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Stayed sober for a work function. Hung out with the teetotalers, who were really fun to be around. Nothing like clear and meaningful conversation
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Afternoon checkin. I discovered while working Step 4 in AA that I have a fear of events not turning out like I plan or expect.
This is not how I planned the outcome to be. . I needed compost emptied to start anew. Clearly I achieved that part! 
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Omg thank u for the idea!! I do have a Mr Coffee machine (makes iced coffee, hot coffee, lattes, and cappuccinos) but it doesnt have the frappe option. How do u like that? I have a Moka Pot also that brews 3 shots of espresso at once. Its quite handy and very inexpensive to the usual espresso machines lol. But bcuz of u i looked up some recipes and im going to be making an Apple Crisp homemade syrup for my Shaken espresso very soon! I didnt even think of looking up recipes 
thanks!
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@catmancam Sorry to hear about your ADHD assessment not going as you expected but great work on not giving into the binge urge! 
Grateful the meds helped and the leg is better ā blood clots are no joke and frighten the hell out of me. Do think the doctor could have had better people skills and bed side manner. Personally I am sick of the medical profession ā sorry you had to deal with this BS.
@wahtisnormal UGH! Fatigue is such a bitch to deal with and harder when you donāt know what is causing it. I do hope that the supplements help. I am dealing with the same and know how frustrating it can be. Hope you find some energy soon 
@laner Big hugs my friend ā so sorry that today was so rough and you experienced such anxiety. Grateful that you did take time to find comfort and serenity and calmness. 
@butterflymoonwoman Hope all goes well with the x-ray and appointments from today. Sorry to hear about the last minute need to do an overnight shift ā sending you loads of energy and love! I too stepped back from buying drinks daily as that habit got to be too expensive. Getting recipes online has been a great way to try em out at home ā you can have more fun with it IMO. Oh enjoy making your Apple Crisp homemade syrup for my Shaken espresso ā let us know how it turns out 
@positivethoughts WOW that is a lot of positive stuff going on and I am so happy for you. Glad you are getting out and enjoying life. Keep going strong friend ā sober living looks good on you!
@twizzlers Thank you for dropping in with an update. So glad all went well with the surgery ā hope you are able to get a restful nights sleep at the hospital (being in a unfamiliar place can be hard on sleep) and wishing you a quick easy recovery 
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Just a few hours after 30 days free of binge eating and shopping, I relapsed. I want to break down and cry. Iām such a disappointment to myself.
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Thank you 
i scheduled an appointment with my doctor lol
157 update:
Day 4 of running a mile every day 
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Phew! Such a relief to finally finish my 6th day of work in a row. Although, it hasnāt been that terrible a week. The struggling kitchen has finally found some help. He hired 3 guys who all live in the same halfway house. Theyāre all so grateful to have a job so theyāre hard workers, but also joke around and have a good time doing it. Itās been really fun the past couple days and everyoneās completely sober! Well, I should get to bed soon. Hope you all have a good one 
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@Mira_D Happy birthday! Thanks for sharing your story. 
@Lighter Congratulations on 200! 
@Twizzlers Glad you are awake and hope recovery goes well. 
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- 100 days from that yearā¦ Up early and ready to drop off the cats and get away for some days.
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Hoping your time away is grand!
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Slept better than yesterday. Weather lookingās better too. Letās take it one day at a time and make today as good a day as we all can friends. Sober and clean to begin with or nothing would come of it. Love.
Pic is from Diamond OR, 6 years ago today, on a previous shared holiday with my friend. Such a beautiful quiet spot in the middle of nowhere.
@Twizzlers Thanks for the update friend. Good news X
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Day 4
Iām feeling a bit disappointed today. My sister is returning to college after a 4-day vacation, and my mom asked me to get some stuff for her. Unfortunately, I donāt have enough money to do so. I felt angry and had the urge to drink, but I resisted. Instead, I wanted to share my feelings here.
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Proud of you! You resisted the urge, you set an importnt step on changing your coping mechanisms! I hope youāre proud of that too friend. Have a good sober day.
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291 days
Workout in the morning then watched some mma on tv before pucking up the kids from school.
Storm has chilled out today, still the odd rain and wind spell.
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@MrFantastik Glad to hear the storm is lessening and you are safe.
@s_unrelax Great job on sharing your frustration here instead of picking up a drink. This is right there where recovery starts. By sharing about your feelings, discovering the patterns that lead to cravings, changing those patterns. Keep at it friend. We are proud of you!
