Congratulations 
Enjoy your vacation!
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Day 986
I was so glad to get home after work. It was a looong day. I am tired and ready for bed already lol. I gave my son a bath and got him ready for bed. After hes asleep Ill get ready for work tmrw, then relax a bit wirh hubby. Overall it was an okay day. Im clean and sober and thats the best feeling in the world!
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@Whereswaldo triple 2ās! Way to go friend 
keep going strong 
@Mischa84 ah man Iām sorry. Hope you are able to rest and clear up the cough. Glad you have some holiday timeā¦hope you are able to build up some immunity to the little rascals. Itās gotta be hard staying healthy around kids (they are always catching something and spreading it around).
@Butterflymoonwoman glad to hear you are in the mend. I know itās frustrating when you are putting in the work and not seeing the results. Keep at it friend. Even if you canāt see the changes , your body is feeling em and getting stronger/ healthier.
@Juli1 9 months!!! Wow that is coming up quick. Your mind could be playing the milestone truck and trying to convince you that you can have that one. Proud of you for playing the tape forward. Also - remember those first days into sobriety and recall how tough it was. Keep forward friend and youāll never have to repeat those days. 
Firstā¦ congratulations on 3 weeks! 
I think itās great that you are distancing yourself from past life habits and trying to figure out the sober you. This can be a daunting task as I know how everything we did was revolved around alcohol/ drugs. You can find yourself again and make new habits and associations with tasks without involving your DOC. Take it ODAAT and be patient. Maybe try some meet up groups or classes or Google hobbies that you may want to pick up. Have fun with it 
@HolySquid woot woot! 600 days is amazing enjoy your family vacation 
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Wow! Flex those sober muscles my friend ! So grateful that you were able to recall support from the past to help you get through todayās urge. Day 6 and counting
@jules000 great to see you smiling. Glad you are having a better day
Checking in on Saturday evening
675 days free of alcohol and weed
1090 days free of cigarettes
Day started off slow. It was super hard to get motivated. Luckily knowing that if I didnāt get to a few major tasks then someone else would do them and that got me to push through. I donāt want my stuff to fall on anyone elseās shoulders. It was a super long and strenuous day. Iām exhausted and hurt. In bed now ā¦ going to enjoy an episode in TV and crash.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/ eveningā¦ sending you all so much love 
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Basically what my therapist has been trying to tell me for 10 years, lol.
Lets keep talking, its exactly this, difficulty identifying, acknowledging my emotions, feelings. Sounds simple, its not, even to understand it. Iāve been broadening my understanding lately, and just telling myself, man, i dont fān know. But just saying this has helped.
Thank you 
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600 days amazing!
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You and me both. I have gotten to the point that I understand what happens, but I am nowhere near understanding why it happens and what I can do to regulate. The only thing that helps me thus far is to isolate for days on end and wait for the pressure to drop, slowly.
If only we possessed an āemotions valveā that would allow us to depressurize, that would be amazing!
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Saturday night check in before bed.
The two Halloween parties I went to today were awesome. So glad I stayed sober, and Iām going to bed feeling Like Iāve got a good chance of a successful big day tomorrow. Hosting a big Halloween party here. I should be able to hit the ground running first thing in the morning when I get up.
Take care!
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Checking in sober on a Saturday night. Looking forward to another hangover free morning
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Day 1106 AF
Worked the Saturday shift. We had to deal with a frustrated client. Some people are just rude af on the phones. Went to the grocery store after work. Kids were fighting like always. Got back home and chilled with the little man for a bit. I was gonna go for a walk but not feeling it. Just getting tired of following the same routine every day. I donāt have alot of cash to go anywhere either. Iāve tried reading but get bored after like two pages. Gonna play video games for a bit and then crash. Tomorrowās a new day.
Have a goodnite, fam. ODAAT
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TW: Suicide
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A couple of days ago I heard one of my fellow nurses say to another nurse āall people who commit suicide are egotists.ā Made me mad but I didnāt know what to say except maybe fuck you or something. So I said nothing. Then yesterday afternoon I got the message Rogier killed himself.
