@JazzyS day 5. I started to draw today and to be calmer although my mood have ups and downs
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@tailee17 ah man Iām sorry friendā¦ all 5 were knocked over? Hope itās not malicious and just crazy mother nature. Hope you were able to salvage the plants
@Alicat22 10 days and stacking up the daysā¦that crappy mood and wanting you to want wine is your addition saying that is how you need to cope. Way to not give in and stay on track
Huhā¦thatās interesting. Glad you are starting to feel better
@Timetochange way to go on not giving in to the urge! ODAAT 
@Mischa84 ah man Iām sorry friend. Fatigue is so crippling at times and it sucks when the watch literally tells you how low your body battery is and how stressed you are. It is nice to see the numbers improving. I do hope that you are able to find a good rhythm and get some rest so you can see the numbers improving 
@Seb congratulations on your 200 days!!! Thatās awesome work 
ā¦ keep going strong my friend
@Bomdhil oooh day 5 is great Thomas. I do love thatvyou have started to draw. Just saw your latest piece on the art thread. Very powerful! Loved it friend. Hope it helps you release your blah mood. The ups and downs are normalā¦itās how we learn to deal with them- a major part of our journey
Had a few long naps and still feeling drained. Have a major migraine. Did manage to spend time with my aunt and she wanted to play chess. Canāt believe I played an hour game and wonā¦kinda feel good about that but need to shut down lol
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free dayā¦ sending you all so much love
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@SoberWalker and @CATMANCAM okay hereās my payment of the doggie tax 
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That is a good boy. Sometimes you can just tell. 
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I joined here a while back . Just saw my last visit was almost 3 yrs ago. I did well for a while but Iām back again. Iām super excited to see a bunch of your are still here offering support still. I see at least 3 names I remember being helpful just quickly looking at the chat. Itās day 5!
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Way to go on your 200 days!!!
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Struggling tonight, feeling very depressed and low and empty. Feels like any time i finally get a break in life and find something positive or find happiness, itās always taken away from me, or thereās always a catch. Feels like thereās lead in my heart.
Drinking some non-alcoholic wine. Dont know what else to do with myself right now, just kinda wanna sit here and dissociate and be sad. I donāt even want to eat which is crazy because i always have an appetite, even when Iām sad.
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Iām sorry youāre feeling so low tonight. 
We are here for you. Hopefully things will look better in the morning.
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@zzz I love Remi Gaillard! I randomly saw his kangaroo skit(while searching for actual kangaroo videos) and had to find more 
Heās great!
Like this?! 
@Mischa84 Idk if this is the answer, but when you first mentioned your symptoms(eyes specifically), I immediately thought allergies. Since being sober, Iāve realized I seem to be allergic to alot more than I originally thought and learned about the vast sea of symptoms. Joint pain and fatigue surprised me, but definitely made sense once it lined up with other symptoms and pollen counts. Just a thought
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So tired today. I woke up to no electricity, but apparently it had been off for 45 minutes. Weird bc I usually wake right up when my fan or other white noise making machines shut off. My daughter went upstairs after breakfast and I layed back down. For 3 hours!!! I dreamt I was at work, but instead of having a bar, it was like a diner and I was the only one working(surprising) I had to serve, bus, and cook everything! It was a literal nightmare 
Then I get to actual work and everyone is already in a shit mood. At the end of the night, everyone was venting about the boss and most are on their last straw. For 8 years Iāve always (mostly) looked forward to going to work. This 9th year, Iāve dreaded it. Those with a few years agree. Theyāre all saying itās not worth it anymore. Sheās gonna run that place into the ground and idk if Iāll be there to see it 
Not gonna worry about it right now tho, the slow seasonās coming!
Grateful the thought of drinking has become a nonexistent solution to anything 
If I was still drinking, thingās would be BAD right now. I donāt think I could ever do that to myself again. Nah. Eff that. Not worth it.
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Stay strong. A slip will not help in any way, Iāve been there so many times.
Consider getting out for a walk or whatever else is your go to when things are tough. Donāt stew on this for hours & hours
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Iām 5 days and 280 posts behind on this thread! Itās been a busy week. Met for coffee today with a woman I am going to start sponsoring - thatās the big news of the day. Have a good evening/morning!
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Thank you Drew! 
He just got past the cutie tax too!!
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Thatās great news Karen! Hope it works out wonders for the both of you.
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7 months sober checking in
Sometimes I think, my life is boring. I am recovering and doing āboringā routines.
Next week I will start my new job, what means a whole new world opens and it will be a bit exhausting in the beginning. Happy to have my āboringā routines to go back too.
I wish I could work a bit more on socializing and I would love to build up a healthy relationship again. But first, I will go on strengthening the relationship with myself more. It already changed a lot. I recently learned that we are already wonderful, just as we are. And that all these thoughts of not being okay keeps us away from our true nature and de-pressing it. When these feelings are coming up I am aware that this pattern is activated. And able to step out. Out of the negative self talk bus, back into pure nature. Practicing.
Love you guys
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Welcome back and well done for day 5 
How are you feeling?
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I think you are growing a lot mentally Julia, good to hear you feel it too yourself.
For me the most of the change came after more then 1 year sober so there is a whole lot more in store for you I feel 
Congratulations for the 
months milestone
Happy to be the first to congratulate you!
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Congratulations on 7 months. Letās do this Juli!
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Ahwww thank you Claudia 
This makes me excited about the further journey 
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Thank you sweet friend
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