Ive been deep diving in the house. Cleaning and organizing hubbys shop, redid our nephews room and sons room - just plastered and preparing to paint. Hanging pictures. Painted a chalk wall on daughters one wall in her room, and fixed some old holes that desperatelt needed it. Adding some black accents because thats her colour now dont you know we have a teenage 8 uear old.
Praying on finding my own peace. I feel in some cases a willingnessbto apologize for harms done, even if that person has harmed me asbwell and would never apologize. Its okay. Grieving my relationship with my dad, and unclear how to move forward but I have to let it goā¦I cannot keep trying to explain myself to those who have no intention of trying to understand. Disrespect and harm equals a distance for my own peace; and knowing I have done all I can.
Looks like things arent going to work at my old job. They sought me out and asked what would incentivize me to return and I tokd them; I didntbask for anything over the top, just a small pay increase and the same hours and they didnt even return with a counter. Sometimes keeping your boundaries means peopke will pass. Im disappointed and dont really understand why they asked me what they wanted, without even telling me what they needed or were looking for and then just told me no. But hey, one door closes.
Dont dine with those you wouldnt starve with.
Days my son is in daycare he is awake so late at night and I thought it was because hes napping there but when he was off for 2 weeks with us he still napped some days and went to bed fine. One of the staff said they dont get to run around much so Ill bring that up at some point to the supervisor.
.bunch of stuff on the to do list and hubby starts at the hospital next week. Will then get to looking for a job for myself that lets me be the default parent.
Thinking of my mom and nephew a lot. She wrnt to visit him yesterday for the first time since he moved and it wrnt okay. Man what a mountain weāve been climbing sometimes I just want to stand of the edge of that GD cliff and scream it all out.
Kind of a down day but hey Im sober and its okay to feel sad and disappinted. Tomorrows a new day. Xo.
@MrsOdh Thatās so funny My grandma said my dad slept in a drawer! I canāt say much tho, my daughter slept in a laundry basket on a pillow. Cheaper and more portable than a bassinet @Bomdhil Gross Nasty neighbors are the worst. When mine got evicted, mice started venturing into my apartment. Thank God for my cats But the first time I ever saw a cockroach was when I moved into this apartment, and they were everywhere! I found a pretty cheap gel/paste repellent you put around the cracks and after 2 weeks of that(and diligent cleaning) they were completely gone, havenāt seen one since. Idk if you own your home, but if you rent, the landlord should help. Hope this issue resolves soon @Alycia That sober night out sounds awesome! Hope you have fun
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Another shift scheduled alone. Not too busy, but of course there was a table that wanted to sit outside downstairs at the same time the others arrived So much running, but it was aight. Weāve had fall like weather the past few days which makes it much easier to keep moving. Layed down for half hour after work(didnāt sleep) and recharged enough to make it thru the rest of the evening. Now Iām just cuddling with my kitties. It kinda feels like I have a head cold coming on, but Iām hoping itās just my allergies acting up
Iāve been thinking about how ever since I was a little girl I always had a diary/journal. I wrote in it every night before bed and kept it under my pillow. That was, until my daughterās father completely invaded my privacy and read it while drunk one night, finding something from the past to make him mad. I never journaled again. It just makes me that much more grateful to have a place like this to write about my thoughts, or boring day I know my posts arenāt always recovery related, but I just wanted to thank you all for reading and caring Wishing you all a wonderful day
Day 58 - started the day off a bit groggy, but I was able to get a good workout in and stopped by a family members house. Just some little victories, but they sure make me feel better
I have a day of working a nursing shift to come, ahead of a three day weekend. Yesterday I had a good day, got to talk to some trusted colleagues, and had some gripping and intimate (and some less intimate ones too) conversations with my peers admitted to the detox. Really was a good day. The key to recovery lies in connection and I found some good connections yesterday at work. Happy with that. And thanks for the feedback @Rob11 and @SoberWalker
I also restarted my habit of writing my morning thoughts or diary or whatever I want to call it when I get up. Together with writing here thatās something like 45 minutes of writing in the morning. Itās good for me on many levels. I love to write, it gets my creative juices flowing, practice makes me a better writer, a better thinker, a better feeler. So Iām happy with that. One day at a time and I feel you on this one @Just_Laura (everything we do in recovery is recovery related IMHO) and @MrsOdh (go for it!).
Letās have as good a day as we all can friends. Make it sober and clean to begin with or nothing will come of it. Love from my pet storeās cat and me.
