@AZeke 44 days is impressive. You are right…no good can come from going backwards. You are doing great and keep it up. Weight loss in sobriety is so different for each of us…keep living a sober active life and it will happen @Mindofsobermike yeah 10 months!! That’s awesome work my friend. Keep it going strong . Glad you are having a good weekend with the girls
@Manpreet welcome to the community and great job on starting your journey. 3 days is super impressive. Just think you are that many days farther from day 1 and you’ve just about finished with a weekend . It is a hard road but so worth it. Find ways to keep yourself busy so you don’t have time to entertain the urges. Try to find a support system (this community is great for it, a meeting or recovery group in real life is also helpful)- we need each other to get through this journey. Glad you are here with us…hope to see you around @Twizzlers how are you doing? What time is the surgery scheduled for on Tuesday? Sending you love and know we will be with you in spirit
I hear that. I always feel so much better when I eat healthy. Absolutely find me dragging when I eat crap.
That said, it’s addictive crap and I have found I fall down that hole occasionally… now I just gotta pull myself out. Perhaps beginning day this past week with toast and peanut butter is what got this started as I did t have the cup for my blender to make breakfast smoothies… I have it back now so will get back to that in morning…
Hello everyone. Tomorrow is move in day! Holy smokes time has gone way too fast! Cars all packed up and ready for a long day ahead of me! Gonna miss the women at the house but ready to be on my own!!
Im not sure I have any advice, but I think that just the fact that you opened up it makes sense you are havinf this reaction also? Being vulnerable is hard and takes a lot out of us, and this is also doubly hard when being vulnerable with someone who has hurt us in the past.
I think that in middle school kids can be very mean, and they can grow in a few ways. One is that they dont even realize what they did was that harmful (which when you are harmed is hurtful in itself, but depending on what it is kids dojt always understand), two is that they think about it and are sorry or three is that they plain old think you should get over it.
She may be genuinely kind and this may be a conversation you can have with her, if you wish. It may have been something like they got caught for doing so (self-harming) and needed a scape goat. That doesnt make it okay, but more forgiveable then perhaps other alternatives. It may be that she denies it or isnt open to a conversation in which, you have your answer.
I personally think youre a big person for letting forgiveness in, and also a big person for opening yourself up. You can be vulnerable and have boundaries, and if this issnt something she will acknowledge or be genuine about, then you know whwre to put the fence. It is never easy having a past hurt come flying at us in the form of someone who hurt us, but I think you are handling the situation with a lot of grace. Best of luck with it. Xo.
thank you for responding. I had a long discussion with my mom about what she remembers and she knows it all started when one of them was caught self harming , so the scapegoat idea would make a lot of sense. I suppose I’m just worried that only of them was involved and the other had no idea, and i don’t want to go just hurling accusations at her. I did tell her we’d talk soon I just needed time to process. I plan to reach out to her after I’ve had a therapy session. thank you for sharing your perspective the situation is so insane it’s very grounding to see someone else to respond to it
Feeling SO mych better. Had a beautiful day with the kids at an outdoor tree house park and then the beach. It felt so good to fwel good again. I think of this often about how our health is just so valuable and fragile.
About to have supper with hubby and then off to another week at the races. Birthdah is this week, job interview and my moms coming on Saturday I cant wait!!
My daughter also graduated to All Stars in skating and has been asked to come 2 or 3 days a week. Im just so happy and proud of her and she just loves it. Thank you for these beauriful days bx some days suck, and it just makes you appreciate stuff so much. Feeling grateful and maybe we’ll even get to finish watchinf Chernobyl? I mean a girl can dream xo.
Checking in, now on the start of day 16.
Stayed sober on work trip day 2.
Thank you so much @JazzyS@CATMANCAM@Butterflymoonwoman@Cjp@acromouse@Mno for taking the time to reply me, feels amazing to me that I can post on here, and so many people take the time out of their day to reply so thoughtfully. What a super community. I am now feeling energised this morning.
a hell of a week coming up - excited for you. Birthday? Which day is it if you don’t mind me asking.
Looking forward to celebrating your special day with you
I want to be honest with you, I relapsed a couple of days ago, which is what threw me into the depression I’ve been in these past several days. It’s so confusing because I know I know and want better, and get so far only to intermittently sabotage myself seemingly out of the blue. I have some childhood trauma I have yet to fully resolve, and the soul-searching it demands can be both a curse and blessing. But I’m so tired of numbness, and really value and miss the irreplaceable pride, confidence, initiative, motivation, inner peace, gratitude, courage, adventure, purpose, mindfulness and realizing potential only being sober and committed to personal growth have offered. I’ve decided I’m going to meditate for a full hour today for a start…
ay 449 second check in
