Checking in daily to maintain focus #69

[Thirdmonkey]

I plan on it!

[Thirdmonkey]

I will! It will be a whole new experience.

[acromouse]

@Thirdmonkey Good luck on your first day! Hope it turns out well. Keep us posted!
@MrFantastik Happened to me yesterday. Went to cuddle with my daughter and woke up when she wanted her bed for herself
@wahtisnormal Could you set up a running schedule where you only run every other day or four out of seven or something like that to accomodate your work schedule?
@GOKU2019 Thanks for sharing your party story. I find it always interesting how we starting seeing new things at familiar places or events once we get sober.
@1in8billion Great job on coming clean and sharing your relapse. Sneaking around is always a part of addiction. Do you have any idea what preceded the relapse? And what you could do differently next time?
@Mira_D Nice to hear you are feeling good again. You are right: Health is a treasure we take for granted too often.
@Jules000 Best wishes on your move day! Looks like a big new step in your life. Congrats
@icebear Staying in contact with my family who lives in the affected area. They are safe at the moment and it apparently stopped raining. Hoping this whole thing passes soon.
@Manpreet Keep at it friend. The first days are the worst. Once you are out of this things will improve. Keep yourself occupied, invest in lots of good quality self care and stay connected. Maybe join a meeting, maybe online. Support is crucial in these early days. Rooting for you!
@Mindofsobermike Congrats on 10 months Mike! Quite a journey you’ve made. Respect!

299 sugar
163 UPF
37 gluten
37 dairy

Had a shitty night. Waking up with a hormone induced panic attack. How I hate that. I slept a few hours and feeling better now.
My daughter is off to school. She had a migraine episode yesterday and it took us a while to find the right combination of meds. In the end it all worked out. I just hope for her to be migraine free for today.
I am going to prep for my first class this term. I’ve got most of the stuff already set up from the previous terms. Then some work on story telling.
Class is at noon, errands after that, yoga and relaxing in the evening. Maybe a meeting.

Looking to stay in peace and love life no matter what

[Nordique]

Hey all, checking in on day 1555. I hope everybody has a good one!

[allswell]

Hello all, going on day 14 here. I woke up feeling completely horrible today. My diet yesterday was shit, processed food for breakfast, no lunch, went to an ice cream shop with a friend midafternoon and had a banana split then she made some sort of carrot soup for dinner. Felt bad last night and worse this morning. I have to get the sugar as well as the alcohol out of my diet. Hope everyone has a great start to the week!

[Tragicfarinelli]

263. Checking in.

[Frank68]

Happy Monday! Another hot one today. Feeling great and excited about the day. Its awesome to wake up clear headed and not shaking because I did nothing but drink all weekend.

Make it an awesome day my friends!

[Misokatsu]

1497

Back at work tomorrow. A few yucky things, like seeing students I failed again, dealing with (I feel) patronizing or dismissive coworkers. Also, just busier, and so will be less tolerant of husband.
My muscle pain seems a fair bit better, maybe it was just time or I relented and used a medicinal compress.
More rubbish eating today. Very glad I will at work and away from various snacks that are in the house.

[Noshame]

495 no alcohol
135 no form of nicotine
3 no form of pot

Ordered my big book of aa and 12 step and tradition book. I should have them in a few days

I want to practice the program. Spoke at a online meeting and feel good about that.
Could be starting church. Still have to plan.

Clocking into work
Be back soon

[Jesile]

Checking in!

Yesterday I didn’t check in cause basically I effed up. I think false believes had been creeping up for a while, I’ve had a lot of events lately at work (like the one I mentioned 2 days ago), and all I see is people happy, laughing and toasting. When I’m there they annoy me, but I guess my subconscious mind was once again fooled. Anyway, I have reset my counter, and wanted to be honest in the group. Today my head is banging, and I deserve it!
Changing subject; I went so see a small apartment for my mom, her contract ends in a few months, and we have a serious housing problem in Spain, there are no places to rent available cause everything is used for fucking vacacional rent! She’s found a place through a friend, it’s not really cheap, but she can afford it and hey… with this view even I would move!!

[1in8billion]

@Mno @Misokatsu @CATMANCAM @acromouse

Thanks for your support guys, really appreciate it.

