Day 949
Morning friends! Today im feeling a bit better. Not mentally or physically tired anyway. But im still having to turn this day around and its only 945am 
Things arent going how i wish they would but thats life lol. My coffee order was made wrong, the hospital pharmacy for my sons prescription was still working on yesterdays orders so it would be hours until his medication is ready, i think im coming down with a head cold and potentially my son is too. BUTā¦ im not allowing these minor obstacles to effect me today. I can honestly say that the problems I have today, are problems i wish i had back in the day. So i am grateful for the issues that Im facing today and that they are sooo minor in the grand scheme of things. I am on my way home now and will get ready for the gym. I think that will help. I feel well enough (so far) and could probably use with some exercise to release some negative energy. I hope u all are doing well 
Will check in later.
Every time I visit my inlaws my mum inlaw will ask me several times, what she can offer me in terms of sugary stuff. Itās like the very moment I leave she hits some kind of amnesia inducing reset button and is not capable of remembering that I donāt eat anything with sugar. After so many years I just gave up.
Sugar pushing enablers are the worst 
Yes! Exactly. Iām so anxious Iām going to clean the OVEN today. Thatās super anxious territory
I could make a high anxiety chore list with colors and a direct relationship with tedium/effort.
Yes, roofs donāt last long here. Large hail and wind take them out before the 10 year mark, usually. Need to start a ānext roofā fund just in case, haha
Glad youāre feeling better. 
Oh I think we could get on well. 
I refilled and then reorganized my spices today which is my favorite high anxiety chore, beat the crap out of my rugs and tushuks. And on my ceiling was a speck of something thatās been annoying me so I stacked items till I was high enough to wash it which didnāt work so I used white out till it was white enough for me to no longer notice it. Then I was satisfied.
Out of curiosity where are you located?
Thank you for reaching out, yes, fortunately we are safe, the flood didnāt cause too much damage to my city. Crazy times indeed.
Checking in! 
Not feeling too happy, but that has to do with my monthly hormone disorder I guess! 
My mom is all busy with moving houses, I think sheās excited despite all, moving from the flat sheās lived with dad (who passed recently) to a new place, will do her well and is keeping her busy!
Peanut keeps peeing around! 
Iāve had some kittens in my life, but this one takes potty training to the next level! At least he does ānumber 2ā where heās supposed to do it! 
At work things are not so good. I love my job, and the environment of a golf course, but I work in a very toxic environment when it comes to colleagues and Iām doing my best to keep out of the daily BS drama, but my name keeps showing up in gossip, Iām seriously thinking about changing job after almost 6 years! Now itās not the moment (end of season), but itās there on my mind. One door closes, another one opens!! Have a good one everyone! 
Sending love and hugs my friend. Proud of you for living your life on lifeās terms. Do hope that things calm down for you so you can get out of the crushing feeling 
@laner sorry today is such a struggle. How did the day go for you (just realized you wrote this 9 hours ago). Grateful to see the mind shift and not thinking that drinking would be a solutionā¦thatās a huge step forward 
@timbuk welcome to the community and Iām so sorry to hear about you and your spouse having COVID. Hope the two recover quickly 
@SKhan great to see you checking in. Sorry to hear about your marriage. Sobriety really does provide clarity and like you said not all of it is what you would expect. Glad that you are maintaining a good relationship with your kids. Really love the positive attitudeā¦ keep it up my friend
@flux welcome to the community and congratulations on day 2. Glad you are here with us fighting the good fight
@zse sorry your first AA experience was not so great. Glad you are giving it another shot. How did it go?
@Lighter glad you caught yourself from spiraling and becoming overwhelmed. I am the same way and we really do need to stay on top of it cause that exaggeration isnāt so far fetched .
@dan.h84 congratulations on your 2 months!!! 
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@Mischa84 What a sweet gift 
. I swear people can be so damn pushy and judgemental. Glad this recent time didnāt cause a binge. Sorry that you did feel the pressure at all. Seriouslyā¦when did refusing to have something become such a big issue for those around us
@s_unrelax congratulations on your 5 days and possible positive attitude
@Jesile ugh! You do need to enjoy your work space and it sucks when itās so full of drama. Are you able to put feelers out so you have a backup if you do choose to leave
Covid sucks. Sorry you have to go through it
2 months sober is awesome!
5 days is alright!
@JazzyS spirals for you too? Itās the opposite of mindfulness for me, itās based in anxiety, an overwhelming urge to āfixā everything and add lots of new things too. Big HALT 
Decided that one or two big changes is good for now. Volunteer job plus a swimming gym routine is good for next week! Iām also the type of person who will spiral with exercise, get injured and be unable to exercise at all. 
. I donāt know slow exists as a speed. Thank you for sharing. I feel less strange nowā¦haha
Checking in. My day is going well. Went to a work luncheon which was nice. Got to chat with my boss whom i rarely see and we usually only have time to talk about work related stuff. Im lucky to have a job i love and a cool boss. My last job was a nightmare in every way.
I did pretty well bowling last night. Some of the guys on the opposing team were shocked that Iāve progressed so much. I actually beat a few of them. They are all friends of my husband and theyāve been bowling together for 30-some years. I just started a year or so ago and only in leagues since spring. I have so much fun bowling. I have so much more confidence since i quit drinking. I spent so many years sitting in a bar or drinking at home alone that i was afraid to do anything out of my comfort zone.
Iāve been feeling really good mentally since i came back from vacation. I think i needed a reset.
Hope everyone is having a great sober day.
Iām in Texas, U.S., about an hour northwest of Austin.
Just a quick update 
Everything is going well, alot of pain, Iām home and dealing with it, reminding myself this time will pass.
Iām some strong medication so not really posting but have been reading all your posts 
Tried today to skip some doses of post operation meds and it was too soon. The pain is bad, the meds are too they make me feel sick. Iām hoping moving around when Iām able will be the best healer.
Very tired, so grateful for you all 
Welcome home Twizzlers!
Iām so happy to hear youāre ok and back at home Iām sorry about the pain. I hope the meds help and you can rest and recover 
I totally relate and feel the anxiety of taking on more than I can handle+but not realizing itās too much till itās too late). You most definitely are not alone in this
Being sober really helps in allowing myself to be more mindful and taking it slow.
On days where Iām able and well I still find myself getting carried away (luckiily I catch myself in time).
I hear ya. Working on this myself and hope we both find that balance.
Thanks for the update love. So sorry that you are in so much pain and that the meds are making you sick. Can you reach out to someone to see if they can change up the meds? Maybe Something else might not give you such a sick feeling.
Sending love and healing vibes your wayā¦hope you are pain free and recovering soon
Pain management should be #1 concern first couple weeks. Two surgeries in two months I kind of have some experience. Sending love and comfort.
Just back from my event, it was a nice evening some lovely dinner and good company. There was tears from some of the jokes flying. Into the pub which was open bad but I didnāt have any major issues. There was aa very small twinge when I was handed my wrist band for the bar but it quickly passed. I gave into some peer pressure and has 2 zero Heineken with the boys who were drinking deep. Iām somewhat disappointed I had those 2 but itās not a major issue for me.
I can honestly say I didnāt mind slipping away home. Going to sleep well now as Iām flat out busy tomorrow. Need to try and squeeze in an 18 mile run somewhere also 
Good night