@Mno That picture looks fascinating. Where is that? Are they mining something there?
@Tragicfarinelli Have a great trip!
@Just_Laura Sounds like your working environment has improved for the better. Itās good to be surrounded by nice people.
@wahtisnormal The picture - is this a place where you go to run?
@Sissychris39 Big hugs coming your way
@tailee17 Thanks for sharing your mishap with us. We are all only human, but our minds try to convince us that we are at least demi-gods on a daily basis. Something wrong with the software if you ask me 
My balcony this spring looked akin after I tried to repot my plants in a ācleanā wayā¦
@icebear The word āteetotalersā is one of the funniest in the english language. It always makes me smile when some uses it 
@Twizzlers So happy to hear you are out of surgery and everthing is ok. I find staying in a hospital always a bit unnerving but on the other hand I am also so grateful to everyone there working to help others. Love and care coming your way 
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165 UPF
39 gluten
39 dairy
My daughter is once again in a migraine state. I am afraid this is going to be thing for the forseable future. She is very weather sensitive like that. Last week when we had cool and fresh autumn weather she was all good. Now with this pressing humidity the migraines are back. So I am hoping for better weather.
I did my morning run, very happy about that. I am going to continue working on the story for my game. I have a very rough scaffolding but am still in a brainstorming phase. I like that chaos. But I also like when things start getting into some shape.
We want to take a ride into the city in the afternoon to find a birthday present for my daughterās dad. Some yoga later. And I am going to cohost a Recovery Dharma meeting in the evening.
Letās keep looking for peace and ways to love live as it is 
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No mining. Just cows. Happy Valley is an interesting area, geologically speaking for one thing. Right next to Steens mountain (which is the only fault-block mountain I ever saw) formed relatively recently during a lot of volcanic activity in the region. Steens Mountain - Wikipedia
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Good morning beautiful people.
264 days sober & no cigarettes.
Itās been about 3 weeks or so since I last posted, feels longer.
I know Iām not quite one year sober but I decided to make some big changes.
My first big change: I work in the fast food industry & I have loved it the whole time I was drinking. I put any/all irritation, agitation & irritability down to the fact that I was either super hungover or half cut going into work. I also get hangry so thereās that lol. I didnāt realise how tired I was in my mind, body & soul.
As the months of sobriety rolled on I became more & more disheartened with my job. The first 3 months of sobriety weāre awful, I cried non stop. The next 3 were manageable, still cried but where was my pink cloud? I am happy sober but there hasnāt been any euphoria .
A month ago my boss pulled me into the office to chat with me āyouāre not working as hard as you used to & weāve noticed, your work has been declining over the past 7-8 monthsā. I pointed out that even at my current work level I still worked harder than most of his staff. He agreed on that point but said he was still worried about me. I told him I have mental health stuff going on & I would talk to him about it at a later date. He totally blind sided me.
A few days later I handing in my 2 weeks notice & we had another chat. I told him that Iām am alcoholic with 8 months sobriety (he was super understanding & congratulated me) and I needed to try something new/different . I told him Iād been offered a job in another restaurant (he really tried hard to get me to stay) I had been applying for jobs for months. I needed interview experience & wanted to see what was out there.
I am now in a non-fast food restaurant and everything is different, the attitude of the staff & management, the way weāre spoken to is different, itās so much more relaxed even though we work very hard thereās such a lovely atmosphere.
Other changes:
Iām trying to get fit, Iām on week four of the Couch to 5k. I hate it but I feel fantastic after it I am cycling to work. I want to start going swimming again.
Iām learning a new language too. Frenchā¦ bonjour
Iām trying to get the things in my house fixed that alcohol allowed me to ignore them. Iām thinking of going back to study, alcohol robbed me of the brain power to even read a book. Iām considering starting to date again, maybe in the new year. Again alcohol allowed me to ignore that part of my life too.
Iāve just been dragged along through life for over a decade & I want to take control. I want to live & love with intention. I want to grab ahold of life & pull it along with me rather than just being a spectator.
I know that everybody say you should wait a full year before making big changes and I think thatās good solid advice, thatās what I was aiming for but I needed to be in a different environment in work. We spend most of our time in work, we need to at least be happy being there.
Anyway Iāll shut up, got to get ready for work.
I hope yāall have an amazing sober day
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Hey all, checking in on day 1557. I hope everybody has a good one!
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I love the frappee option. It sounds like you already have a great set up. Youāre very welcome 
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