorrow.
Still feeling a little unwell and very sorry for myself, but I’m so, so lucky I’ve been given another chance, because it very well could have been my last.
@john_connor1337
The best advice I’ve been given (and keeping giving myself) is to never get too cocky.
The second you let your guard down, addiction creeps back in. That is why we will always be recovering, but never recovered.
I’d sit down with yourself and have a little think to see if it’s really worth it. 14 days is absolutely fantastic, but still very, very early on.
And most important: everybody had a good time, including myself.
our pool finally reached 80 degrees! The worst part of the weekend is their talking storms here tonight with golf ball sized hail sooo it should be interesting 
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Hope your mood settles soon.
But smells are somehow wired strongly with memories and emotions.
wish you a many many years happy marriage 
