A beautiful but also sad drawing.
Hope you are ok my friend 
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@Dilettante good to read from you 
sorry about your lifey weekend 
glad you’re in a better place again now 🩵
@wahtisnormal belated happy birthday 
grief truly is really hard sending strength 🩵 enjoy your new watch
@Laner that really is a lot of mice! I’m so sorry you and your neighbours are dealing with this. It’s interesting what acromouse has shared about their experience. I hope you find a solution 
@Noshame belated happy birthday
@Timetochange congrats on 16 months 
@NewBeginning1 welcome back
@Lile01 I hope you’re okay sending strength 🩵
@HakeemOsman congrats on 60+ days
@GOKU2019 thank you I hope you can get in with the specialist soon
@Amy30 sending strength 🩵 keep squishing!
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@Rob11 belated happy birthday
@Juli1 maybe because work during the week is a good distraction, and maybe you are tired from the work week too. Sending strength 🩵
@Seb oh wow, you saw it! Great photo 
@Frank68 belated happy birthday
@acromouse very stylish indeed
@Whereswaldo congrats on all the 2s
@Pamela congrats on 3 weeks you will rediscover yourself and find new things to enjoy
@HolySquid congrats on 600 days
@Mno sorry for this sad news 
@SoberWalker sorry you didn’t feel the connection with your brother 
but yay for the cast coming off soon, your freedom awaits!
1538 days no alcohol.
1003 days no cocaine.
33 days no binge-eating.
17 days no vape.
Missed my check-ins Friday and yesterday. Had a bad time with anxiety whilst getting ready to travel for therapy. Therapy was rough again, I’m so angry, I guess I’m feeling something atleast. Then on the train home, everyone’s seats had been double-booked, so I had to stand the whole way home and was in excrutiating pain and sweating profusely and very visibly, I felt so humiliated and ashamed. It was so crowded, there were people in all the exits and aisles all squished together. I don’t think I can do it anymore. Might have to ask if we can go back to online sessions, even though I do get so much more out of in-person ones. I wish I could drive there, but even the backroad route involves 2 slip roads and 4 miles on a motorway, it’s the slip roads that I can’t cope with. I feel like I’d have a panic attack and perform an emergency stop and cause an accident.
I’m also so nauseous, it catches me off-guard because I wait until I feel it before I take the anti-sickness pills. So Friday my seat on the train to therapy was facing backwards and at another table seat, and I had to take one then. Then when I got back to the city centre I live near, I was waiting for a taxi and had to take one then. I was still sweating so bad that I steamed up the entire taxi, which humiliated me further. I think it might be another withdrawal symptom bc I’m not usually that bad!
Anyway, I was able to decompress yesterday. I still need to take the packages to the parcel shop to return them. My recycling bags are also full again so I’ll take them out to the bins. I will read a chapter of the book I’m reading. Do some more meditations. See what else I can motivate myself to do.
It feels good to be caught-up here.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
🩵
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So sorry to read about your loss Menno. Sounds like a really good guy has left this earth. Hope he found peace.
Thanks for sharing his drawing. I keep you and him and his grieving family and friends in my thoughts today.
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Happy Sunday!
Thanks for the birthday wishes! It was a fun day.
Sunday mornings are good. I get to go to the local hospital for an AA meeting supporting inpatients in rehab. Its grear service work.
MAKE it an awesome day my friends!!!
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Thank you @JazzyS @Cjp @Just_Laura @CATMANCAM it always feels good to be seen and heard
Checking in after an eventful day yesterday…I hired a van and moved all the big stuff to my new flat…with the soon to be ex-husband watching on and just being awful. Not even a thought of drinking to ease the stress or drown my sorrows though.
