@Zse enjoy the mountain 
@Noshame congrats on your week of no marijuana 
@Frank68 good luck with the open house 
@Misokatsu I’m glad things are going better than expected, anxiety is awful 
congrats on 1500+ days
@Sobermama40 welcome back 
congrats on day 6 and well done for trying something new 
1501 days no alcohol.
966 days no cocaine.
481 days no vape.
6 days no binge-eating.
I’m so fatigued this week. I’m finding it much harder to wake up properly. I’m having to go back to sleep at my usual wake-up time of 5:30am, then I’m sleeping again until 7am-8am. The only explanation I have for this is the changing of seasons and the extra depression that comes with that. Although in today’s therapy session, it came to light that it may all be due to seeing certain family members tomorrow, for the first time since the 5th of July.
Yesterday I took everything off my shelving unit in the porch type room where the bugs were. I checked through everything and swept any I found onto the floor. There were loads inside one box so I bagged the contents up and took it outside to the main bins, along with the box they were in and some other boxes I emptied. Then I swept down the shelving unit and moved it and I’ve left it in there in front of the door, and I sprayed the whole carpet with both sprays again.
Ugggh! After typing that I went to the kitchen, and on my way through, I noticed 4 bugs on some things I’d moved into the hallway, even though I’d thoroughly checked everything. So I dealt with those and also checked everything over again…there were 4 boxes of sealed, unopened swan and duck pellets… well, I noticed some more bugs on those, so I peeled the lips of the corners of the boxes up, and they were under there somehow! I hate waste, but I wouldn’t want to risk harming the water birds if any of the bugs had gotten into the food somehow, so I quickly took those out to the bins. It really felt like my skin was crawling! I really hope that’s it because I feel like I can’t take much more. 
Even though I’d rather not have bugs inside my hoover incase any were still alive 
I left it to dry out overnight, then I hoovered in there this morning. After that I seriously hope no more appear! 
I had Friday therapy today. It was hard as usual, and I felt nauseous after talking about some past experiences. During the final 15mins of mutual silence, I felt like I was going to cry, I didn’t though.
It’s been a while since I missed a day of checking-in, I’ve been working on it since yesterday AM, but the bug issue totally took over.
Wishing you all wonderful sober weekends.
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checking in before going to sleep. Today was a relatively good day. Lots of driving which got a bit tiring but saw some really nice historic towns and scenery along the way. At a campsite in a forest at the moment, where I plan to do some hiking tomorrow, and maybe pick some mushrooms to cook with later as they seem to be about atm… Surprised there’s wifi here. The weather is a bit drizzly unfortunately, on and off anyways, hoping tomorrow is better. So far it’s always worked out, but wondering how I’ll squeeze in my calisthenics workouts in bad weather or if I continue the roadtrip with a travel companion… But I’ll figure something out. Last stop before the next big city, Adelaide.
I’m glad there is still some good to focus on though 
that looks like a lovely gift though 
And really nice to hear you got some work coming your way 
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