Don’t know how I can process getting out of this place at the end of this month. I am still unemployed and have no money. I spoke with the VA and they said I’d have to stay in the shelter for about eight months and then register as an in-need housing person (Section 8). It’s something. I haven’t lived in a home less than 1800 square ft in about 30 years. Housing is currently a big ouch anyway. HmmmmHah…
In other house news: My daughter brought home opossums last night. She was going to set them loose on this 5-acre property but got a call from work, a wildlife rescue, that they weren’t all properly released, so they came, in crates into the house overnight. Apparently, they were loud, but I didn’t hear them while I was sleeping.
Hello! I haven’t been here over a year because I thought I didn’t need to login here or get help, but I do. I’m seven hours clean from binge eating and shopping. It may not sound like much, but I’m proud.
Checking in day 714. Wrapping up the weekend. My bf flew my best friend in to surprise me for my birthday, so I had a really great weekend with them. I have two day work week and then heading out for a quick 5 day vacation im really looking forward to. Just wanted to check in, trying to get back into somewhat of a routine with that. Wishing everyone a wonderful sober week ahead
@Tragicfarinelli@CATMANCAM I’m the same way when it comes to crying. I think I’ve cried 3, maybe 4 times, since I quit drinking. Every once in a while a movie will catch me off guard, or a wedding or something, but when it’s my own life, I have to be past boiling point in order to produce tears. I feel like it doesn’t help anything either, so what’s the point Idk @Whereswaldo Congrats on 5 months! @Misokatsu Don’t worry, I don’t do that stuff all the time either Glad you had a productive day!
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Pretty chill day. Definitely wanted to sleep longer, but we had to get moving and get over to my parents. We had a birthday lunch for my dad bc my brother goes to bed at 2pm so he can make it to work by midnight. Idk if I could have that schedule, kid or not! It was a short, but nice time. I was so tired when we got home I napped briefly and woke up with a burst of cleaning energy and then made a nice dinner. It’s still early so I think I’m gonna give my feet a well deserved pedicure It’s been over a year since I’ve paid for a proper one, but I have all the tools I need, as long as my back/neck holds up Have a great night/day/whatever your time is, lol!
I’m at my first stop in New Mexico! Only about 3.5 hours to go to Santa Fe. 8 hours in the heat was enough. So I got myself out of Texas and stopped for the night.
No drinking thoughts and I’m sunburned, fed and thrilled to be here.
Day 917
Feeling 100% better right now. Self care is exactly what i needed. Nothing beats a hot shower, wonderfully scented body lotion, face moisturizer, and lip balm. I always feel like a new human being, even after the toughest days.
Today was a little rough. Earlier i posted (and then deleted bcuz i thought it sounded whiny) about how i was struggling with comparing myself with others. I dont normally think this but jealousy was rearing its ugly head and thise thoughts did rent space in my head. I managed to pull out of it using distraction and a gratitude list.
I finished work, ran and errand on the way home, and then came home to my loving family.
Ive been practicing my speech for the pediatric cancer fundraiser in Sept and im really actually pleased with what i wrote. Not bad for someone who hasnt been in school for a looooong time lol im excited to do something good and be of service.
I really hope everyone is doing well. Congratulations to those celebrating milestones also! Going to do a bit of reading on here now and get my son ready for bed. Much love
Day 428 AF
It was a pretty good weekend. I had been talking to a new guy, we met yesterday for lunch after a week of pretty consistent communication throughout the week. His father unfortunately is dying so it was a bit if a downer. I felt bad for him. He supposedly flew home today and advised me that he had no idea when he’ll be back. I’m not sure if he’s telling me the truth or if that was his way of telling me he didn’t want to see me again. Dating shouldn’t be so hard. Thank a whole thing triggered me and I reached out to the toxic ex. He did not respond thank god.
I shouldn’t be dating. I need to focus on building my life as a single sober woman. Today was much better. Attending a Women’s meeting that I’m enjoying and met a new friend for lunch.
Going to reset my attitude. @Butterflymoonwoman im going to go journal in my gratitude journal and stop feeling sorry for myself. Your post was helpful.
I hope everyone enjoyed their sober Sunday. Sleep well.
Im glad my post was helpful i get it tho… i was feeling sorry for my self too. Sometimes it seems easier to just sit in it but its not great for our mental health. There truly is sooo much to be grateful for.
I hope that man was telling u the truth. I guess time will tell. Hes probably going thru alot with his dad and not in the right frame of mind. I am glad that ur toxic ex didnt pick up. That probably would have been disastrous.
Its hard not to want that connection tho. Before i met my husband i needed that connection with a man at all times, to the point that id go to extreme lengths (sex work being one of them) to feed that connection. But men were just another escape for me. Just like drugs and alcohol were. “Relationships” were just another distraction that prevented me from having to look at myself. Be single isnt a bad thing at all! Doing that inner work is crucial in order to attract the right kind of people to ourselves
Thanks Jazzy! It turned out to be a very relaxing day. I haven’t done that in awhile. I think you are right about my numbers climbing and contributing to the cravings.
Hi, I am returning after a 7 month relapse. Today I have 57 days sober. My daughter past away November 12,2021. Her birthday is coming up on September 12th. I’m starting to get anxieties. I don’t want to relapse this time around. Last September I got drunk and got in a fight and ended up with a black eye driving home on three wheel and a rim.
Have as good a day or night as you can friends, mindful and sober 
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Glad you had a productive day!
It’s been over a year since I’ve paid for a proper one, but I have all the tools I need, as long as my back/neck holds up 
Have a great night/day/whatever your time is, lol! 
i get it tho… i was feeling sorry for my self too. Sometimes it seems easier to just sit in it but its not great for our mental health. There truly is sooo much to be grateful for.