Eyup sober fam, checking in before going to sleep.
My mind has been in a rut these past couple of days and I really need to get back on track. Insecurity and pressure were the triggers. But I know better, and just need to muster the courage to act the part. Tomorrow I intend to ‘simply’ do so…
How? Neglecting my healthy routine was my biggest mistake. Once I get back into the flow, I know my mindfulness will follow, because that’s where it’s thrived up until now. I don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.
I’ll check in in the morning again to maintain focus. Hope you have a good day or night whoever and wherever you are in the world right now friend, we’ve got this…
Another Saturday waking up without a crippling hangover. Enjoying a coffee and just took time writing in my Five Minute Journal. Started writing in this 5 days ago and I think it has helped this week. I had a couple of bad days mentally and that resulted in some heavy cravings for a drink. I was bored at times and in the past I would have just drank or gotten high.
Reflecting on the week now, I’m proud of myself. I’m proud that I can sit in that boredom sober now. This journey has only just begun. This sober lifestyle is something I genuinely enjoy now. Having a clear mind each day brings happiness in itself.
Bad days will happen. We can’t be happy 24/7. Life is hard. But life is worth living when you have the right people around you. Today I’m grateful for this app and all of you. A goal of mine is to attend AA meetings but my social anxiety really inhibits me. Eventually I will muster up the courage. But for now this community has been super helpful. Reading everyone’s stories and thoughts reminds me I’m not alone in this. We all live different lives but we all have that one thing in common - the desire to better ourselves free from alcohol/drugs.
Congrats to each and every one of you! Whether you are celebrating a huge milestone like 1 year, 5 years or 10 years or even your 1st week or 1st day, pat yourself on the back and be thankful
Day 944
Morning TS fam!
Hope everyone is having a great Saturday so far. Im currently at work. Did not feel like going in today but brought 2 coffees with me to keep me going. I had weird dreams last night so I wasnt settled. Not using related at least, but still very strange.
Its a beautiful fall day here in Alberta tho, so that always increases my mood. Love that the temperature is dropping and that it is now sweater weather . Thats about it for me right now. Just wanted to check in and say hi and have a great day!!!
@just_laura OMG that is horrible and sounds incredibly frustrating. Wish someone higher up could see how badly she is fucking up and how hard she is being on you all by understaffing and running you ragged. Hope you can rest and get your time for self care @seb CONGRATS – that is a wonderful transformation already – great work on staying sober and getting fit Good luck with the upcoming running / walking challenges @soberwalker Thank you Claudia. So sorry to hear that your foot is still causing you problems. I am glad that the meds help and that you are able to enjoy your amazing vacation. Lovely book selection – enjoy your holiday! @juli1 A new day and a new attitude – I love it! A fresh new haircut always helps Sounds like a lovely day planned – have a great weekend Jules @alycia WOW 900 days tomorrow. Enjoy your sober evening of fun. @catmancam Thanks Cam. Big hugs my friend. A huge revelation in therapy yesterday. Hope you are able to continue healing and stretching your safety zones. Have a great time at your Survivors Support group today @MBWOMAN OH how lovely – a day to celebrate sobriety! thanks for sharing @icebear Love the 3’s – way to go friend — keep up the great work Drew!
Checking in Saturday morning
Had a decent enough walk (my mom joined me and we had some arguments at the beginning but then we both cooled off). Found a new route to walk as too many coyote sightings in last area. Glad I got in a good swim today too and now time for a nap if I can manage.
Happy for a beautiful day! Gonna watch the new Beatlejuice movie soon (hoping today ).
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
Just checking in 14 months and two days AF. Life has been very life’s, which is why I haven’t been here in a while, but I visit when I have a chance. Will have to restart my junk food counter again.
163 days sober
Had a busy morning seeing my guests off and getting some of the chores I’ve neglected these past days done. Then decided I needed an antisocial day to recharge and now I’m laying in bed feeling pleasantly satisfied and relaxed. No thoughts of drinking or cravings the past few days. I’ve been to busy to have these thoughts and I was worried now that my business stopped today and I could slow down that the cravings would come back. But today was a good one.
