Checking in day 236 AF 
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Aww itās so nice to hear you happy and buzzing about , im imagining this is you today 
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Thanks so much bro and thanks for the positive words. Going to stay on this path no matter what. Little by little my life will continue to improve
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Haha thats cute! Thank u for the smile friend 
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Thank you jasmineā¦ I definitely been writing positive writings in my notes on my phone to read when I feel discouraged. I guess itās all about learning to live life on lifeās terms. Itās a way better life sober and Iām taking steps to not have to go back to my old life.
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Checking inā¦ Day 8. Friday night was the hardest day yet. I didnāt give up though. Iām so blessed and proud.
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Checking in with 879 days sober from alcohol.
Iāve definitely had a lot of moments this year with parenting stress, work stress and pressure from social outings were I felt the āfuck itā moments. I so badly miss the numbing side of alcohol. Life can be so difficult and stress inducing and I still feel tempted to try and numb my feelings. I feel jealous of people that manage alcohol use, and I feel disconnected from the people at work, my friends that drink all the time. Cocktail recipes, bars, nights out. I have one friend at work that constantly tells me about all of the places he drinks every weekend, all the fun he is having. He knows Iām sober but doesnāt take it seriously and I can feel he is waiting for me to slip so I can join him drinking.
I play it forward in my head, all of the reasons I got sober. The wonderful things sobriety gives me. Good health, a clear mind, no guilt from overspending and over drinking, no hangovers, better relationships.
But the urge to drink in an alcohol soaked culture keeps me humble everyday 
Have a wonderful Sunday everyone.
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Iām really sorry to hear about your mom, Iāve been there (my dad) and know how hard that is. Iām glad youāre back and caught yourself early. Itās good to see you back around TS.
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Hi Shay.
Welcome back love 
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Llamicorn 
Iām hurt I wast tagged in on this 
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Llamapoligies my friend!
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Got some possible good news todayā¦ The sober living house I stay at has apartments across the street and once you been here a certain amount of time and move up the list your eligible to move over there. Your supposed to be here a year before that happens but so many people have come and gone that Iām already next on the list and there is 2 open apartments. Management is going to make a decision Monday as to if Iām going to be able to move over there. I would have my own 1 bed room apartment with a kitchen and my own bathroom. I would still have to go to the 2 mandatory meetings a week at the house and of course pay rent and maintain full time employment. Iām trying to not get my hopes up but itās a very good possibility this is happening in the next few days. Iām more excited about getting better sleep as of not being in the actual sober living I share a room with 4 people. So I would sleep better at the apartment. I also would have better availability for my job as I wouldnāt have a curfew. But to be honest besides work there is no reason for me to be going out past 10pm and I wonāt if this happens. I also could be able to cook my own food and this would be awesome because Iāve been wanting to improve my diet and experiment with a semi vegetarian diet ā¦ more greens and vegetables. My diet over the years has been a lot of junk, fast food , TV dinners and I know itās done a number on my well being. Having my own kitchen and being able to explore healthier eating would be awesome. As much as this has me thinking I might be distracted till I find out if I move over there Iām trying to stay grounded and in today. If itās supposed to happen then it will. Other then that just made it through a busy day at the restaurant. We had a lot of reservations and catering orders but me and the other dishwasher knocked it out and we work together really well. I did my meeting after work and stayed a little after to talk to some other alcoholics and Iām getting better with the social anxiety with exposure therapy. I donāt get over my fears unless I face them. Iām pretty much done for the day and now just meditating on my life and very grateful. Not to long ago I was sitting in jail and terrified not knowing if I was even going home any time soon and worried about my life and how was I going to escape this madness I been living in for a decade. Institutions and rehabs and detoxes , hospitals , homelessness, jail . I been living like this for to long and it feels good to be living the right way and getting into a routine for once in my life that doesnāt involve my next drink or drug. Iām very grateful. I donāt think Iām on a pink cloud because Iām not saying I donāt have bad days but I know Iām learning from my past and Iām optimistic for the future. Still dealing with some fears but it will get better with time. Thatās about all for now. Going to read around here some more and then chill out for the rest of the night. Love you all !!
-Trevor
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Good morning sober fam 
Feeling a bit drained. Time for some meditation and workout!
I promise myself to give my best to be my best today 
Have as good a day or night as you can friend
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Day 923
Have some really exciting news! Something that has become possible for me to do bcuz of recovery.
September is Childhood Cancer Awareness month and i was invited by other oncology moms to join the Childhood Cancer Awareness team that gives blood to help those in need. I dont know if the blood donated goes directly to a child who is needing blood due to cancer but either way what i donate will help someone. This event is happening on Sept 24 and i feel very blessed to be able to do this, especially since Childhood Cancer Awareness month is so close to my heart. I have been completely clean from all mind altering susbtances for some time now and so I feel really good about giving back. So blessed to be in recovery! 
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@Tragicfarinelli Sleepā¦so many of ourās nemesis. Iām lucky if Iām blessed with a good nightās sleep once a month! My room is pitch black, I even cover my clock. I use a high velocity fan or else I hear every little noise. Plus, Iām used to wearing ear plugs after 18 years of snoring boyfriends and tried going without but canāt now, and I still hear noises! Sorry for the rant, but I feel you girl 
@Bluekoolaid Iāve really been enjoying your posts lately. So inspiring and uplifting. Positivity can really take you far 
Youāre definitely keeping to the right track 
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Well, last night actually may have been my good nights sleep for the month. I donāt remember the last time I was so tired I immediately went to bed after work. Lucky too, bc I worked all day today, and to say it was a shitshow would be a massive understatement 
The details donāt matter, except that I didnāt get to sit down once in 11 hours. Ughā¦but I got thru it, itās over. Just one more shift before a day of rest and I can finally start thinking about back to school stuff. Iāve done nothing yet, but Iāve had no time to worry so itās all good 
I know Iāll get it done. Iām feeling a bit disconnected here, but the need for sleep is greater than the need for connection at the moment. Iāll soon have much more time to catch up 
Have a great 24 everyone!
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This is why me and my varicose veins do not miss working in restaurants/catering! 
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This is something I have experienced and still do, and itās very annoying. Like, youāre working your ass off to stay on track, and people have no clue what itās taking you. I always think āhopefully in a near future you wonāt be waking in my shoesāā¦
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@Laner thank you
@Shel75 well done for posting here instead of drinking 
@Jesile Iām sorry for the loss of your two kitties 
and congrats on sticking to your boundaries
@Courtni congrats on your week+ 
Fridays will soon become just another day they were very hard for me at first too.
@Bluekoolaid that all sounds really hopeful 
1475 days no alcohol.
940 days no cocaine.
455 days no vape.
28 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Not much to update since I only posted my check-in at 4pm yesterday afternoon. I woke up early, have caught-up here, now I will read a chapter of the book Iām reading, then take it from there.
Enjoy the rest of your sober weekends
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@Courtni well done one week down , I always feel a bit funny the night before a milestone but youāve got your first Friday night done and you should be proud of you
@Bluekoolaid that sounds amazing Iāll put you in my prayers
@Butterflymoonwoman so glad you can give something back
@Just_Laura i remember those days being a chef itās relentless 
get that sleep in while you can ā¦
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