- Checking in. Bad dreams (I dreamt that I was trying to get dressed, and I kept dropping my jumper in the gym toilets which was gross and dirty) and disturbed sleep. I’m so sick of my weird sleep
. Tired, but still here. Over but not out. I was annoyed that I was sent a fish pie in vermouth sauce a bit, not gonna lie. But then realised that the same person drank lactose free milk during veganuary believing it was ok. Getting back in my lane is something I need to embrace. Not everyone really thinks every single thing in every single day (like me), so I must accept that ‘thoughtless’ actions are just nothingness. Being super sensitive and hyper aware and hyper vigilant is so bloody exhausting.
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It’s called NuTopia- it’s in Freo! My friend went last weekend and she said it was awesome.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1530. I hope everybody has a good one!
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ODAAT friend…you are doing great and setting up a good foundation for your journey. No room for anger it regret over past decisions…you are making a difference now 
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Thank you 
Yes, I am!
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264 days
Gym in the morning. Then just chilled at home.
Back on nightshift tonight. Did a bit of training with one of the guys. Had a good dinner, now in a bit of downtime. Will try watch some training videos later but not sure I’ll have the concentration or motivation to haha.
Days off tomorrow.
Great work @acromouse on your 9months
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Especially when half asleep😂 digging the new light extra fancy with motion sensor even!
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140 days sober
I must have been needing the extra sleep today because I woke up over an hour later than usual! Amazing for me! It made me late for morning chores but oh well🤷♀️ I feel like my work day flew by and I got so much done. Even managed to swing by the orphanage for an hour to visit with some of the kids. Soon school will start and I wanted to find out if there is some who need help to purchase their school supplies or the such. I received a good grant from an aid program to help pay for a certain amount of educational supplies for kids this school year. So got a good idea today of what is needed. Hopefully next week I can get this taken care of.
I finished work a bit early today because I’m waiting on my delivery for coal to arrive. I now really feel in full on winter prep mode. Anywho it was a good day again. Productive, stayed sober and enjoying the sun.
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Checking in on day 445 AFAF.
My daughter has been too anxious to go into school the past two days. This is her second week of high school and I’m feeling really bad about it. I’m not sure what to do. I’m going to encourage her out for a walk later this afternoon (I have a workman coming to check the cold water tank at lunchtime so it’ll be after that)
It’s a very gusty day here so it should be invigorating being out.
My daughter has told me that she’s been thinking about her dad a lot recently. She was 6 when he died and she’s 12 now. I just really find it difficult to know what to say to her.
At least I’m not blotting out my emotions every evening with alcohol though.
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Day 1472
More tidying! 
I got out, hoovered and organized some of my books, and replaced the sun scorched curtains. I took two bags of books to the second hand shop, and what they didn’t want to recycling. My two old computers were also picked up today. Great to feel that the house is getting a little emptier.
It is getting slightly cooler, mid rather than high 30s so I feel less headachey and heavy. Hopefully by September I can start running again. My stamina will be bad again, but any length or speed will be better than nothing.
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Day 45 without alcohol, weed and benzos. Goddammit, I have again massive cravings to smoke pot. I don’t have any cravings towards alcohol and benzos, but MJ is for some reason whispering to my ear. But I’m not worried, this is just part of the recovery. I got this.
Today is a sunny and warm day and I took my first daily walk. I just ate vegan tortillas and soon I’ll go for another walk. Walking helps me, it calms my nerves.
Stay strong, friends!
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@Deelzebub That sounds hard for your daughter. The move into a new level of school is always tricky. I’m reading a book about school absenteers now. It’s a fantasy fiction but deals with mental health, bullying and fairy tales thrown in.
I don’t know if she likes reading or not.
@Cynthia1 Congratulations 
@SoberWalker So happy it has been resolved finally and you are finally happy with it! Looks great!
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She loves reading so I’ll look into your recommendation. Thanks
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Checking in day 157!
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@Amy30 good to read from you 
those 3 months have gone fast! (It seems so for me anyway) sorry about the MH dive and RLS hoping settling into a routine will help 
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@Desire2ChangeToday welcome back, I’m so sorry about your mom’s cancer returning sending you strength 🩵
@acromouse well done for stepping up to host the RD meeting 
@Ncgolfer congrats on 30 days
@Bomdhil oh gosh, I’m terrified of them too! I just had a quick look on Google and there are some natural repellents that may help, maybe if you could put some where they are entering from it might stop them coming in, good luck 
@Alycia good to read from you those nights out sound amazing, I hope you’ll go and have fun 
@GOKU2019 belated happy anniversary 
@SoberWalker wow! the tattoo is looking amazing now 
enjoy the view
@Cynthia1 congrats on 60 days
@JazzyS thank you I’ve enjoyed it so far, 5 chapters to go. I’m sorry you’re still having WiFi issues and they have lead to feeling disconnected but congrats on 20 months
1472 days no alcohol.
937 days no cocaine.
452 days no vape.
25 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Yesterday I was getting angry and felt like bingeing everything I’ve been restricting (takeaways, sugar, crisps), but I walked to the shopping centre and bought the healthy lunch I get after therapy on Mondays, and felt completely fine after I’d eaten that.
I am having a lot of drinking alcohol and chain-smoking cigarettes dreams lately, they don’t affect me too much once I’m awake, but I don’t know why they are happening all of a sudden, and all at once. Maybe it’s because I’ve been listening to Quit Like A Woman, that would make sense! 
The past two days have been the closest I’ve been to going to the gym and swimming in a very long time. I was hoping today big things would happen! Instead, I couldn’t stay awake when I woke up at my usual time of 5am, and went back to sleep until 7:30! Then I’ve been trying to catch-up here since then, with my cats both demanding my attention in-between, and it’s now 14:30. A walk will have to do.
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I am now 10 days sober and feel proud and lucky. I have a quick story to tell.
Every time I have wanted to quit or try to quit drinking the past many months, it seemed or felt like something stressful would happen soon after or I would be extremely busy soon after and I used it as a bad excuse to use again. Well in true fashion, yesterday I woke up to a cold sore forming on my lip which if you have had them before you know they are excruciating. I get them when the seasons start changing. And, my boss (a lawyer) yesterday informed me that she has accepted a position at a different Court and so she was going to begin to close her law practice and essentially I will be out of a job by the end of the year-ish. HOWEVER, I did not let this move my goalposts this time (with the help/support of my husband). I did not drink last night!
I did not just lay down and die and for that I am grateful and I will remember yesterday as a day that was very difficult but I did not need alcohol to get through it. I can get through anything without it. A couple years ago, before relapse when I was having a good streak of sobreity, I bought a house and did not use a drop of alcohol during those months, and I consider that one of the most stressful things that I ever did. I need to stop thinking I need a substance to deal with life because I don’t and now I have even more proof!
Today my boss is starting to tell everyone and starting to talk about how to finish out cases and it’s sad and I am a little crabby about it but I will get through the day and I know I will be so much happier overall if I continue to not drink, so that is exactly what I am going to do today.
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@zzz Im stocked too 
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Day 2344 AF. 100 days tobacco free!. I have so many darn balls in the air right now. Babysitting, work, camping trips, concerts, preparing a garden for next year, preparing a pollinator field for next year, buying and building a greenhouse.
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I wouldn’t change a darn thing. I had no balls in the air as a drunk, I had no life.
My cup overflows
Stay sober friends!
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Day 4
No binge eating
No shopping
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