Day 685
Depressed and exhausted…
But another day down.
Needing ideas for “experience” gifts for my daughters 15th birthday. She doesn’t want a physical gift …
But I’m struggling to just make it through the day and can’t think of anything
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I’m still reflecting on the emdr session I did Friday. Wrote about it yesterday, and posted that in the lounge, sorry for those that want but can’t read it. But it’s bloody personal so it needs a little bit of protection. Writing helps. Did have a good night’s rest and now not quite sure what to do this Sunday, but something will pop up, either at home or outside. Or both. One more week before my vacation starts
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Dinner with sis and her youngest was nice last night. We both decided to invest more time and effort into our own neighbourhoods (we live in adjacent ones). I used to be so centred on the city center but it has become too touristy, too busy, too Venice like. In the morning it’s OK. After that it’s not. Our own neighbourhoods are still very nice and mixed.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing else will come of. Love. Pic is the bathhouse-turned-restaurant close to my sis’ place.
@Laner Hoping today is better Laner. But good days and bad ones, drinking never helps. Well you know. Let’s keep reminding ourselves of that fact.
@CATMANCAM Enjoy your book. Screw the scammers. 
@Butterflymoonwoman Thanks Dana, thanks for being here and thanks for being the awesome person you are
@Kareness Good work for standing up for yourself and your worth. Hugs.
@MrMoustache No smoking in my place. They’re free to go onto the balcony and smoke there. Anyway, what works for you. Congrats on your days.
@Jesile Have a great week Jenny! Enjoy your time, which indeed is YOUR time!!!
@Bluekoolaid Great news Trevor! Fingers crossed it all works out and you’ll have your own place. Would be great you get to cook for yourself and have your own space.
@Scorpn Always good to see you check in friend. Here’s hoping you have the opportunity to rest a bit. Big hugs.
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I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 179.
My 14 y/o have a tendency to snow in on things as we say here. Not uncommon with autistic kids.
His current obsession is native American culture, a lot of it thanks to the wonderful kids show Spirit Rangers.
Yesterday he tried to invoke the wakiya the thunderbirds. By playing a special kind of music and do a dance he learned from a girl on youtube who teach native american dances.
To his big surprise it actually worked, and we had a huge thunderstorm during the night, with extreme wind and hail.
So now he is even more convinced that he is indeed somehow related to the native Americans.
I know we’re at least part gypsies, but there’s no documents in the world to prove it. They all got burned in a fire when my grandmother was young.
And I guess if people can say that they have “Gypsy blood” or a “gypsy heart” “gypsy soul” or whatever that’s trending on social Media, he could probably say that he has a native soul. Until next obsession.
We never made it to the pool yesterday, my husband couldn’t fit in his bathing shorts anymore. The boys got to choose what they wanted to do instead, and they choose the cheese store. I decided that we’re going to the pool next weekend with or without bathing shorts for my husband 
Going to clear my closet of summer clothes today and bring out all the awesome fall items. I might have ordered a new fall sweater, and a Christmas sweater as well two days ago.
Kjp (Kiel James Patrick) dupe from Temu.
Doesn’t matter if it’s a Temu copy or the real deal since they don’t make their own sweaters in U.S anymore, they’re all imported and according to the homepage reviews the quality is about the same. Over here I’m pretty much the only one who knows that the brand even exist so I’m good with my copy’s.
Then there’s of course an ethical aspects of Temu in general. But even H&M makes their clothes in unethical ways. So I guess fashion will be unethical no matter how you try. It’s sad.
And I rather spend money on items that’ll last more than one season than buying anything from H&M. (Had my last fall sweaters which I bought the same way for years now)
Besides that we’re starting to plan for the Trunk or Treat. No politics involved since we didn’t hear a word from the city hall after the first discussion and they haven’t returned or emails. Which is the only way to contact them. So we’re doing it without them.
Gonna give myself this week off as well, and then I plan to start writing when school should have started for me at Sept. 1st.
And we’re going to start the renovations of the boys room so they’ll sleep in the living room this week.
That’s all Folks 
Wishing y’all a wonderful day.
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Up early on Sunday to get ready for my daughter’s tournament today. She was put into a bracket with kids 2 years older. She came 2nd and definitely gave the eventual winner a hard time. Was really proud of her effort.
