Day 930
Its been a looong day. Im so glad its almost over. Work just took forever to end and then on the way home i started not to feel so well. I felt like i was going to pass out in this heat so i slowed down my pace and even leaned up against the building a couple times when walking home. I think i was just hungry and dehydrated bcuz i feel better after eating and drinking loads of water.
I did some tidying up, had a shower, and then realized that there was something wrong with my nose. Ive always had issues with my nose and idk if these issues were caused from past drug use or what but i noticed something concerning with my left nostril today. I can barely breathe thru it and now i can see an issue with the inside of my nose. Its a bit concerning. Im making a dr appt on tue (mon is a holiday where i live). I thought i couldnt breathe thru my nose due to allergies or sinus issues or something. But nope. Im sure it can be easily fixed tho.
Now im just relaxing and waiting for my boy to fall asleep. Then off to bed at 10pm. I have work tmrw again so need to prepare for that. Have a great evening everyone!
Checking in before bed. I had a good day and got a lot done. I got up early and took my car to be serviced. Afterwards, i went shopping for things i need for vacation. Also got a new fishing rod! I made fajitas for lunch, watched a football game and went for a long walk after it stopped raining and storming. Im worn out and ready for bed. I never got the medication issue figured out this week. No one called me back yesterday. I was really irritated, but decided not to let it ruin my weekend. Thereās nothing i can do until Tuesday now. I was hoping to start the new medication before i leave for vacation, but that may not happen. Iāve waited this long, whatās another week or two at this point.
Just checking in. Question, if you have a setback, is it productive to have consequences you put on yourself? With my setback i cant touch my game for 30 days. Im a huge football fan, if i have a setback, i will ban myself from watching for an extended period of time. Do you all think this is productive and if so, what have you done?
Another day spent running my ass off, but the wedding in the other room was so chill that some staff was able to come help us here and there. As chaotic as it was, I felt really great by the end. Seeing my service charge surely helped. After doing some math, I found I was making $71 an hour tonight! Canāt complain there I hope this energy carries into tomorrow morning bc I totally drank the last cup of coffee I had this morning and forgot to grab more Although, I always made it to work hungover (or still drunk), so Iāll be fine Enjoy your sober Sunday everyone!!!
Last day of work before my holidays ahead! Therapy on Friday really helped to ease some tensions in my mind, body and soul. I slept pretty well the last two nights. Dreamed dreams but not these crazy unsettling ones. Just normal strange ones. No cravings whatsoever. Looking forward to three weeks off work, doing stuff I want to do 100%. Clean and sober. Have as good a Sunday as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. I will. Love from the hood.
@CATMANCAM and @Tragicfarinelli I feel itās hard to be proud of myself because Iāve taken care of myself literally all my life. Thatās just what it is and nothing to be proud of (in my mind). I take care of myself, end of. When something goes wrong Iāll (only) have myself to blame and I will do so relentlessly. When stuff goes right I did my job and thatās all. Nothing to be proud of, nothing to see here, move on please. Something like that. @SelfLove_42 A basic rule in psychology is that reinforcing good behaviour by rewarding it is much more productive and helping than to punish bad behaviour. Just look at your user name and follow your own advice friend. Hugs. @Rob11 Nice pic friend and thanks for sharing. Keep working on yourself. Leading by example is all we can do. And thatās quite a club sandwich by the way! @acromouse I was wondering what was happening in the pic that made it stand out for me. Thanks for making me realize it was the lack of cars. I love (shots of) streets with no cars
Day 440 AF
It was a nice day. BBQ at my sonās for his birthday. I canāt believe my baby is 39 tomorrow. Iām trying to remember the last time we celebrated his birthday together. I canāt remember. Iām so thankful that Iām included in their celebrations. Iām thankful I get to spend time with my grandkids as well. I missed them so.
I also managed to catch a speaker meeting which I always find so inspirational. Overall the weekend is starting off well.
@JazzyS im sorry to hear you arenāt feeling well
Thanks for mentioning the term leading by example. It is important to keep my boundaries while doing so, if I give her a finger sheāll try to grap my hand and more. It is my favoriete club sandwich, my door is always open for youā¦
Oh I love Halloween, too.
I refuse to put up any Christmas decoration unitl after Halloween
But the Christmas planning has started: gifts, advent calendars, dates for parties and get-togethers. And of course the odd mince pie will find itās way into my mouth long before December.
