Thank you, @Dirk this sounds good!
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2y 7m 30d no self harm
Iāve been having more and more close calls and been quite suicidal. today I opened up to my therapist and she believes i need to be hospitalized. so she calls down a crisis evaluator since they determine who needs inpatient. even with me saying i was 80% sure I was going to harm myself in some way if they let me go home, and I couldnāt pass simple cognitive tests like spelling world backwards or counting by 7s.that wasnāt enough to qualify. so I just get to sit here and suffer. Iām never asking for this kind of help again we created a safety plan that involved my parents locking up meds and razors but apparently my parents donāt take me seriously either because they havenāt done either. itās really good to know that when Im at my worst i canāt rely on anyone in my home.
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Strange at is may seem this place has been my safe place for years now. But all the more so before I got into therapy. I have no one at home but Luna. Weāre here Megan. Youāre not alone. 
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Iāve never felt more alone honestly. i pushed away my friends with my own self destructive attitude and now theyāre hesitant to help me. i ruined everything on my own. theres not much left to hold on to
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I can imagine how lonely you must feel. But youāre not really. Weāre here. Your friends might be hesitant but they are there too. Hang in there friend. Hugs.
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Iām sorry that youāre feeling so low and that you reached out for help and the help was not forthcoming and has left you very much feeling alone and unhelped.
If you were at a period where you definitely were going to hurt yourself if you went to an ER, they would have to take you and listen to you and treat you.
I wish you could get involved with 3-D support group. I donāt know enough about it to be able to suggest one.
You are worthy, you are a wonderful person. You deserve to have a good life. You are young and sometimes being young is confusing and everythingās messed up and then often times it straightens up.
Your parents get an F for not taking you seriously.
We are all here to help you as much as we are able to.
Iām hoping somebody might come up with a suggestion of a support group that would be helpful for you.
Like N.A. or AA or Al-Anon.
I know you have seen so many of our members get so much benefit from going to the regular meetings either in person or online.
Maybe your therapist has a suggestion of a group situation that you could go to.
Letās try to find one thatās perfect for you. Maybe somebody will have a suggestion.
Iām glad youāve been posting lately, I hope thatās helpful for you.
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my therapist is having me go to an LGBT support group. thatās really the only group resource we could find for me in my area. i go Monday
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Are you going to be all right until Monday? One thing that has been talked about on the site has been getting sharpie markers or pens or any type of marker and if you feel like hurting yourself using the marker instead of something that would do damage.
I understand how you can feel really alone and very uncared for and I hope that the LGBT group will make you feel a part of a group like a family since you donāt have that at home and that you will fit in and have a friendly environment, there for you.
Iām glad that your therapist figured out something for you instead of just leaving you dangling without any help
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honestly I donāt even know if Iām going to be alright tonight. itās 3am i havenāt slept, I tried for hours. but thereās nothing I can do and Iām sure not waking up my parents to take me to the ERv
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What can we do to help you?
Editing to add if you need the ER you can call 911 and they will come get you and they will be professionals that they are and they will give you the help that you need at that time
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https://www.socialworkers.org/Practice/LGBTQIA2S/LGBTQIA2S-Crisis-Hotlines
Can you call any of these 24/7 lines to at least have someone to talk to please. It will help to connect with a person who will be able to listen to you.
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i donāt know. but I know Iām not calling an ambulance either. if I have to Iāll call a friend but id rather not wake them upm
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I canāt call them because theyāll send someone to my house if im honest
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If you need that help you need that help. Donāt worry about your parents or others, prioritise yourself.
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if I need help it can wait until morning. Iām not going to wake my parents up at 3am. they were already scared enough when I gave them the safety plan. althought apparently not scared enough to actually follow it
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Do they drink? If so, then that would qualify you to go to Al-Anon
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