After that we went out for lunch. Once home the stress of the morning for me caught up and I had a little afternoon nap haha.
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Hi Dana,
Thank you lovely lady, loving see your numbers rack up too. I remember your struggles and early relapses as you got closer and closer to the 30 then 50 day mark etc etc, now you’re way up there closing in on 4 digits yourself and I am immensely proud of you.
Always knew that once you dug your heels in and grit your teeth you’d break those barriers and continue your journey.
Lovely to see you smashing them.
Sending much love your way as always x
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Day 195
Stormy Sunday night check in. Busy weekend. Awesome sober Kublai Khan concert last night. Felt so good to experience an amazing gig sober. Some serious weather this evening.
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- The sun is back! I’m planning a day of chores (service makes me happy). Including gardening and some house DIY for my mother in law. Will probably take a solo walk out of the valley up into the village. Have a good 24 all. The earplugs helped last night, and sleep improves me as a person massively.
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@Seb Nice shot. Really great colors.
@MrFantastik What sport does your daughter compete in?
@MrsOdh Curious to see what you’ll come up writing about.
@Mno Enjoy your lazy sunday. Some downtime is always in order.
@Scorpn Sorry to hear you are so exhausted. When I was so sick before one of my daughter’s birthday I just asked her if it was ok to postpone her gift. She was very understanding. Your daughter is 15. She will surely understand that her parent needs to recover first.
@Just_Laura Hoping you get your time to recover. Working for 11 hours sounds quite insane. Take care. We will be here when you feel better.
@Butterflymoonwoman Thanks for sharing about your new opportunity to give back. These are the kinds of gifts we get in recovery you cannot put into a pamphlet 
@Bluekoolaid Thank you for sharing Trevor. It really is great to read about your recovery journey, the insights you gained and the changes in your life 
Fingers crossed the appartment works out. 
But I think if you stay on your path you will move to a different living situation anyways. If not this week, then at some other point.
@Tyland Don’t let your thoughts bother you too much. They will never obey you. Just let them do their stuff and you do your stuff. It’s a bit like digestion. You put stuff in, the system does something and you keep at your life without obsessing over every burp or fart 
@Alycia Congrats on your huge sober time! My personal experience is that if I actually crave my DOC in order to deal with life’s stress on a regular basis, I need to up my recovery game. Meaning I need to use or find different tools to deal with life. All human beings experience all kinds of pain, discomfort, stress and tragedies. But there are more and less skillful means to deal with being human. Addiction and every kind of drug are one of the less skillful ones, ones that will just add suffering to whatever is already happening. I believe it’s not enough to stay abstinent and sober but I myself need to build a different approach to life. So maybe you could use or learn new tools as well?
277 days no sugar
141 UPF
15 gluten
15 dairy
0 compulsive eating
Did my run, already feeling good. When those hormonal waves hit I find it sometimes hard to reason properly. This morning it worked and I realized that although I am feeling all kinds of discomforts while running I would be feeling them if I was sitting on the sofa the same. But compared with the sofa a run brings me so much benefit. So yay for running, and yay for brain working at the crucial moment. I hope this view holds for the afternoon when I have yoga planned.
There was a storm last night and the cooled down significantly. Today I’m going to do my weekly review, maybe a short bike trip, some yoga and Recovery Dharma in the evening.
Let’s keep our hearts and minds open for today friends 
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Morning check-in! 
I’ve started my day with a 7K walk. I hadn’t been for a walk since Monday, so it was about time to get my butt moving. My plan is to walk every day during my week of holidays. 
I’ve just started listening to a new suspense audio book, which seems quite cool. Breakfast and shower time for me now!
Have a good day everyone!
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@acromouse Hopefully you were able to nap yesterday 
and are feeling more energized today.
Yeah to running and rewiring the mind…I am same way. Have fun with yoga.
Keep working your recovery friend…it won’t be long. 
