Day 47. My friend came today to visit me and he was stoned as f. He asked do I mind if he smokes some pot and I told him that I’m cool with it, I don’t mind. So, he smoked a spliff and I didn’t have any cravings at all. I’m proud of myself, my recovery really seems to work.
This day has been good, I took a long walk and ate healthy vegan food. Life seems good at the moment, gotta enjoy this feeling while it lasts.
Checking in! 
I’m just kicking off a week of holidays! Today work was ok, and I managed to get a lot of stuff done! Always a good way to start your holidays. I don’t have any specific plans, but I do need some kind of plan to keep busy, and not fall into old habits.
After two of my kitties died in the past 5 months, I’m thinking about adopting a new cat! I have already seen several options from a local shelter! We’ll see if I finally go for it! Moka seems quite happy to be the only child, and to be the spoilt one!
I finally didn’t meet my friend that came over, there weren’t too many options cause I was working, and finally I was honest; “I don’t feel like seeing anybody right now”. Seems she wasn’t mad and that I haven’t lost a friend! 
Aww thanks @Aussie_Tiger i like being someone’s “peeps”…… “big up the sobriety peep crew massive” 
Always appreciate your kind words. My mind sometimes makes me feel insane, this lifelong struggle combined with hiding it for years makes me feel crazy. Ive been transparent in the past, but how many times should you tell someone I’m looking at inappropriate images/videos, please don’t leave me! Please be patient with me, even tho I’m a lier and promised it was behind me… I’m just fighting you know.
Checking in day 236 AF 
Aww it’s so nice to hear you happy and buzzing about , im imagining this is you today 
Haha thats cute! Thank u for the smile friend 
Checking in… Day 8. Friday night was the hardest day yet. I didn’t give up though. I’m so blessed and proud.
Checking in with 879 days sober from alcohol.
I’ve definitely had a lot of moments this year with parenting stress, work stress and pressure from social outings were I felt the ‘fuck it’ moments. I so badly miss the numbing side of alcohol. Life can be so difficult and stress inducing and I still feel tempted to try and numb my feelings. I feel jealous of people that manage alcohol use, and I feel disconnected from the people at work, my friends that drink all the time. Cocktail recipes, bars, nights out. I have one friend at work that constantly tells me about all of the places he drinks every weekend, all the fun he is having. He knows I’m sober but doesn’t take it seriously and I can feel he is waiting for me to slip so I can join him drinking.
I play it forward in my head, all of the reasons I got sober. The wonderful things sobriety gives me. Good health, a clear mind, no guilt from overspending and over drinking, no hangovers, better relationships.
But the urge to drink in an alcohol soaked culture keeps me humble everyday 
Have a wonderful Sunday everyone.
I’m really sorry to hear about your mom, I’ve been there (my dad) and know how hard that is. I’m glad you’re back and caught yourself early. It’s good to see you back around TS.
@BrOKenWolf well done on 1000 days 
You’re in the elite 1000s club 
Hi Shay.
Welcome back love 
Llamicorn 
I’m hurt I wast tagged in on this 
Llamapoligies my friend!
Good morning sober fam 
Feeling a bit drained. Time for some meditation and workout!
I promise myself to give my best to be my best today 
Have as good a day or night as you can friend
Day 923
Have some really exciting news! Something that has become possible for me to do bcuz of recovery.
September is Childhood Cancer Awareness month and i was invited by other oncology moms to join the Childhood Cancer Awareness team that gives blood to help those in need. I dont know if the blood donated goes directly to a child who is needing blood due to cancer but either way what i donate will help someone. This event is happening on Sept 24 and i feel very blessed to be able to do this, especially since Childhood Cancer Awareness month is so close to my heart. I have been completely clean from all mind altering susbtances for some time now and so I feel really good about giving back. So blessed to be in recovery! 
@Tragicfarinelli Sleep…so many of our’s nemesis. I’m lucky if I’m blessed with a good night’s sleep once a month! My room is pitch black, I even cover my clock. I use a high velocity fan or else I hear every little noise. Plus, I’m used to wearing ear plugs after 18 years of snoring boyfriends and tried going without but can’t now, and I still hear noises! Sorry for the rant, but I feel you girl 
@Bluekoolaid I’ve really been enjoying your posts lately. So inspiring and uplifting. Positivity can really take you far 
You’re definitely keeping to the right track 
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Well, last night actually may have been my good nights sleep for the month. I don’t remember the last time I was so tired I immediately went to bed after work. Lucky too, bc I worked all day today, and to say it was a shitshow would be a massive understatement 
The details don’t matter, except that I didn’t get to sit down once in 11 hours. Ugh…but I got thru it, it’s over. Just one more shift before a day of rest and I can finally start thinking about back to school stuff. I’ve done nothing yet, but I’ve had no time to worry so it’s all good 
I know I’ll get it done. I’m feeling a bit disconnected here, but the need for sleep is greater than the need for connection at the moment. I’ll soon have much more time to catch up 
Have a great 24 everyone!
This is something I have experienced and still do, and it’s very annoying. Like, you’re working your ass off to stay on track, and people have no clue what it’s taking you. I always think “hopefully in a near future you won’t be waking in my shoes”…
@Laner thank you
@Shel75 well done for posting here instead of drinking 
@Jesile I’m sorry for the loss of your two kitties 
and congrats on sticking to your boundaries
@Courtni congrats on your week+ 
Fridays will soon become just another day they were very hard for me at first too.
@Bluekoolaid that all sounds really hopeful 
1475 days no alcohol.
940 days no cocaine.
455 days no vape.
28 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Not much to update since I only posted my check-in at 4pm yesterday afternoon. I woke up early, have caught-up here, now I will read a chapter of the book I’m reading, then take it from there.
Enjoy the rest of your sober weekends
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@Courtni well done one week down , I always feel a bit funny the night before a milestone but you’ve got your first Friday night done and you should be proud of you
@Bluekoolaid that sounds amazing I’ll put you in my prayers
@Butterflymoonwoman so glad you can give something back
@Just_Laura i remember those days being a chef it’s relentless 
get that sleep in while you can …