Itās great seeing some old friends checking in here. As well as some new ones of course Weāre in this together. @Jftself Thanks for checking in Anthony, happy youāre doing well. Keep working and keep improving friend. @ChicagoT Thanks for checking in Tom, very nice to see you! @Alycia Always nice to see you Alycia, congrats on your days, the place and night out sounds fantastic! Too bad Perth is a bit far for me or I would join you there next time. @Courtni It is āWhen stress hits is when I drankā now! Congrats on 5 days and keep going, youāre doing excellent! @Ballroomdaze Congrats on making it through the day sober, and hereās hoping the pizza was a good one!
Hi @Desire2ChangeToday ā¦ so good to see you although sad circumstances.
Very sorry about your Momās cancer.
Glad you realized you didnāt want to go back down the drunk, feeling bad road and are starting back at Day one again.
Glad you reined it in quickly. Itās an evil addiction.
Welcome back to your Day Two coming right on up with 5 Years of experience behind you.
Lots of new posts and people on the forum and as you know, lots of support here for you.
Iāve always had my kids sleeping on a mƤtress on the floor, next to me on another mƤtress of course felt so much safer than a bassinet they could flip over. Itās not until they got pretty big they got their own beds. 12 y/o is like me and still falls out of bed sometimes in his sleep
Iām sorry about your crazy ex reading your diary. And Iām glad you feel that you can write about your thoughts and ideas here. Everything doesnāt have to be about recovery all the time. I love to read about everyoneās daily life here. Because weāre so much more than that. If everything was strictly recovery related I probably wouldnāt be here. This place makes me feel normal. Because besides all I like all of us still have an everyday life to balance. Still have laundry to wash, dinners to make, kids that needs help with homeworks. Reading about how people get through that while in recovery is a blessing.
I will, thank you
Never been a journal/ diary writing person. I remember my Ma tried to make me write a diary when I was a kid. It never stuck, I preferred reading or making up stories for my siblings and the other kids on the street.
We had a football field in the middle of our street, a āhomemadeā one that all the parents had went together to make for us. All the kids always used to gather there to play some kind of sports, horses, it whatever. Ma forced us out on the house, I refused to play with the kids and found a quiet place close to the football field where I could read in peace.
During fall we used to gather in the dark and tell Ghost stories. Our parents (All belong to the same church) didnāt allow anything like that, so being outside was perfect. I used to scare those kids for life with my stories, and then I had to walk half of them home.
Good morning. Thursday, almost Friday which is pretty much the weekend. And itās pay day!
Saving is my jam at the moment, we have big plans for summer 2025 and itās going to take a lot of resource so Iām on it.
Instead of slashing ā¬200 up against a wall this weekend itās going in the bank which will be spent on my family in 10 months time. Itās a great buzz.
Make some plans, set a big goal for summer 25 and work hard towards it.
Gabe a great day, hereās to anything 24
*Day 2164
Yesterday I had my final session to fix my peacock feather tattoo.
In a long story short:
22 february 2022 I got married. In my hair and bouquet I had peacock feathers. So I decided to tattoo 2 of them on my upper arm.
This is what the āartistā made of it:
This was the one on the front
The tattoo shop apologize and admitted it went wrong. They payed all the laser costs. After that they tattoed a better on over the scars, but I still wasnāt completely satisfied.
I found another tattoo shop and she days she could upgrate it a bit for me.
This is how it looks today, still sore and red but so much better! (Ps itās even better as the picture!)
When itās a bit healed after a few weeks it wil be less black and bold and will blend in more.
I can finally close this case after more then 2 yearsā¦
It was traumatic to have something on my arm that I hated. Glad I was strong enough the get my right and have it solved.
All that I never could have done while drinking.
Iāve changed so much and became so much stronger then I was!
Today? Off from work and going to climb the church tower today with a friend. 97 metres above ground. That must be a great view on my city I guess
Have a awesome day if you can!
Ore a comfy sleep
Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 176.
Iāve been struggling with stomach problems for weeks. Everytime I eat something I get a bad stomach ache and feels bad. The doctors office isnāt really helpful guess theyāre starting to get out of options
Theyāre already short staffed so I get it.
This morning I decided to use my opportunity to choose my own doctors office within our province, not necessarily the one located in my village.