We werenāt even that close, an old colleague from when I just started out working in addiction care nearly 25 years ago. A very nice colleague, big guy, very Dutch in his directness and bluntness, down to earth, with a great sense of humour. We stayed in touch mainly on FB, where he posted his drawings regularly, sharing his journey through life.
He struggled with mental health for a long time. Early this year his beloved dog Roxy died. Then more recently he was hospitalized after suffering from paralysis and loss of muscle strength. Took more than month to come up with a diagnosis of an autoimmune disease.
The last month he seemed on the mend, making serious work of rehabilitation, making slow progress. Then yesterday this message came through another former colleague I remained friends with. I hope you found rest and peace Rogier. You sure werenāt an egotist.
And on I go. Off to work a Sunday morning shift it is. Letās have as good a day as we all can friends. Sober and clean. Love. The pic is the last drawing he shared, last Thursday.
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Youāre not the only one. I still donāt feel like I really know who I am yet! All I know is Iām better than I was. I donāt recall if youāve tried any programs, but I turned to AA when I felt lost in the beginning. It was nice being surrounded by people who shared the same goal as me, even as strangers. Congrats on 3 weeks! Better days await
@HolySquid Way to go on 600 days!!!
@mxelle Well done fighting that urge Weed is a tough one for sure, but itās worth it once the fog clears 
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Work felt so long 
I knew I was working this party, but I didnāt know I was bartending. The problem with that was, I didnāt eat much before work bc I expected to be able to go in the kitchen and snack whenever I wanted. Not be trapped in a box, surrounded by people for 5 hours. Lucky I brought a protein shake and smoothie, but it wasnāt enough substance and I ended up with a headache. I was the last to leave and just wanted to get straight home, forgetting I planned to pick up a few things on the way. I know I should eat now, but nothing I have here sounds good. Plus itās 1am and I have work in the morning 
Whoa, wtf?! Idk who it was or where it came from but someoneās arguing! Things like that used to happen on the daily. The fact it surprised me bc of how rare itās become makes me grateful for the neighbors I have now. Itās really come a long way in my 7 years of living here. Itās is the longest stretch without a dealer in the building. Not that I ever associated with them(even when I was using), but still, I hope it stays this way 
Well I just broke down and had a snack bc I donāt want to risk hunger keeping me awake. Hope everyone has a great Sunday
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I was up before 6am today as the clocks went back in the middle of the night. But I got enough sleep anyway so this is like a little gift.
Iāve made a huge pot of coffee, took out some walking snacks and applied deep heat to my partnerās back in the hope we can do what Iāve planned todayā¦ So far the back is presenting as much better 
Iāve devised a long and circular eight miler up thru the parkland walk from Finsbury park in North London, with a trip right up to the top of Alexandra Palace and back around walking the New River Path near Haringey. I really wanna do it. Hereās hoping today is a good walking day.
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Iām sorry to read this
Iām thinking of you and his family today 
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Iām sorry Menno about this sad loss. I hope he found his peace
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*Day 2230 
Worked yesterday and visited my brother and his family afterwards. It was weird, I do not felt a connection. Maybe we havenāt seen eachother too much ore we hide ourselves behind a shield ore such. Maybe itās just me who felt unconfortable, I do not know. My hubby hasnāt noticed anything, not about me ore my brother. He just had a good time. Maybe Iām too sensitive?
A few days to go before the plaster can finally go. I havenāt walked ore worked out in 2 months now. Itās such a loooong time
Today? I friend is coming to visit me. So a talk with coffee and pie
Have a good day ore night all
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340 sugar
204 UPF
78 gluten
78 dairy
14 distraction-free eating
Today a lot of fog. Ideal weather for the hike Iāll be off to in a few. Iāll try to fit my weekly review in the afternoon. Glad the clocks are reset today. I had one more hour to sleep. Some Yoga and the rest is going to be chill. Tomorrow is the first day of school after the fall break.
Todayās picture is a pretty gutter.
Peace and love for life always 
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Day 258
Sunday Evening check in. Had a really nice weekend. Time with Nature, time with family, time with my girl. Hope everyone is doing ok
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330 days
Quick check in. Good day.
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Checking in on day 728 AF.
Wishing everyone a peaceful & joyful Sunday. Have a fantastic day 
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