I’m a work in progress…

I’ll keep you updated how the next few days go Everything happens for a reason. I’m determined to get back on track, find myself ODAAT and see this challenge as another opportunity for me to learn, grow and shine.

[Noshame]

I think checking in here more is a good idea too

I checked in more often a little bit ago

Dayaaam
@Englishd
I saw a post from 2021 i made. I remember making that post
I was stuck in the rabbit hole of k2 alcohol and weed. You said go to rehab and i didnt. If i was needing to go it was then.

Thank god i have 495 days no alcohol. I made 3 dats no weed which is a marical. Everyday sober for people like us is a merical

I learned a lot in the online meeting lastnight. It really helps streightin my mind out

The other day with weed is MY LAST CHANCE. Im greatful for all my inlaws. Mom inlaw almost kicked my ass because i fked up so bad snd shes pist at me but she totally has a reason to. No doubt the incodent was a accident. I didnt mean to at all. I was leaving the room when it happened.

BUT

i accept the fact it happened and the stupid ass reason behind it which was weed.

Im being hand delivered the gift of desperation. I just want to move forward

Ill be at another online tonight and if we can figure out work and planning ill be at church later in the week.

Wish me luck. Im not out of the woods yet
Much love everyone

[Noshame]

Alcohol and drugs use me. Its like mind control. I want it, i get it, and my head isnt ne anymore. The things i have done blackout drunk, thinking this is fun, is totally embarrassing, dangours, and wrong. And its progressive and gets worse in active addiction

I know its hard to not do it when its around

I wrote myself a note to keep in my pocket

[Shel75]

Haven’t checked in for several days. I’ve meant to, but time just seems to fly by when you’re on vacation. I had a really fun week. Got to do lots of fishing, walking on the beach and just laying in the sun. Came home on Saturday. My husband wasn’t feeling well and asked me to drive. I hate to drive and especially in heavy traffic. It actually wasn’t too bad and i got us home safely. Driving through Richmond was the worst part. It was good to get home and see my cats. I missed them so much. The new cat sitter took good care of them, but they must have missed me too because they won’t leave my side when im at home. Decided to take advantage of the warm weather yesterday and went for a motorcycle ride and a hike. The leaves haven’t really started changing yet, but it’s coming. You can always tell by the cooler evenings. Today it’s back to work. Don’t have much scheduled, just catching up on emails and messages. I was getting lots of exercise every day while on vacation. I need to keep that up now that im back home. I did have some sugar (ice cream) while away, but didn’t go crazy. Im hoping a combination of new meds, good diet and exercise will help keep the inflammation, pain and swelling down in my joints. Well that’s enough rambling. Time to get back to work.
Have a great sober day everyone!

[Whereswaldo]

Checking in 182. Enjoy your week everyone!

[Jesile]

I have a long list of “my why’s” in my mobile notes. I’ll read it twice every day from now on, in the morning when I get up, and in the afternoon!

[Noshame]

Sobriety is great huh

[Lighter]

Day 199

My mind is spinning this morning. I’m thinking of the past, other people’s nonsense, poverty, abusive people, justice and peace and so many things all at once. Brain, !!

I’m safe. It is a good day. So easy to get sucked in. Don’t do it!

Going to start my day over. I’m kicking off a new fitness thing tomorrow. Oh, it’s social with people everywhere. I’m going to help myself and network. I am the all-time worst networker….nope, was! Because I don’t do the traditional, canned stuff that I always hated before. Everyone hates formal stuff. I’m going for the everyday stuff now. Just talk to people. This will work out.

Why is it so hot? Ok Pumpkins, let’s gooooo

[Mno]

Somehow I felt this could happen as I read your check in from two days before. So I’m sorry I didn’t act on my hunch and reacted to that post. And warned you or something.

But still. Please use us when the need is the highest Jesse! Use us and this place as one of your tools in your sobriety toolbox. Come here before you relapse. Talk to us. Communication is key. We might not be able to talk you out of it but only the distraction and the delay might help. Coming here after it has happened is a bit like ‘musterd after the meal’ as a Dutch saying goes. We got you but only when you let us friend. Don’t go it alone plz. X

[Jesile]

Yes, totally agree. My mistake, and next time will do so! Thanks for your wise words! But at least I wanted to come clean, otherwise I wouldn’t have felt comfortable, just pretending nothing happened!