Second day of my weekend. Yesterday was real fun, meeting @Rob11 in his home town and joining him on a very nice hike on a gorgeous autumn day in the beautiful countryside of Limburg. Well worth the train trip there and back. Meeting other members of TS never has been a disappointment so far, so if you ever get the chance, go for it!
Today I have some chores to do. And a vaccination to get. And rest a bit. I’ll make it as good a day as I can. And expect the same from all of you. Sober and clean. Love.
Checking in at the end of Day 2. Feeling mostly okay again. Thats where the problem is. I feel better and my brain thinks its okay to use again. Cravings are super strong but just thinking about the after results. Bought the new Call Of Duty game and going to distract myself with that and a few snacks for tonight. ODAAT and one night at a time
@HakeemOsman Way to go friend 2 months is awesome work . Good luck with the all nighters and school work in general. I’m sure you will kick ass in it:hugs:. Ooh…law? That’s exciting! Any specific area picked out yet?
@GOKU2019 oh I’m sorry friend. I do know how painful a bad acupuncture treatment can be. Glad you are home and healing. Hope the abdominal pain gets better soon.
@NewBeginning1 yes- this is the time to be most vigilant and keep reminders around of why you are sober. Remind yourself of the falseness that the addiction offers. Great plan on staying distracted. Enjoy game night
Playing the tape through is what helps in occasions like this Matt. Think how you will feel the day after you drink.
It’s a merry go round: drink, hangover, day one, day two and feel a bit better, drink, hangover, day one…etc. You can brake this circle.
Happy belated birthday @Noshame @HakeemOsman congratulations with your days milestone!
*Day 2228
Worked hard yesterday and went to the theater afterwards. It was fun to be out again and doing something different. Went to a stand up comedian who said she would like to have plaster because as a kid when a schoolmate has it she ore her got all the attention and love.
And there I was sitting with my plaster
She can get mine for sure!
6 days to go
328 days
Last night at work turned out good. Home in the a.m to help get the kids off to school and then went to the gym for some easy sparring rounds.
Home for a nap then out to buy some things for the kids before picking them up from school.
Currently at work, last nightshift before days off. Been pretty quiet so far, but it’s friday night so unlikely to stay this way
It is torrential rain out there while I snuggle a coffee in my office. Still dark (5am) and windy as all get out.
It seems to be a very nasty day but we’ll brave the weather in the name of municipal work, lol
Day #327
Happy Friday
So yesterday was very good day. The little cousin came to see me and decided together tomorrow to go at our village for the weekend.
Last night i dreamed again crazy dreams about drinking. Like i was in other life - again sober but broking the sober life. Sometimes i have these kind of dreams in the beginning they were less but now while I’m close to 1 year they start to appear more and more often.
But now I’m drinking coffee and thinking about how happy i am and still every single day im thankful for the decision which i made on 3rd December.
About the work - Still going to interviews these days and waiting for the best job offer. But sometimes I’m mad because I don’t receive info from the companies in which I had applied.
But trying to think positively
Happy Friday again and happy another sober day stay strong and sober
@SoberWalker You should’ve asked the comedian to sign yours And now I can see a positive side to your plaster: Stepping on those legos should not be so painful right now. @NewBeginning1 Good to see you here. Your addiction is a cunning thing and will step up every time it sees an opportunity to convince you to get what it wants. So the best thing you can do, is to counter that with recovery related activities. Reading here, reading sobriety related literature, listening to sobriety podcasts, joining a recovery programm - off-line or on-line there are many different ones. With time your addiction will find fewer openings and opportunities. @GOKU2019 Very glad to hear it is ‘just’ an irritated muscle. I know they can hurt as hell, especially when this is located in your torso where everything is so sensitive. Sorry to hear about the steroids. I hope they will eleviate your pain. @HakeemOsman Congrats on 60days and best wishes for your continued hard work on your education @Just_Laura It does sound like some hormonal upheavals. A nice bath with epsom salts maybe? Or a foot soak? Hope you feel better soon. @Lile01 Whereever you are right now, I’m sending you healing energy and hoping for better times for you @Pamela I’m glad to hear you have someone in your life you can be open about your sobriety journey with. Friends are just priceless @Timetochange Congrats on 16 months! This is some major work. @Rookie Hope your headache leaves soon. Take good care, you are approaching three weeks
It’s a beautiful sunny day here. I slept well until dawn woke me, did morning yoga and rowind exercises. I’m going to work on my game, putting more of the puzzle together. Tonight I am going to join an event where all kinds of local community initiatives that are working on climate change and climate justice projects meet. Curious how this will go.
Today’s picture is the skull of a huge prehistorical stag head from the paleolithic I saw at the archeological museum last week. That animal must have been the size of a really big horse if not bigger.
Happy sober Friday my friends! Yesterday was such a productive day. Im looking forward to another one today by being disciplined and just doing the next right thing.
Slept well (even though the house alarm went off in the middle of the night for no reason) . So maybe this no caffeine stuff is starting to work after all.
Checking in Friday morning. It’s been a week. I’ve been sick and so have several of my clients. My schedule keeps getting changed due to people calling off (including me). I’m concerned ive already gotten sick this early in the season. I haven’t had time to get my flu shot yet. Once i get sick, i have a hard time getting over it due to the meds i take. I see the rheumatologist next week. Im anxious to see if my healthy eating plan and new meds have affected my inflammation numbers. I feel somewhat better and I’ve lost some weight, so that must mean I’m doing something right.
I have a busy weekend coming up. Our monthly fundraiser is Saturday. When i get off work, i have to make the pies and do some food prep. Then Saturday I’ll be busy all day with cooking, set up, the actual event, clean up, etc. On Sunday, I’ll have to get my laundry and cleaning done at home. Then back to work Monday. I’m already worn out from being sick, but it’s good for me to keep busy
Just checking in, doing the mental work daily, staying ‘current’ with my wife, trying to work on just being present and not dominated by my vices and ‘devices’. Therapist on wednesday, check in’s daily. Now i gotta make the effort of getting back to the gym. ODAAT. Have a great day everyone!
Day 5. Had a little cry in the car with my husband on our date He could’ve had a nice, mentally stable addiction free wife, but he got me instead… It was short and sweet my sadness, needed to be expressed i guess. sigh
. Good luck with the all nighters and school work in general. I’m sure you will kick ass in it:hugs:. Ooh…law? That’s exciting! Any specific area picked out yet?
days milestone! 
stay strong and sober 
He could’ve had a nice, mentally stable addiction free wife, but he got me instead… It was short and sweet my sadness, needed to be expressed i guess. sigh