Day 426. Tired this morning. Working 8-2. Then taking the afternoon off. Day 426 feels a bit odd. I can visualise a week, month, half year etc but 426 just seems a chunk.
I will try and set some milestones I understand
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Hot wings and forgiveness, canāt be better than that. Iām so proud of you for doing what you did. It takes a lot of courage to do that.
Good job 
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Thank you i am looking into that waiting to go to specialist. Lol guess you can say im tried of being tired. Hope you have a great night
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So perfectly said. Post this around for yourself as a reminderā¦ life will continue to be lifey but we canāt deal with it stuck in addiction.
@Tyland have you gone to see your GP? Maybe get blood levels checked for vitamin deficiency and look into this as well. Ink ow if my Vit D levels drop them my fatigue becomes unbearable.
@jbaldwin84 glad you were able to go and gave the place / people without any triggers. Making amazing leaps in your recovery. Keep this going strong 
Good for youā¦she better learn to do her job better and not keep at it the way she is ā¦she will loose good workers this way. Hope you get a good nightās sleep.
@Tragicfarinelli sorry that job got declined. Wowā¦you will have a lot going on during the winterā¦stay calm and serene. The dreams sound awfulā¦hope you are able to have a fabulous Friday 
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I think we all need to see the world like he does sometimes. Either you solve your own problems in a way that feels comfortable for you. Or you will stay miserable.
One of the most amazing things with having special needs kids is that you get different perspectives on life.
Hope you got a good sleep
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Iām certain that he was an elderly gentleman in his past life, and they they just forgot to reset when he went back here.
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@Timetochange You obviously are longer on this recovery journey than I am but I find celebrating months still helpful as a reminder.
@MrsOdh It really sounds like the universe is trying to tell you something there 
@CATMANCAM Keep on being heroic 
@SoberWalker Locked in a church for the night! Sounds like the beginning of a really good story 
Thanks for sharing and for the pictures.
@Mno Isnāt it funny how things seem to shrink when we grow up? On my last stay in Poland I saw the old sawing table my grandma used to use and remembered how we kids loved to hide under it. And there I was thinking: How in the world were you ever able to fit under that!?
@Tragicfarinelli Sorry to hear you are so pestered by dreams. They can leave one in a very vulnerable state for the whole day. I hope you regain some emotional equilibrium soon 
@DanaM56 So sorry to hear about your pain. Chronic pain is so debilitating. Sending you hugs, love and a wave of calming braeths 
@Just_Laura Good job on not taking that BS! You work, you get paid. 
@jbaldwin84 What a brave move! Facing people we have hurt and let down requires so much courage. Heroic stuff friend 
@Tyland If you feel like your energy levels are disturbing you obviously should check that out with a medical professional. Depending on how far you are in your abstinence from your DOC this might also be a symptom of a current withdrawal cycle. Take care of yourself friend.
275 days no sugar
139 UPF
13 gluten
13 dairy
2 compulsive eating
Started back incorporating a bit of running into my morning routine. Itās a great way to start the day as I feel like I have already acomplished something when Iām done.
Iāll be off to check out more locations in the city. By now you probably have guessed that I already have enough locations for the game itself, but these trips are so much fun and I usually do not use the Schwebebahn that much, so itās as good an excuse as any to make one more trip today.
My daughter will be off to my mumās this evening and I am thinking about going to the cinema as my favourite club is still closed on fridays for the summer time. I need some creative input. Weāll see.
Iām starting with the intention to keep my heart and mind open today. After all today is the only kind of day there is. 
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231 days AF and waking up feeling amazeballs.
Off from job today to take son to airport to fly back home to BC for a two week well deserved vacation. Boy works hard as hell and deserves a good break!
I have taken to taking last few Fridays off to get a big chunk of mowing on clients propertyās done. I have almost 3 weeks of time off that I never use so this way I get paid for day and make great cash on mowing. Better yet I get most of clients done so Iām not doing every night after workā¦ win win!!
Bought a new to me car yesterday so as I can store my truck for winter as the fuel costs for using a 1 ton diesel truck was just insane.
None of this would have been possible if I was still spending $100+ per week on booze. Basically booze alone pays for car. But fuel savings from truck pays for car, fuel and insurance with money left over as I was putting about $240 per week of diesel in truck every week.
Anyway, off I go to airport then on with my day. Hoping you all are doing very well in your sobriety journey
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Day 1343,
My intake interviews for a follow up treatment.triggers my dreams/nightmares. In some sense positive on the other hand pfffff
I find it interesting how my dreams are more about relationship/family relationships than the things that happened.