Called the neighbor village doctors office which is a private clinic and got to talk to a really nice nurse. She said itās probably stress, even if my brain doesnāt feel stressed my body can. So Iām supposed to eat small meals often, not much spices, all the fruit and veggies Iām not allergic to. No Coca-cola or similar soda, no coffee not even decaf,preferably boiled or oven baked food. Preferably potatoes or rice instead of pasta.
And more liquids instead of solids. For at least a month.
Tried that advice for breakfast, rosehip soup, a banana and one slice of bread without butter or anything (I donāt like butter I prefer mayonnaise) and for the first time in like a month I donāt feel bad after a meal. No stomach aches, nothing.
I feel like a really old lady. But I can live with that if it works.
Thatās all Folks
Wishing yāall a wonderful day.
@Cynthia1 Congrats on 60 days Cynthia! Two months are great. Do you mind sharing what tools are helping you with your sobriety? @MrsOdh Glad to hear you are getting some relief from your discomfort. I feel you @SoberWalker Great tatoo story! Thanks for sharing. And do have fun on that tower and pleaaaase take some pictures for us @Dustysprungfield Nice to hear you are putting all that saved money to good work. That project of yours for next summer does sound exciting! @Mno My daughter saw that picture and was ready to jump to the rescue of the cat as she thought it was being weighted and sold against its will On another note I am very happy to hear you are finding good connections at work @Mira_D Sending you strength for your path to peace. @GOKU2019 Congratulations on your anniversary. 18 years is a lot of work @DanaM56 Sorry to hear about your back pain. I hope it lessens soon. @Butterflymoonwoman We all play ārolesā when we interact with others. Maybe you are not sure about your current āroleā with those parents? Maybe your role was more often than not being under the influence? Itās ok to experience anxiety in this kind of situations. Sending hugs and good wishes. @Ballroomdaze Pizza to the rescue! I like that. Although a loved one at home is the real prize here. Well done!
9 months - 274 days no sugar
138 UPF
12 gluten
12 dairy
1 compulsive eating
Today marks my 9 months freedom from sugar and 9 months of my recovery journey. Thank you all for having my back all that time!
Had a good nightās sleep, the weather looks nice, Iāll be off to check out the last couple of locations for the game in a few. Will do some groceries on the way back home. Yoga in the afternoon, Recovery Dharma in the evening.
Whatever life may throw my way today, Iāll try to keep my heart and mind open
@goku2019 Man that does suck when others canāt understand the sobriety journey. How even 1 drink isnāt an option for us. Luckily we know ourselves and are able to protect our sobriety. Keep up the amazing work friend. @bomdhil great to see you stacking up the days ā now at 29! Nervous is good ā sometimes we need the nervousness to keep us vigilant. You are not alone ā keep fighting the good fight. OMG! Cockroaches would have me jumping on furniture and screaming. I would be so furious with my neighbors and hope they can resolve this problem ASAP. You should not have to pay to get it cleared especially if they are not taking care of it on their end ā it will be a never ending cycle. @butterflymoonwoman I totally know what you mean about a ānormal lifeā almost feels boring and mundane. I do believe it is what we make of it ā the crazy chaos I lived in was not good for me on every level and I am finding a different kind of fun in my new ānormalā It is a true gift Hoping all goes well with your sons new equipment Oh Iām glad it all went well with he new equipment. This is a different environment and you are handling it sober so it makes sense to be nervous but you are a badass woman my friend and you will shine @lisa_lou_who Welcome to the community Lisa and a great job on your 1 week of sobriety. Hope to see you around! @mno congrats on your 1900 days. Sorry you missed this weeks meeting but glad you had such a lovely nap. Happy to have you a part of the TS sober tribe @brian1965uk I am sorry that you are feeling uncomfortable. You have to do what suits you best. We look forward to celebrating your 2 year milestone with you in November.
WOW so excited for you. This is a big step. On the other note ā OMG ā what is wrong with people ā I do hope this is not some sort of scam. I hate how cynical these scammers are making me but I am starting to question everyone and that sucks. Glad your daughter is safe and that you made the report. @laner Oh wow ā that is a cool looking toilet. Glad it got completed so nicely. Glad you have that light put in ā trying to navigate in the dark would be horrid. @bettertimesahead Welcome to the check in thread. Great work on day 2! Love that you are well supported in real life. This is also a wonderful place for support, advice and distractions. Love the video idea. Keep pushing forward @mrmoustache Great work on 43+ days ā hope the cravings subsided and you are feeling calmer / better @zzz sorry that you are feeling sick ā hope you recover quickly and can play your gig.