Being sober has given me the clarity to see that our relationship was not good on so many levels…and the strength to be able to act on that knowledge 
it’s going to be tough, but I know I’ve made the right decision. I hope everyone has a lovely Sunday
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Hey all, checking in on day 1596. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Welcome home Mel 
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@GOKU2019 ugh! I hate rude people. Especially dealing with screaming customers. Sorry you had to deal with it. I do know when my routine becomes too routine I try to switch out things like find a different path to walk or time of day. Funny how a different time of day gives me a different picture of the same neighborhood. The colors and temp is different and a different group of people are out. Not a huge change but it does help me.
@mno sorry for your loss Mno. I don’t believe egotists would be even close in description. Not that there is a one term description for it that fits everyone. May Roger rest in peace and be free from any ailments 
a beautiful drawing
@Tragicfarinelli the day sounds lovely! I do hope you are able to get in that lovely walk today 
@CATMANCAM those numbers are impressive my friend. 
. I am sorry to hear about your travel experience m. Being in a crowded train would cause most anyone anxiety. I too would not be able to handle such a ride. I had to Google slip roads as I’ve never heard that term before. Driving can cause loads of anxiety. I am hoping that you are able to talk with your therapist and come up with a solution that works as I do think the in person sessions seem to be working better for you. Sending hugs and love my friend. You have nothing to be embarrassed about - I’m sorry your train ride resulted in such excruciating pain
@Moe_L should be proud. 1 week is amazing work keep the momentum going!
@Dilettante great job getting through the stressful situation and not turning to alcohol . A huge step my friend. We are here if you need us. Wishing you luck as you embark on this nee chapter of your life
Checking in on Sunday morning
Not the best night of sleep. I had weird dreams that felt super real and I’d wake up trying to deal with the situation. Happened like 4 times and for the life of me I can’t remember a single dream.
I’m up but not awake lol. Still hurting physically. Going to start with coffee and see how the day progresses.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
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296 AF days and nights
Enjoy your Sunday.
@Mno my sincerest condolences. Such a hard way to lose a person. So many questions.
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My sincere condolences friend, definitely not an egoist. Seemed to be among other things a talented artist, may he rest in peace 
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Day 22
I was in a horrible mood yesterday. Went out for dinner with some friends and husband for a birthday celebration and everyone was drinking. It would have been fine but it just went on and on. My back has been hurting so I am going to take a day off from exercise today… maybe a nice long stretch. Have a great day everyone.
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Sunday morning here. Got breakfast ready to go for my daughter when she gets up.
It’s the calm before the storm. We have music class, then will come home and prep for our Halloween party here today.
She’s up now - gotta go!
Have a good one!
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Day 347. Nice to think im coming up on 9 months at work and one year being my best self. Hopefully parts will come for my wheel tomorrow i cant lie im having a wheely hard time not being able to ride. See what i did there? Wheely hard time 
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Oh im so sorry to hear of ur colleague’s passing. Was that one of his drawings that u posted? I really like it! And yes… It bothers me too when i hear others make those kinds of comments 
Sad that that is how they view others who are struggling. I do hope that u have as good of a day as u can have my friend.
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Day 11
My mood was really bad today. My cravings was too much today but i didn’t take a drink , im sober and im happy
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Condolences my friend. It must be so hard to feel you have to take that choice over others, IMO. not ego.
Blessings 
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Day 987
Another work shift on the go. Feeling tired again this morning. I swear I just need to sleep in for once. Id love to naturally wake up without am alarm. But there is no sign of that anywhere in the near future. Its okay. Ill manage. Just feeling really tired today.
Today will consist of work and then home to do laundry so we have fresh clothes for the week. Im thinking of checking out an online sermon this morning also. I used to watch Elevation Church online quite often but have stopped for months now. Might check it ou it today. Id also love to get back to the gym this week. I believe im feeling well enough to go. My son has an early morning appt tmrw so no time to exercise. But Tuesday i am going to the gym. Get back on track so i can start feeling better.
Guess thats about it for me today. Hope everyone had a great Sunday!
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You did not drink, that’s what counts!
Cravings come and go like waves. You’re a surfer, you can ride those waves!
11 days Sarath!! 
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