Have a good sober 24 hours 
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265 days
Gym in the morning after work. Then home for a quick nap.
Wife and I went out for lunch.
Picked up the kids from school and headed up for the gym. Eldest kiddo had their last training before a competition on Sunday. She did well and is feeling confident which is good.
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@Bluekoolaid Lots of gratitude and acceptance in that share, I like it. 
@DanaM56 That sounds so tough. 
Is it a reoccurring thing?
Sounds like a good combo to me!
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Day 1473
Just a little tiding today, one box of electrical junk. I am trying to tidy something everyday, if I get into it and do more, great, if it ends up being just one box or drawer, then ok too.
Took the kids to get new glasses. There was a lot of faffing around (if not from the UK, that means just messing around) but after much deliberation they chose glasses that are basically the same as the ones they have already. But they both need stronger lenses, and new lenses and new glasses are the same price, so may as well get new ones.
Went to a foreign food store and bought harrissa and garam malsala hot sauce, which was quite exciting.
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Day 282. All is pretty well, just working and focusing on one day at a time. When we went camping last weekend, i did have a moment where we stopped at a gas station on the way to camp, a girl came out of the bathroom and idk when i walked in the bathroom i could literally still see little chunks of some possibly cocaine on the back of the toilet. I mean i wasnt looking for it, but i saw it. And i caught myself like actually getting right down and looking at it and saying yep that is definitely cocaine. For some reason it was definitely kinda triggering, but when i got out to the truck it was just me and heather and i did tell her how it actually kinda triggered me. Other than that all is well, my old counselor from my half way house called and asked if i could come in and just share what its like being sober and working at the hospital. I was a little shocked but also very happy. Really enjoying my time with heather, she has been such a positive influence in my life and communicates everything to me. Its awesome and im very grateful. Much love everyone
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Hey all, checking in on day 1531. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Checking in 206 days sober from alcohol
My mood is not good, I am super agressive. Hormons kicking in.
Got fomo cause of my calm recovery life.
I know, first things first.
Starting the new job will need a lot of focus soon. And will bring new people, challenges and pov with it.
Everything under 365 is ābaby soberāā¦ In the meantime I understand why.
Would like to try only one challenge of trying something new. Going to the gym. I am not a gym girl until now, but we have a reeeal nice one round here and it is even pays via a credit every month for sports by my new employer. And this studio is cooperating with this system. Soā¦ Holy shit, why not giving it a try? 
Love you guys
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Checking in day 158.
Yesterday was the first time I have said out loud to people that āI donāt drinkā.
Context: I was picking up my son from daycare and the 3 ladies at the front desk were discussing which drink carrier to put in their raffle, a yeti or a stanley. I said I use a generic one and either brand would be fine. They then suggested a stubby cooler (a sleeve that goes over your drink to keep it colder while you drink it). One of them looked at me and said, you know, for beer, do you drink beer? It was the first time I felt comfortable and confident simply stating that I donāt drink. Cool feeling. The young girl who asked said āoh bummer!ā And one of the older ones congratulated me on the healthy choice. The naivety of the young one was sweet and she seemed genuinely upset her idea of a stubby cooler failed lol.
This evening, as Iāve typed āchecking in day 158ā, I stopped at day 1 and reflected on how far Iāve come, and how fast it has honestly felt. I donāt regret not drinking any of those days!
āNo regrets!ā Has a new meaning to me.
Have a great weekend everyone!
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I had a good laugh reading about you guys being locked in this church hallš
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Thank you i have about 3 years clean i us to put it all on my past use but now i canāt do that. I hope it fixes or helps me with alot
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Day 175
Laying in bed with the windows open, and a cool breeze is blowing through
my brotherās house as I sip coffee. Ahh. It feels like Fall, which is starting here soon. Iām having a great time, and have truly blown out the cobwebs of alcohol now.
Forced myself to go around downtown in heavy traffic, alone. Itās a fear of mine. Santa Fe is a mess of tourists and curvy one-way narrow streets. I have driving anxiety so it was a cold plunge! I acquired the anxiety while drinking. The fears of all kinds of things developed. Some are related to trauma. I respect that and wonāt push too hard. Just chip away. I didnāt want to miss my chance to smash down a wall. A six month smash! I have no issues with driving skills, I am just anxious. Ready to defeat that.
Brother is out walking the pup. Contractors coming so Iāll get out and run around some more. Weather is so gorgeous I never want to go home!
Enjoy your sober days
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