@CATMANCAM ah that sounds awful…I’m sorry friend. These scammers are the absolute most horrific people. I do hope you are able to get your money back. Sorry that the therapy session was hard and you were triggered but super proud of how you curbed the binge with finding something else to do. Hope you were able to rest and regain some energy 
@Kareness it’s hard to leave behind engrained learning. I’m sorry your brother has made you feel this way. Glad you are seeing it for the lies it is and are seeing your worth. In these times especially - everyone is raising rates and prices and it is necessary to survive with the increasing inflation. Wishing you the Best
@Shel75 that is one nasty tricky disease ee have. Grateful you did not give in. We don’t need to relax by poisoning ourselves. Into healthier better living
@Jesile glad you were able to be honest with your friend. She may be upset but I’m sure she will understand and get over it eventually. I had to have a similar conversation with my cousin and I’m grateful that I put myself first.
@SelfLove_42 I’m sorry friend…I know how hard it is to really want to move past the addiction and truly have the best intentions but finding yourself back on day 1. Don’t give up. Keep working your recovery…re-read your thread and your own words may help you stay focused when the urges hit.
@Courtni sorry yesterday was rough but grateful you got through it and are 1+ weeks into your recovery… keep going…it gets easier
@Alycia grateful that you do play the tape forward. The alcohol infused culture is so strong and makes it seem so normal. I have to remind myself that it’s literal poison and the numbness I crave is not going to come easy. It is also a mental hold from the addiction mind that we liked that numb feeling. We were functioning walking zombies. Your coworker sounds like a right ass… Sorry you have to hear his stories and romanticizing drinking. Keep strong my friend…you are crushing it!
@Bluekoolaid oh that’s great news…hope it does work out for you. Have fun with the diet…so many awesome recipes to play with 
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@Butterflymoonwoman that’s awesome friend… grateful they have this and that you are able to donate
@Scorpn I’m sorry you are feeling so low. Hopefully you are recovering from Covid and are now negative …I know the fatigue from it can last for a very long time. I will try to think of ideas for a gift. Have you gotten a schedule from your new employer? Rest up my friend. Sending energy and healing vibes your way
@Mno sorry the session still has you reeling with thoughts and emotions. Hope today is better my friend
Good morning my sober peeps… happy Sunday 
I fell asleep around 5:30 last night and had the best deep sleep in a long time. Up super early today and all the symptoms are back but I don’t feel like a zombie… loving the day ahead and feeling a new.
Hope you all have a fabulous addiction free day… sending you all so much love
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Day 284. Work and tomorrow off, broke my new unicyle:( tried climbing up a hill that was out of my skill range and the unicyle took a pretty hard hit which shorted the controller. Luckily the company i baught it from is sending out a new controller tomorrow to replace it. All is well otherwise. Idk much love everyone
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Day 233 AF
Did a mow yesterday and wife left to go to work for the night…
Did I use that excuse to grab a bottle and have a drinky night to myself?
Hell no!!
Jumped on bike after a shower and headed out for an amazing 4.5 hour tour on a beautiful afternoon/evening. It felt so good to be out riding, not even thinking of getting home to start my night of drinking. Just enjoy the time with no plans to rush to be anywhere. Just be in the moment and ride. It’s probably one of the best feelings I’ve had since I began this journey… it just set in, to be there, in the moment. Not thinking of anything but the now!
I was in total peace
Man I love sobriety
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Hey all, checking in on day 1533. I hope everybody has a good one 
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Day 3
No shopping
Day 7
No binge eating
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Amazing picture!
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143 days sober
Todays been better. I didn’t set an alarm and just let myself sleep as long as I needed and I slept long and deep! I still had higher anxiety today but I don’t feel as bad as yesterday. I had a long hike in the morning which felt great. Then I was booked to go to the bath house to do sauna and bathe but unfortunately they double booked on me so I came home. I put some buckets out to sit in the sun then had a bucket bath. Not as satisfying but I’m clean.
Later I went to my friends for coffee and then stayed for dinner. We had a good time together. Was glad to be social today.
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The story about your son made me smile. I lived on a Native American reservation until my parents died as part of the Mi’kmaq tribe. Unfortunately I was moved out after going into foster care but I was always proud of this heritage and as an adult I went back and learned what I could about where I came from.
Good for him learning about and being interested in other cultures! So glad he got his thunderstorm!
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Day 924
Morning TS fam! How is everyone today? Im currently at work for another shift. Had a pretty deep sleep last night and woke up feeling groggy but managed to get out the door on time for me to grab an extra coffee 
Not much else happening today. Hope u all have a fantastic day! 
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