@BrOKenWolf well done on 1000 days 
Youāre in the elite 1000s club 
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Hi Shay.
Welcome back love 
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Llamicorn 
Iām hurt I wast tagged in on this 
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Out fishing trying to think about everything nothing but fishing 
but its not working ugh
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Llamapoligies my friend!
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180
Got some possible good news todayā¦ The sober living house I stay at has apartments across the street and once you been here a certain amount of time and move up the list your eligible to move over there. Your supposed to be here a year before that happens but so many people have come and gone that Iām already next on the list and there is 2 open apartments. Management is going to make a decision Monday as to if Iām going to be able to move over there. I would have my own 1 bed room apartment with a kitchen and my own bathroom. I would still have to go to the 2 mandatory meetings a week at the house and of course pay rent and maintain full time employment. Iām trying to not get my hopes up but itās a very good possibility this is happening in the next few days. Iām more excited about getting better sleep as of not being in the actual sober living I share a room with 4 people. So I would sleep better at the apartment. I also would have better availability for my job as I wouldnāt have a curfew. But to be honest besides work there is no reason for me to be going out past 10pm and I wonāt if this happens. I also could be able to cook my own food and this would be awesome because Iāve been wanting to improve my diet and experiment with a semi vegetarian diet ā¦ more greens and vegetables. My diet over the years has been a lot of junk, fast food , TV dinners and I know itās done a number on my well being. Having my own kitchen and being able to explore healthier eating would be awesome. As much as this has me thinking I might be distracted till I find out if I move over there Iām trying to stay grounded and in today. If itās supposed to happen then it will. Other then that just made it through a busy day at the restaurant. We had a lot of reservations and catering orders but me and the other dishwasher knocked it out and we work together really well. I did my meeting after work and stayed a little after to talk to some other alcoholics and Iām getting better with the social anxiety with exposure therapy. I donāt get over my fears unless I face them. Iām pretty much done for the day and now just meditating on my life and very grateful. Not to long ago I was sitting in jail and terrified not knowing if I was even going home any time soon and worried about my life and how was I going to escape this madness I been living in for a decade. Institutions and rehabs and detoxes , hospitals , homelessness, jail . I been living like this for to long and it feels good to be living the right way and getting into a routine for once in my life that doesnāt involve my next drink or drug. Iām very grateful. I donāt think Iām on a pink cloud because Iām not saying I donāt have bad days but I know Iām learning from my past and Iām optimistic for the future. Still dealing with some fears but it will get better with time. Thatās about all for now. Going to read around here some more and then chill out for the rest of the night. Love you all !!
-Trevor
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Good morning sober fam 
Feeling a bit drained. Time for some meditation and workout!
I promise myself to give my best to be my best today 
Have as good a day or night as you can friend
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Day 923
Have some really exciting news! Something that has become possible for me to do bcuz of recovery.
September is Childhood Cancer Awareness month and i was invited by other oncology moms to join the Childhood Cancer Awareness team that gives blood to help those in need. I dont know if the blood donated goes directly to a child who is needing blood due to cancer but either way what i donate will help someone. This event is happening on Sept 24 and i feel very blessed to be able to do this, especially since Childhood Cancer Awareness month is so close to my heart. I have been completely clean from all mind altering susbtances for some time now and so I feel really good about giving back. So blessed to be in recovery! 
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@Tragicfarinelli Sleepā¦so many of ourās nemesis. Iām lucky if Iām blessed with a good nightās sleep once a month! My room is pitch black, I even cover my clock. I use a high velocity fan or else I hear every little noise. Plus, Iām used to wearing ear plugs after 18 years of snoring boyfriends and tried going without but canāt now, and I still hear noises! Sorry for the rant, but I feel you girl 
@Bluekoolaid Iāve really been enjoying your posts lately. So inspiring and uplifting. Positivity can really take you far 
Youāre definitely keeping to the right track 
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Well, last night actually may have been my good nights sleep for the month. I donāt remember the last time I was so tired I immediately went to bed after work. Lucky too, bc I worked all day today, and to say it was a shitshow would be a massive understatement 
The details donāt matter, except that I didnāt get to sit down once in 11 hours. Ughā¦but I got thru it, itās over. Just one more shift before a day of rest and I can finally start thinking about back to school stuff. Iāve done nothing yet, but Iāve had no time to worry so itās all good 
I know Iāll get it done. Iām feeling a bit disconnected here, but the need for sleep is greater than the need for connection at the moment. Iāll soon have much more time to catch up 
Have a great 24 everyone!
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This is why me and my varicose veins do not miss working in restaurants/catering! 
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This is something I have experienced and still do, and itās very annoying. Like, youāre working your ass off to stay on track, and people have no clue what itās taking you. I always think āhopefully in a near future you wonāt be waking in my shoesāā¦
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@Laner thank you 
@Shel75 well done for posting here instead of drinking 
@Jesile Iām sorry for the loss of your two kitties 
and congrats on sticking to your boundaries
@Courtni congrats on your week+ 
Fridays will soon become just another day they were very hard for me at first too.
@Bluekoolaid that all sounds really hopeful 
1475 days no alcohol.
940 days no cocaine.
455 days no vape.
28 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Not much to update since I only posted my check-in at 4pm yesterday afternoon. I woke up early, have caught-up here, now I will read a chapter of the book Iām reading, then take it from there.
