I am now 10 days sober and feel proud and lucky. I have a quick story to tell.
Every time I have wanted to quit or try to quit drinking the past many months, it seemed or felt like something stressful would happen soon after or I would be extremely busy soon after and I used it as a bad excuse to use again. Well in true fashion, yesterday I woke up to a cold sore forming on my lip which if you have had them before you know they are excruciating. I get them when the seasons start changing. And, my boss (a lawyer) yesterday informed me that she has accepted a position at a different Court and so she was going to begin to close her law practice and essentially I will be out of a job by the end of the year-ish. HOWEVER, I did not let this move my goalposts this time (with the help/support of my husband). I did not drink last night!
I did not just lay down and die and for that I am grateful and I will remember yesterday as a day that was very difficult but I did not need alcohol to get through it. I can get through anything without it. A couple years ago, before relapse when I was having a good streak of sobreity, I bought a house and did not use a drop of alcohol during those months, and I consider that one of the most stressful things that I ever did. I need to stop thinking I need a substance to deal with life because I donât and now I have even more proof!
Today my boss is starting to tell everyone and starting to talk about how to finish out cases and itâs sad and I am a little crabby about it but I will get through the day and I know I will be so much happier overall if I continue to not drink, so that is exactly what I am going to do today.
Day 2344 AF. 100 days tobacco free!. I have so many darn balls in the air right now. Babysitting, work, camping trips, concerts, preparing a garden for next year, preparing a pollinator field for next year, buying and building a greenhouse.
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I wouldnât change a darn thing. I had no balls in the air as a drunk, I had no life.
My cup overflows
Stay sober friends!
Cheers 
One of my all time favorite yerbas was and I still buy it time to time - Canarias Yellow Package. But it is strong and smoky. I learned one trick in many years to get something similar to that typical Uruguayan PU1 cut that gives that creamy taste: I take something like Kraus and mix it with a little bit of Brazillian Chimarrao Erva Mate. So I usually took like 3 spoons of Kraus and at add less than one spoon of Brazillian one. Basically you add that dust that later gives this creamy texture and grassy fresh notes.
Day 4
No binge eating
No shopping
Checking in with 137 days sober. Iâm reading Reframe Your Brain by Scott Adams. Loving all the ways to look at life and rough situations in a different way. Enjoy your day everyone. 
Iâll stay sober today too.
Second check in today.
I just have to share my once again hilarious 14 y/o wisdom with yâall.
He is as you know high functioning autistic, and has zero filters. He is always honest and straight forward, which is good. And sometimes not so good.
Here in Sweden school lunch is free, and itâs mandatory to go to the cafeteria and eat. Thereâs always at least two warm meals to choose from, a big Salad bar and thereâs always hard bread with butter, and milk or water to choose from.
My 14 y/o is extremely sensitive when it comes to food, and doesnât really feel hunger so he is a lot smaller than his classmates (Iâm not really a giant either so thereâs some genetics in work there to)
School nurse his mentor and other school staff was worried about him all last year because he is so small, and weight so little.
He was even allowed to bring power/mĂŒsli bars to School which is supposed to be completely sugar free. So he could get some extra energy. And weâve been talking about the importance in eating the school lunch.
Now when they are in 8th grade the lunch is supposed to be their own responsibility during a pretty long lunch break. His friends have been dissing him, skipped school lunch and have gone straight to our local pizza place both first and second day of school. They are not allowed to do that, and my 14 y/o follows every rule strictly sometimes to a default. So he hasnât joined them.
Today he was tired of eating alone so he walked straight in to the teachers office during his lunch hour and had a small lecture about the importance the school lunch have for him. And suggested that from now on someone from the teachers crew perhaps could join him every day so he doesnât have to eat alone.
His mentor and the school nurse though it was a fantastic idea. And called me to ask if it was okey.
So from today, on his own request he is going to eat lunch with a teacher for the rest of the semester.
I asked him how he felt about it when he got home. And he said that if you have a problem, you need to solve it, otherwise youâll just be miserable forever. He solved the problem, and now he is happy. 
I instantly thought about all of us here that is currently solving our problems, so we wonât be miserable forever. In his mind itâs not more difficult than that.
Thatâs all Folks 
Thanks for sharing! Your sons story made me smile. It must bring you a lot of joy and pride having him as your son!
Thank you 
Thank you! 
Thank you. I appreciate all of you for your support. 
I am, and he is hilarious most times. He doesnât realize it himself, and sometimes you just have to resist the urge to laugh at situations like this, because he is drop dead serious.
Thereâs also a girl thatâs interested in him, but he is not interested in her because he âDoesnât want her problems to become my problemsâ
Iâm certain that this kid was an elderly man in his past life and that they just forgot to reset before they sent him back here.
Day 60 - unfortunately I am having considerable issues in my relationship. Feeling like a might be hitting my breaking point, and needing to get out of it.
Emotionally I am a wreck, but I would not be able to navigate these issues and emotions if I were drinking. There is no question in my mind.
I want to feel comfortable and loved
Day 921
Its a beautiful almost autumn day here in Alberta! Just gorgeous weather out. Autumn is my fav season and it always lifts my spirits 
I have been practicing my speech today for the fundraiser I am attending in Sept. Its going well. Ive almost managed to speak the entire thing without looking down at my paper. For the rest of the day, I will be doing some cleaning. Will do some laundry also. And then prep supper for when hubby comes home from work. Ya thats about it! 1 week until school starts and 1 week until i can get back to exercise! My son is excited for school and Im excited about my new routine also 
Grateful for recovery and for all the opportunities that occur in my life today bcuz of it. 
Day 425. OK day at work. Alot of headaches this week. Iâm looking forward to the weekend except I am on call on Sunday which is a pain but all ok
Checking in day 234 AF