This is a big realization and I’m glad you’ve come to it. This is progress, friend! Keep going, you’re doing the damn thing, that tricky thing called life. I’m proud of you and all your hard work and your willingness to put it all out here for us. Vulnerability is strength and don’t forget that. My love to you.
Yesterday was good with the girls. Went for a nice ride with the girls, today we are having the party for the girls bday. Did some bowling with them and doing good at staying in the moment. Much love
Checking in!
I’ve had two very busy days. Today we had a tournament at work, which basically is all about the booze… golf is a small part of it. When I went to chat with one of our members the waiter came and I said “the waiter is here, would you like to order something to drink, wine, beer?”. He said, “I’m on water since 10 months”… man… I felt like sitting down with him to have a chat! Obviously I couldn’t cause he’s a customer, and I’m working. But I felt like saying “well done!! Congratulations!!” Which I didn’t for obvious reasons! Then another female member of the club gave me booze fueled hug! She always does that! I’m not into hugging… still I had to go for it, trying to be professional! Anyway, the event went well, my boss is happy, and my weekend starts here!!
Thank you @JazzyS for beinf such a constant in my life. Oooo a garage upgrade for an infinity pool spunds mouthwatering!
So pretty sure I have covid, and now I am wondering if my daughters strep was misdiagnosed or was also in conjunction with covid. She did have the swab so I figured it was of course strep, but she didnt respond to the antibiotics and she needed an additional round. I dont even know what to think anymore. But my daughter and myself both ended up with oral thrush, something I havent ever experienced before and is apparently another weird side effect from covid. Which I was told was just her strep infection, but now I have it and I just had the wrirdest sick i have ever been. No traditional symptoms of beinf sick at all, I thought I was just cranky and having allergies and then I was essentially in bed and delirous and have not stopped sweating. Today i am peering through the delirium but still sweating and body feels like lead. I am going to get a covid test tomorrow becayse at this point I would like to know!
Feel myself peering throygh the yuck. Almost finished another fundraising write up for my nephew, to help us fund his therapy until his services kick in. The state of autism care where we live is very dismal, so we just have to keep plugging away for him if he is going to recieve any therapy. I managed to clean the house and hubby took the kids out for the day so I could rest which was so wonderful. I didnt manage to stay still, but I got a lot done and that made me feel a lottle better. You cannot add brainfog on top of ADD and not lose your ever loving MARBLES.
@jeslie that must be so challenging being in a professional space fueled with alcohol! Good for you plugging through, maybe you have a calmer weekend with less alcohol-induced hugging
@laner I totally understand the need for an antisocial day post social days So glad youre able to relax, and that your mind and sobriety are at ease even as the business dies down. What a wonderful thing
@pattycake congrats on the 14 months woot woot!!! Xo.
@JazzyS new beetlejuice you must give a report! Part of me is always nervous about seeing the new ones.
Im creeping this post because my husband has had chronic back pain for almost 10 years. He has a herniated disk but it has just never gotten better…did you read the healing back pain or the mindbody prescription? Thanks so much for the recommend, Im about to order it!
I’m enjoying some peace at last. It feels strange, the calm and lack of trouble. It’s exciting when I think of why. I’m healing.
with me to keep me going. I had weird dreams last night so I wasnt settled. Not using related at least, but still very strange.
. Thats about it for me right now. Just wanted to check in and say hi 
Good luck with the upcoming running / walking challenges
A huge revelation in therapy yesterday. Hope you are able to continue healing and stretching your safety zones. Have a great time at your Survivors Support group today 
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golf is a small part of it. When I went to chat with one of our members the waiter came and I said “the waiter is here, would you like to order something to drink, wine, beer?”. He said, “I’m on water since 10 months”… man… I felt like sitting down with him to have a chat! 
Obviously I couldn’t cause he’s a customer, and I’m working. But I felt like saying “well done!! Congratulations!!” Which I didn’t for obvious reasons! Then another female member of the club gave me booze fueled hug! 
Anyway, the event went well, my boss is happy, and my weekend starts here!! 