@babyapes check out that transformation! Way to go friend. Keep at it ā look forward to celebrating your big milestone with you @tifflynn07 great to see you checking in @refreshedperspective Sending hugs my friend ā hope the basics help. Small victories are amazing @hillbillychris Way to go with your 3 years Chris. I know this hasnāt been the easiest year. Grateful you have protected your sobriety @jeanine Nicely done friend. Triple digits and going strong @just_laura WOW ā impressed with it all and glad you had such an amazing night. Hope you can see chiropractor soon @mrsodh Yeah ā I would have not been happy with that schedule and transportation time. Think that is a smart decision. Have fun with the writing Glad you are giving it a go. Glad you got in to see a doctor ā hope you feel relief soon. @catmancam your numbers are inspiring. Glad you are getting back to your walking I just finished that book and so glad that I read it all ā such a beautiful enlightening read ā enjoy it @desire2changetoday So lovely to see you back but I am sorry to hear about your momās diagnosis. Sorry that you did have a lapse in drinking and diet but am grateful you saw the need to connect to community and get back to day 1. We are here with you. Sending you strength and love @acromouse Sometimes life does insert the most interesting challenges into our routines. Lad you were able to dance around them and make the best of it. OOH ā so cool to have a birthday celebration party game at the cemetery ā will need more details LOL. Way to go with 9 months no sugar!!
@wakikki Sending you loads of healing love @ncgolfer Way to go with 1 month accomplished It does get easier and better. Stay connected ā find support and keep working your recovery @teresa.13 864 days is awesome ā I am so sorry that you are feeling these deep emotions. I do cry a lot when I feel overwhelmed or exhausted. Even if sleep is good, sometimes your body needs more sleep or just rest. Hope work calms down for you too @courtni Way to go with day 5! Sorry it was hard but so grateful you pushed through. No comfort comes from drinking ā it is an endless dark hole. Keep pushing forward and showing up for yourself ā you will always be happy you did @ballroomaze So lovely to see you checking in and with 29 days! Great that you didnāt pick the bottle ā pizza is always a great options @goku2019 HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! WO ā 18 years is awesome ā sounds like a lovely day spent
WOW - so beautiful and i am grateful that you did push for what you wanted and did not settle. Have a wonderful day with the church climb Hugs: @cynthia1 Well done- 2 months is amazing work ā keep it going strong
Checking in ā
609 days alcohol and weed freed (aka 20 months)
1024 days cigarette free
This wifi and weird sleep schedule has me all over the place. I have checked in many times but have lost my draft posts and it made it harder to feel connected. Glad I am caught up with the check in thread LOL
Doing well enough - yesterday was a very lazy day as I let my pain rule the day. I am not doing that today - some more sleep and then will try to be more active today.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love :heart :
Good morning, evening or just have a good night or day during the last weeks I have completely cleaned my flat and all storage places, moved many things out to garbage or sold them as I didnāt need some gadgets. Iām really proud of myself, some of the stuff was something like a snowball I was rolling over in front of me all the time and it just got big. It was part of a plan to prepare myself to give it another try and start to live a sober life I deserve. Kind of angry with myself, you know the feelings around starting again but I really want to give it serious try, never and forever. Sometimes I give myself big objectives, this time I just want to learn āto beā and have emotions under control. Have a nice day
My grandma said my dad slept in a drawer! I canāt say much tho, my daughter slept in a laundry basket on a pillow. Cheaper and more portable than a bassinet 
Nasty neighbors are the worst. When mine got evicted, mice started venturing into my apartment. Thank God for my cats 
But the first time I ever saw a cockroach was when I moved into this apartment, and they were everywhere! I found a pretty cheap gel/paste repellent you put around the cracks and after 2 weeks of that(and diligent cleaning) they were completely gone, havenāt seen one since. Idk if you own your home, but if you rent, the landlord should help. Hope this issue resolves soon 
So much running, but it was aight. Weāve had fall like weather the past few days which makes it much easier to keep moving. Layed down for half hour after work(didnāt sleep) and recharged enough to make it thru the rest of the evening. Now Iām just cuddling with my kitties. It kinda feels like I have a head cold coming on, but Iām hoping itās just my allergies acting up 
I know my posts arenāt always recovery related, but I just wanted to thank you all for reading and caring 
Wishing you all a wonderful day 
Weāre in this together.
Do you mind sharing what tools are helping you with your sobriety?
Hoping all goes well with your sons new equipment 