This is really true Menno. Maybe we should be proud of past achievement and survival then? Go deep and big on celebrating how we did manage stuff before we had the full capacity and experience to do so?
Can I add a book recommendation thatās fabulous:
Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 186.
September 1st. Though I was going to do so much today. Laundry,fall decorating the house, start my writing. Keep going the renovation.
Making the seasons first pumpkin spiced latte.
Bake gluten free bread.
But weāre out of milk, and coffee and my period cramps says that none of the other things will be done today either. Thereās also still very nice warm and summery outside, weather forecast says itās going to be +28 C next weekās havenāt been that warm all summer. So fall gets to wait just a little bit longer.
Will still so the Pumpkin spiced latte when Iāve been to the store this afternoon, but itās going to an Iced pumpkin spiced latte
Two upcoming weeks calendar is already full. Canāt wait for fall break.
Like my new haircut but quietly decided to never ever cut my bangs short again. I love the look, especially on others. But Iām constantly annoyed with having hair in my eyes. Luckily my hair grows fast, so itāll be long enough to tuck behind my ears around Christmas again
Thatās all Folks
Wishing yāall a wonderful day.
@GOKU2019 That story about your destroyed cassettes is really sad. I remember having audio and video cassettes as a kid that ment the world to me. My dad once recorded some of his stuff over one of mine by accident. I was so angry at him for a very long time. Canāt imagine being a child and having a family member destroy all my treasures like that @Mno I think yesterdayās picture felt so earie because there was no one and nothing in this street. No cars, no people, just the silent bikes @Lefty624 What is labor day about? Is this a holiday in the US? @Sabrina80 Congrats on 700 days Quite an achievement!
284 days no sugar
148 UPF
22 gluten
22 dairy
Hormonal changes are making my days difficult, including cravings of all sorts. My sleep is not very restorative, I feel like shit most of the day, and I canāt think straight even if my life depended on it. I know thiss will pass. I donāt have to listen to this, nor do I have to scold myself. No big deal.
Today is supposed to be the last really hot day for the weeks to come. There will be some more the following month once and again, but fall is comming and I enjoy the cooling down.
Iām going to do my weekly review today, try to stay out of the heat, and then there is a birthday thing for my father in law this afternoon.
Iāll keep my heart and mind open today as best as I can
I had a using dream last night. I felt so scared when I became conscious of the reality of what I was doing in my dream, woken up feeling depressed today. It was raining here all morning until a little while ago, itās getting brighter and much warmer now.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
Well I feel pretty good today. Yesterday was a chilled kind of day, went to collect the cats worm and flea treatments from their vet and wandered around the literary festival in my nearest park and got coffee there. Alan Bennett and Jay Rayner were guests there, but their events were completely sold out so I wish I had had some awareness to get tickets beforehand! Anyway, it was still fun to just mooch about and soak in the good vibes. Readers are my tribe, period.
We watched three movies in total when we got back; all a little triggering in some way, unintentionally. The Deliverance, Daddio and Longlegsā¦ Gave room for a lot of discussions around topics that opened up a lot of introspection and thought. On top of reading my current non fiction/self help books it was a heavy emotional day. But in a kind of good way, Iām glad I have safe space to talk and think.
Today is another chilled one before I set my intentions for the week. Iām back on my fitness journey from tomorrow. Giving myself grace to break and work on feelings has been good because often I push thoughts down with sweat and dopamine from exertion.
274 days
Fathers day here in NZ was a good day with the kids. Got to the gym early then out for lunch with the family.
The kids got out in the afternoon to play around the neighborhood.
Hang in there drinking wasnt my thing not saying its yours either but i know for me all of that shall pass as it has for many and myself with so many other things but your doing great one day at a time
8 Months Sober Today a huge continued thank you to everyone on here for the likes and words of encouragement.
I had a small wobble the other day my brain romanticising the idea of having a drink but i always take it a day at a time. My only advice to anyone thinking of quiting, do it! It has been by far the best thing i have ever done! Happy Sober Sunday xx
I hope this energy carries into tomorrow morning bc I totally drank the last cup of coffee I had this morning and forgot to grab more 
Although, I always made it to work hungover (or still drunk), so Iāll be fine 
Enjoy your sober Sunday everyone!!!
Quite an achievement! 
š©µ