Enjoy the rest of your sober weekends
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@Courtni well done one week down , I always feel a bit funny the night before a milestone but youāve got your first Friday night done and you should be proud of you
@Bluekoolaid that sounds amazing Iāll put you in my prayers
@Butterflymoonwoman so glad you can give something back
@Just_Laura i remember those days being a chef itās relentless 
get that sleep in while you can ā¦
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Day 685
Depressed and exhaustedā¦
But another day down.
Needing ideas for āexperienceā gifts for my daughters 15th birthday. She doesnāt want a physical gift ā¦
But Iām struggling to just make it through the day and canāt think of anything
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1905
Iām still reflecting on the emdr session I did Friday. Wrote about it yesterday, and posted that in the lounge, sorry for those that want but canāt read it. But itās bloody personal so it needs a little bit of protection. Writing helps. Did have a good nightās rest and now not quite sure what to do this Sunday, but something will pop up, either at home or outside. Or both. One more week before my vacation starts
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Dinner with sis and her youngest was nice last night. We both decided to invest more time and effort into our own neighbourhoods (we live in adjacent ones). I used to be so centred on the city center but it has become too touristy, too busy, too Venice like. In the morning itās OK. After that itās not. Our own neighbourhoods are still very nice and mixed.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing else will come of. Love. Pic is the bathhouse-turned-restaurant close to my sisā place.
@Laner Hoping today is better Laner. But good days and bad ones, drinking never helps. Well you know. Letās keep reminding ourselves of that fact.
@CATMANCAM Enjoy your book. Screw the scammers.
@Butterflymoonwoman Thanks Dana, thanks for being here and thanks for being the awesome person you are
@Kareness Good work for standing up for yourself and your worth. Hugs.
@MrMoustache No smoking in my place. Theyāre free to go onto the balcony and smoke there. Anyway, what works for you. Congrats on your days.
@Jesile Have a great week Jenny! Enjoy your time, which indeed is YOUR time!!!
@Bluekoolaid Great news Trevor! Fingers crossed it all works out and youāll have your own place. Would be great you get to cook for yourself and have your own space.
@Scorpn Always good to see you check in friend. Hereās hoping you have the opportunity to rest a bit. Big hugs.
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Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 179.
My 14 y/o have a tendency to snow in on things as we say here. Not uncommon with autistic kids.
His current obsession is native American culture, a lot of it thanks to the wonderful kids show Spirit Rangers.
Yesterday he tried to invoke the wakiya the thunderbirds. By playing a special kind of music and do a dance he learned from a girl on youtube who teach native american dances.
To his big surprise it actually worked, and we had a huge thunderstorm during the night, with extreme wind and hail.
So now he is even more convinced that he is indeed somehow related to the native Americans.
I know weāre at least part gypsies, but thereās no documents in the world to prove it. They all got burned in a fire when my grandmother was young.
And I guess if people can say that they have āGypsy bloodā or a āgypsy heartā āgypsy soulā or whatever thatās trending on social Media, he could probably say that he has a native soul. Until next obsession.
We never made it to the pool yesterday, my husband couldnāt fit in his bathing shorts anymore. The boys got to choose what they wanted to do instead, and they choose the cheese store. I decided that weāre going to the pool next weekend with or without bathing shorts for my husband 
Going to clear my closet of summer clothes today and bring out all the awesome fall items. I might have ordered a new fall sweater, and a Christmas sweater as well two days ago.
Kjp (Kiel James Patrick) dupe from Temu.
Doesnāt matter if itās a Temu copy or the real deal since they donāt make their own sweaters in U.S anymore, theyāre all imported and according to the homepage reviews the quality is about the same. Over here Iām pretty much the only one who knows that the brand even exist so Iām good with my copyās.
Then thereās of course an ethical aspects of Temu in general. But even H&M makes their clothes in unethical ways. So I guess fashion will be unethical no matter how you try. Itās sad.
And I rather spend money on items thatāll last more than one season than buying anything from H&M. (Had my last fall sweaters which I bought the same way for years now)
Besides that weāre starting to plan for the Trunk or Treat. No politics involved since we didnāt hear a word from the city hall after the first discussion and they havenāt returned or emails. Which is the only way to contact them. So weāre doing it without them.
Gonna give myself this week off as well, and then I plan to start writing when school should have started for me at Sept. 1st.
And weāre going to start the renovations of the boys room so theyāll sleep in the living room this week.
Thatās all Folks 
Wishing yāall a wonderful day.
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267 days
Up early on Sunday to get ready for my daughterās tournament today. She was put into a bracket with kids 2 years older. She came 2nd and definitely gave the eventual winner a hard time. Was really proud of her effort.
After that we went out for lunch. Once home the stress of the morning for me caught up and I had a little afternoon nap haha.
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Hi Dana,
Thank you lovely lady, loving see your numbers rack up too. I remember your struggles and early relapses as you got closer and closer to the 30 then 50 day mark etc etc, now youāre way up there closing in on 4 digits yourself and I am immensely proud of you.
Always knew that once you dug your heels in and grit your teeth youād break those barriers and continue your journey.
Lovely to see you smashing them.
Sending much love your way as always x
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Day 195
Stormy Sunday night check in. Busy weekend. Awesome sober Kublai Khan concert last night. Felt so good to experience an amazing gig sober. Some serious weather this evening.
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- The sun is back! Iām planning a day of chores (service makes me happy). Including gardening and some house DIY for my mother in law. Will probably take a solo walk out of the valley up into the village. Have a good 24 all. The earplugs helped last night, and sleep improves me as a person massively.
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